Fw: Questions from a newcomer

[Guest guest]

Dear Jennifer,

 

Your message is so warm, and it is amazing - we have a lot in common. I

understand your questions and where you stand. "Vasistha's Yoga" is one of my

favorite texts, and I also have two children.

 

Regarding fears. Actually, fears arise at the moment we are afraid of something.

If you really feel you are "nothing" then here is nothing to be afraid of. Here

is no such a thing as a "scary" thing. All things, including pain, loneliness,

death are not "scary" by themselves. The fear arises in the relation between

"you" and something else - only things you believe are dreadful become dreadful,

and more reality you give to this things and your feeling of fear, more dreadful

they become. The thing to learn is no one can make you any harm, if you don't

give it a permission from inside. Nothing can harm you unless YOU let it harm

you. It works the same way not only for spiritual processess, but in everyday

life as well. No one can insult you if you don't agree to become insulted, no

one can disturb you unless you agree to be disturbed, nothing can worry you if

you don't agree to worry, etc... It takes two to tango - you and "the thing". If

it is only you - here is no fear. The part of the process is not even to

overcome the fear, it just - let it die because you did not give it a permission

to scare you. In the beginning I just believed in this - NOTHING CAN SCARE YOU

WITHOUT YOUR PERMISSION, but now I just know it.

 

I also had to deal with the feeling of the loneliness. But ask yourself - who is

lonely? At the moment "you" feel loneliness, you are not one with the universe -

because to be one with the universe is to be with EVERYTHING in this universe.

Is it lonely to be with everything? No way! Then you feel lonely, you have a

pity on poor little you, all alone in your house, SEPARATED from everything

else. It is feeling of being separated make you feel lonely, not being one with

the universe. It is a simple rule, worth remembering - if you feel miserable,

fearful, and sad - you have created a separation somethere. Look where this

separation is - and take this separation away... No, God did not create the

universe because he could not bear to be alone, he created it out of bubbling

joy, overflowing, impossible to contain itself - JOY of LIFE, JOY of LOVE, JOY

of BEING.

 

Once I felt lonely and frightened, and I just came out and the fear

disappeared... -

 

Today I waked up in confines of my home, and I felt empty and frightened. I was

alone, and there were four walls, and more walls inside. Here are thousand ways

to torture yourself if you are separate.

 

I open the door and come out. I come out to the world, and I love the world.

Here are no more four walls of my house, and walls inside disappear like a dew

on the morning sun. It is no longer me, only Love and Life. Don't close the

door, don't go back to sleep, don't come back. Here are thousand ways to kneel

and kiss the Love, if you are Love.

 

Life is short if you are separated, Love is without beginning and the end, if

you are Life.

 

Love

 

Ana

[Guest guest]

Dear Ana,

 

Thank you so much for your warm, joyful reply. I am happy to hear

from someone who can relate to what I am saying in a personal way. I

share my experiences with my husband, and he understands in a way,

but I was looking for someone to say, "Yes, me too!"

 

Thank you for what you said about fears. It helps.

 

The loneliness part I am not sure I have gotten straight yet but it

has gone away for now. One thing I realized, is that if you put the

words "all one" together, you get allone...alone. It isn't really

that I have felt separate from anything, except nothing. Separate

from nothing. And that did feel very very lonely. Alone. All one. If

there is one, and only one, there can be no two, no differences, no

creation. I am coming from this from memory now, the experience of

it is gone.

 

Thanks again.

 

Warmly,

Jennifer

 

 

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