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Om Namah Shivaya!

 

Everybody in this group please accept my humble namaskaaram! May you

and your familes/friends be blessed by the omnipresent Mahadev!

 

My name is Rahul and I am 25 years old and currently residing in

Dallas, TX (USA). I was introduced to the practices of Tantra at an

early age by my father who is a devotee of Durga and also a

r of `Mantra, Tantra, Yantra' magazine. I am a new member

of this group and have been very impressed by the knowledge and

expertise of the members on the subjects of Tantra and general

spiritual matters. It is my objective to learn from all of you and

also to obtain your honest critique on my own spiritual practices.

 

Personally, I am a devotee of Shiva & Durga (Kali, Dhoomavati,

Baglamukhi & Matangi) and I have accepted none other than `MAHADEV'

himself as my spiritual/tantric guru – a request which I believe he

has been kind enough to accept. By the grace of mahadev, I came to

know about the 10 mahavidyas when I was 18 years old and as of

today, my daily prayer includes the following;

 

- Ganesha Mantra

- Shiv Rudrashtakam

- Durga 108 names

- Kali 108 names

- Dhoomavati Kavach

- Dhoomavati Stotram

- Dhoomavati 108 names

- Baglamukhi 108 names

- Matangi Kavach

- Matangi 108 Names

- Kshma Prarthna

 

In the course of time, I have experienced certain incidents that

defied logic and seem to be the work of a `higher' power. Here are a

few examples;

 

- My 3 year old acute acne was cured within a mere month – never to

return again – by praying to goddess Matangi. And I'll be damned if

I had not tried every medicine in town prior to that to no avail.

 

- While reading the story of Tirupati Balaji I was very moved by the

stories of his kindness and mercy on his devotees. I prayed to him

and at the end of the prayer, donated all fruits of my prayer to the

good of others but also jokingly suggested that if he still wants to

grant me a wish then I ask that he join me to worship my

guru `Shivji' on the auspicious occasion of `Mahashivratri' which

was to occur in a few weeks. Indeed, not expecting anything

whatsoever, I forgot all about it. On the eve of `Mahashivratri'

when I was in line to surrender my prayers and offerings to mahadev,

a young guy that I had never seen before approached me and

repeatedly insisted that he knows me, is my friend, and that we were

supposed to meet today in the temple. I wasn't in any mood of

talking since I was uttering prayers and after a customary

introduction, seeing he was empty handed, gave him half of all my

offerings including packets of milk. He accepted, thanked me for the

offerings, smiled and arrogantly walked straight into the shiva

temple, a move not noticed/protested by any of the devotees in line.

I was somewhat offended and wanted to have a word with him when he

came out. But that was the last I ever saw of him. He went in, but

he never came out, as I would have seen him (entrance and exit being

the same) and was nowhere to be found when I entered the shiva

temple.

 

- At the famous `Jwalamukhi' shrine in H.P. (our kul-devi), there is

a small statue of chaturbhuja mahakali on the back wall of the

shrine. Being a kali devotee, I once offered a chunari, prayers & my

own blood to mahakali, and then proceeded for a parikrama of the

shrine. Upon my return to the statue at the end of the parikrama

(which took barely 30 seconds), I discovered that the chunari was

gone! I was outraged. I said bad things to mahakali and told her

that she could have at least kept someone from stealing my offering

until I left her temple. Crying, sad and very upset, I left the

temple and refused to take her prasadam from the priest. That same

night I had a dream in which she appeared telling me that she took

the `chunari' to where she resides and it was not stolen! Needless

to say, I was in the temple the next morning again crying and

offering my apologies to her for my stupidity and ignorance.

 

- Within a year and half of worship, I was admitted to a university

in Bridgeport, CT – USA for studies. My father's friend prepared all

the paperwork and I was granted a visa to the United States without

being asked a single question by the embassy officer even though the

paperwork submitted clearly showed that I was unable to fully

support myself financially in the United States. Today, after 5

years in the US, I am almost finished with my higher studies and

work as a `Financial Analyst' for a multi-billion dollar

corporation.

 

Recently however, there has been an occurrence that has left me

preplexed and I am desperate too seek an explanation from the

members of this forum who seem to have devoted their entire lives in

the pursuit of tantra and worship.

 

About 2 months ago, I stayed out late with friends at a social

gathering and did not return home @ my usual time to say my daily

prayers. When I did come home, there was still time to pray before

the clock struck midnight but I was too tired and did not even

realize when I fell asleep on my bed without praying.

 

The next morning, at approximately 6:30 AM, while I was fully-awake

but still lazily lying in bed unwilling to get up, I felt like

someone was walking on my bed with gentle steps. And it was not an

illusion because I could feel the mattress compress and the bed-

sheet and my blanket move with each step just as of there was a real

person walking on the bed. Whoever it was, would take 4 gentle

steps, starting from right next to my feet all the way to my waist

and then walk backwards. I pulled away the blanket from my face and

turned back to look but saw nothing.

 

Wondering and clueless, I pulled the blanket over my face again and

was wondering about the incident when to my horror, it happened all

over again - 4 steps starting right next to my feet going all the

way to my waist and then 4 steps backwards. Horrified, I decided to

call for help but remembered that I had forgotten to pray the

previous night. Intuitively, with apologies, I recited the following

shloka to goddess Matangi;

 

Shyaamaangim Shashishekharaam Trinayanaam Vedeh Karairbibhratim,

 

Paasham Khetamathankusham Dridmasim Naashaya Bhaktdvisham,

 

Ratnalankaran Prabhotjwalatanum Bhaswatkiritam Shubhaam,

 

Maatangim Mansa Smaraami Sadyaam, Sarvaarth Sidhipradaam.

 

… and requested that if it's her, she kindly proceed to the prayer

spot (make shift temple in one of the book-shelf spaces in my

apartment) and I shall come and pray to her immediately after my

shower. And the next thing I heard was the bed-room door (which was

already left open somewhat the night before), further swing open as

if someone was leaving the room.

 

Needless to say, I did take a shower and finished my prayers but was

very shaken by this experience. After a few weeks when I felt

somewhat normal I began to dismiss the incident as a figment of my

imagination.

 

So this recent Friday (11/11/05), while praying to goddess Matangi I

requested the goddess that if I am not mistaken to assume that it

was her walking on my bed that morning, can she please do something

to prove it to me? I prayed that I am shaken to assume to the

contrary (spirit activity) as I believed that I was immune and

protected from all such unwelcome omens and it is affecting my

belief in all my prayers. That Friday night (11/11/05), I fell

asleep praying to goddess Matangi and the next morning (Saturday –

11/12/05), much to my surprise, the entire process was repeated

again although much earlier (5:00 AM).

 

I can assure you that I woke up only a few minutes before the

incident but was fully alert. Only this time, I wasn't scared. After

walking on my bed once and back, the footsteps stopped but on my

insistence (I mean it, I asked her to do it again), it occurred once

again. She took 4 steps forward and 4 steps backwards the exact same

way as in the last incident.

 

Of all the goddesses that I worship daily, I have a very different

and special relationship with Matangini devi. She's the one that

seems to be most active around me and easiest to please of all the

rest. I know that in her 108 names, it is said that, "Whosoever

recites these names with devotion and love, the GODDESS MATANGI

RESPECTFULLY RESIDES WITH THAT WORSHIPPER."

 

And so I believe it's time for me to disclose major incidents of my

spiritual journey thus far to people I believe are far more

knowledgeable in the field of yoga/tantra than me. I especially ask

fellow devotees of goddess Matangi to comment on my post and share

their own experiences, such as mine, if any.

 

I am hoping for a more thoughtful insight into my experiences by the

esteemed members of this forum and I sincerely hope that my thoughts

will not be dismissed as hallucinations of a delusional mind because

I assure you – they are not so!

 

Om Namah Shivaya!

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Personally, I am a devotee of Shiva & Durga (Kali, Dhoomavati, Baglamukhi &

Matangi) and I have accepted none other than `MAHADEV' himself as my

spiritual/tantric guru – a request which I believe he has been kind enough to

accept. By the grace of mahadev, I came to know about the 10 mahavidyas when I

was 18 years old and as of today, my daily prayer includes the following; -

Ganesha Mantra- Shiv Rudrashtakam- Durga 108 names- Kali 108 names- Dhoomavati

Kavach- Dhoomavati Stotram- Dhoomavati 108 names- Baglamukhi 108 names- Matangi

Kavach- Matangi 108 Names- Kshma PrarthnaIn the course of time, I have

experienced certain incidents that defied logic and seem to be the work of a

`higher' power. Here are a few examples; - My 3 year old acute acne was cured

within a mere month – never to return again – by praying to goddess Matangi.

And I'll be damned if I had not tried

every medicine in town prior to that to no avail. - While reading the story of

Tirupati Balaji I was very moved by the stories of his kindness and mercy on

his devotees. I prayed to him and at the end of the prayer, donated all fruits

of my prayer to the good of others but also jokingly suggested that if he still

wants to grant me a wish then I ask that he join me to worship my guru `Shivji'

on the auspicious occasion of `Mahashivratri' which was to occur in a few

weeks. Indeed, not expecting anything whatsoever, I forgot all about it. On the

eve of `Mahashivratri' when I was in line to surrender my prayers and offerings

to mahadev, a young guy that I had never seen before approached me and

repeatedly insisted that he knows me, is my friend, and that we were supposed

to meet today in the temple. I wasn't in any mood of talking since I was

uttering prayers and after a customary introduction, seeing he was empty

handed, gave

him half of all my offerings including packets of milk. He accepted, thanked me

for the offerings, smiled and arrogantly walked straight into the shiva temple,

a move not noticed/protested by any of the devotees in line. I was somewhat

offended and wanted to have a word with him when he came out. But that was the

last I ever saw of him. He went in, but he never came out, as I would have seen

him (entrance and exit being the same) and was nowhere to be found when I

entered the shiva temple. - At the famous `Jwalamukhi' shrine in H.P. (our

kul-devi), there is a small statue of chaturbhuja mahakali on the back wall of

the shrine. Being a kali devotee, I once offered a chunari, prayers & my own

blood to mahakali, and then proceeded for a parikrama of the shrine. Upon my

return to the statue at the end of the parikrama (which took barely 30

seconds), I discovered that the chunari was gone! I was outraged. I said

bad things to mahakali and told her that she could have at least kept someone

from stealing my offering until I left her temple. Crying, sad and very upset,

I left the temple and refused to take her prasadam from the priest. That same

night I had a dream in which she appeared telling me that she took the

`chunari' to where she resides and it was not stolen! Needless to say, I was in

the temple the next morning again crying and offering my apologies to her for my

stupidity and ignorance. - Within a year and half of worship, I was admitted to

a university in Bridgeport, CT – USA for studies. My father's friend prepared

all the paperwork and I was granted a visa to the United States without being

asked a single question by the embassy officer even though the paperwork

submitted clearly showed that I was unable to fully support myself financially

in the United States. Today, after 5 years in the US, I am almost finished with

my

higher studies and work as a `Financial Analyst' for a multi-billion dollar

corporation. Recently however, there has been an occurrence that has left me

preplexed and I am desperate too seek an explanation from the members of this

forum who seem to have devoted their entire lives in the pursuit of tantra and

worship. About 2 months ago, I stayed out late with friends at a social

gathering and did not return home @ my usual time to say my daily prayers. When

I did come home, there was still time to pray before the clock struck midnight

but I was too tired and did not even realize when I fell asleep on my bed

without praying. The next morning, at approximately 6:30 AM, while I was

fully-awake but still lazily lying in bed unwilling to get up, I felt like

someone was walking on my bed with gentle steps. And it was not an illusion

because I could feel the mattress compress and the

bed-sheet and my blanket move with each step just as of there was a real person

walking on the bed. Whoever it was, would take 4 gentle steps, starting from

right next to my feet all the way to my waist and then walk backwards. I pulled

away the blanket from my face and turned back to look but saw nothing. Wondering

and clueless, I pulled the blanket over my face again and was wondering about

the incident when to my horror, it happened all over again - 4 steps starting

right next to my feet going all the way to my waist and then 4 steps backwards.

Horrified, I decided to call for help but remembered that I had forgotten to

pray the previous night. Intuitively, with apologies, I recited the following

shloka to goddess Matangi; Shyaamaangim Shashishekharaam Trinayanaam Vedeh

Karairbibhratim, Paasham Khetamathankusham Dridmasim Naashaya Bhaktdvisham,

Ratnalankaran Prabhotjwalatanum Bhaswatkiritam Shubhaam,

Maatangim Mansa Smaraami Sadyaam, Sarvaarth Sidhipradaam. … and requested that

if it's her, she kindly proceed to the prayer spot (make shift temple in one of

the book-shelf spaces in my apartment) and I shall come and pray to her

immediately after my shower. And the next thing I heard was the bed-room door

(which was already left open somewhat the night before), further swing open as

if someone was leaving the room. Needless to say, I did take a shower and

finished my prayers but was very shaken by this experience. After a few weeks

when I felt somewhat normal I began to dismiss the incident as a figment of my

imagination. So this recent Friday (11/11/05), while praying to goddess Matangi

I requested the goddess that if I am not mistaken to assume that it was her

walking on my bed that morning, can she please do something to prove it to me?

I prayed that I am shaken to assume to the contrary (spirit

activity) as I believed that I was immune and protected from all such unwelcome

omens and it is affecting my belief in all my prayers. That Friday night

(11/11/05), I fell asleep praying to goddess Matangi and the next morning

(Saturday – 11/12/05), much to my surprise, the entire process was repeated

again although much earlier (5:00 AM). I can assure you that I woke up only a

few minutes before the incident but was fully alert. Only this time, I wasn't

scared. After walking on my bed once and back, the footsteps stopped but on my

insistence (I mean it, I asked her to do it again), it occurred once again. She

took 4 steps forward and 4 steps backwards the exact same way as in the last

incident. Of all the goddesses that I worship daily, I have a very different

and special relationship with Matangini devi. She's the one that seems to be

most active around me and easiest to please of all the rest. I know that in her

108 names, it is said that, "Whosoever recites these names with devotion and

love, the GODDESS MATANGI RESPECTFULLY RESIDES WITH THAT WORSHIPPER." And so I

believe it's time for me to disclose major incidents of my spiritual journey

thus far to people I believe are far more knowledgeable in the field of

yoga/tantra than me. I especially ask fellow devotees of goddess Matangi to

comment on my post and share their own experiences, such as mine, if any. I am

hoping for a more thoughtful insight into my experiences by the esteemed

members of this forum and I sincerely hope that my thoughts will not be

dismissed as hallucinations of a delusional mind because I assure you – they

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hI rAHUL,

 

jAI GURUDEV,

 

WELCOME TO THIS GROUP. THANKS FOR SHARING YOUR EXPERIENCES.

 

MAHINDRA texasauditor

<texasauditor >Sent: Mon, 14 Nov 2005

22:08:38 -0000 New Member - Asking for comments in some

spiritual experiences!

Om Namah Shivaya!

 

Everybody in this group please accept my humble namaskaaram! May you

and your familes/friends be blessed by the omnipresent Mahadev!

 

My name is Rahul and I am 25 years old and currently residing in

Dallas, TX (USA). I was introduced to the practices of Tantra at an

early age by my father who is a devotee of Durga and also a

r of `Mantra, Tantra, Yantra' magazine. I am a new member

of this group and have been very impressed by the knowledge and

expertise of the members on the subjects of Tantra and general

spiritual matters. It is my objective to learn from all of you and

also to obtain your honest critique on my own spiritual practices.

 

Personally, I am a devotee of Shiva & Durga (Kali, Dhoomavati,

Baglamukhi & Matangi) and I have accepted none other than `MAHADEV'

himself as my spiritual/tantric guru ? a request which I believe he

has been kind enough to accept. By the grace of mahadev, I came to

know about the 10 mahavidyas when I was 18 years old and as of

today, my daily prayer includes the following;

 

- Ganesha Mantra

- Shiv Rudrashtakam

- Durga 108 names

- Kali 108 names

- Dhoomavati Kavach

- Dhoomavati Stotram

- Dhoomavati 108 names

- Baglamukhi 108 names

- Matangi Kavach

- Matangi 108 Names

- Kshma Prarthna

 

In the course of time, I have experienced certain incidents that

defied logic and seem to be the work of a `higher' power. Here are a

few examples;

 

- My 3 year old acute acne was cured within a mere month ? never to

return again ? by praying to goddess Matangi. And I'll be damned if

I had not tried every medicine in town prior to that to no avail.

 

- While reading the story of Tirupati Balaji I was very moved by the

stories of his kindness and mercy on his devotees. I prayed to him

and at the end of the prayer, donated all fruits of my prayer to the

good of others but also jokingly suggested that if he still wants to

grant me a wish then I ask that he join me to worship my

guru `Shivji' on the auspicious occasion of `Mahashivratri' which

was to occur in a few weeks. Indeed, not expecting anything

whatsoever, I forgot all about it. On the eve of `Mahashivratri'

when I was in line to surrender my prayers and offerings to mahadev,

a young guy that I had never seen before approached me and

repeatedly insisted that he knows me, is my friend, and that we were

supposed to meet today in the temple. I wasn't in any mood of

talking since I was uttering prayers and after a customary

introduction, seeing he was empty handed, gave him half of all my

offerings including packets of milk. He accepted, thanked me for the

offerings, smiled and arrogantly walked straight into the shiva

temple, a move not noticed/protested by any of the devotees in line.

I was somewhat offended and wanted to have a word with him when he

came out. But that was the last I ever saw of him. He went in, but

he never came out, as I would have seen him (entrance and exit being

the same) and was nowhere to be found when I entered the shiva

temple.

 

- At the famous `Jwalamukhi' shrine in H.P. (our kul-devi), there is

a small statue of chaturbhuja mahakali on the back wall of the

shrine. Being a kali devotee, I once offered a chunari, prayers & my

own blood to mahakali, and then proceeded for a parikrama of the

shrine. Upon my return to the statue at the end of the parikrama

(which took barely 30 seconds), I discovered that the chunari was

gone! I was outraged. I said bad things to mahakali and told her

that she could have at least kept someone from stealing my offering

until I left her temple. Crying, sad and very upset, I left the

temple and refused to take her prasadam from the priest. That same

night I had a dream in which she appeared telling me that she took

the `chunari' to where she resides and it was not stolen! Needless

to say, I was in the temple the next morning again crying and

offering my apologies to her for my stupidity and ignorance.

 

- Within a year and half of worship, I was admitted to a university

in Bridgeport, CT ? USA for studies. My father's friend prepared all

the paperwork and I was granted a visa to the United States without

being asked a single question by the embassy officer even though the

paperwork submitted clearly showed that I was unable to fully

support myself financially in the United States. Today, after 5

years in the US, I am almost finished with my higher studies and

work as a `Financial Analyst' for a multi-billion dollar

corporation.

 

Recently however, there has been an occurrence that has left me

preplexed and I am desperate too seek an explanation from the

members of this forum who seem to have devoted their entire lives in

the pursuit of tantra and worship.

 

About 2 months ago, I stayed out late with friends at a social

gathering and did not return home @ my usual time to say my daily

prayers. When I did come home, there was still time to pray before

the clock struck midnight but I was too tired and did not even

realize when I fell asleep on my bed without praying.

 

The next morning, at approximately 6:30 AM, while I was fully-awake

but still lazily lying in bed unwilling to get up, I felt like

someone was walking on my bed with gentle steps. And it was not an

illusion because I could feel the mattress compress and the bed-

sheet and my blanket move with each step just as of there was a real

person walking on the bed. Whoever it was, would take 4 gentle

steps, starting from right next to my feet all the way to my waist

and then walk backwards. I pulled away the blanket from my face and

turned back to look but saw nothing.

 

Wondering and clueless, I pulled the blanket over my face again and

was wondering about the incident when to my horror, it happened all

over again - 4 steps starting right next to my feet going all the

way to my waist and then 4 steps backwards. Horrified, I decided to

call for help but remembered that I had forgotten to pray the

previous night. Intuitively, with apologies, I recited the following

shloka to goddess Matangi;

 

Shyaamaangim Shashishekharaam Trinayanaam Vedeh Karairbibhratim,

 

Paasham Khetamathankusham Dridmasim Naashaya Bhaktdvisham,

 

Ratnalankaran Prabhotjwalatanum Bhaswatkiritam Shubhaam,

 

Maatangim Mansa Smaraami Sadyaam, Sarvaarth Sidhipradaam.

 

? and requested that if it's her, she kindly proceed to the prayer

spot (make shift temple in one of the book-shelf spaces in my

apartment) and I shall come and pray to her immediately after my

shower. And the next thing I heard was the bed-room door (which was

already left open somewhat the night before), further swing open as

if someone was leaving the room.

 

Needless to say, I did take a shower and finished my prayers but was

very shaken by this experience. After a few weeks when I felt

somewhat normal I began to dismiss the incident as a figment of my

imagination.

 

So this recent Friday (11/11/05), while praying to goddess Matangi I

requested the goddess that if I am not mistaken to assume that it

was her walking on my bed that morning, can she please do something

to prove it to me? I prayed that I am shaken to assume to the

contrary (spirit activity) as I believed that I was immune and

protected from all such unwelcome omens and it is affecting my

belief in all my prayers. That Friday night (11/11/05), I fell

asleep praying to goddess Matangi and the next morning (Saturday ?

11/12/05), much to my surprise, the entire process was repeated

again although much earlier (5:00 AM).

 

I can assure you that I woke up only a few minutes before the

incident but was fully alert. Only this time, I wasn't scared. After

walking on my bed once and back, the footsteps stopped but on my

insistence (I mean it, I asked her to do it again), it occurred once

again. She took 4 steps forward and 4 steps backwards the exact same

way as in the last incident.

 

Of all the goddesses that I worship daily, I have a very different

and special relationship with Matangini devi. She's the one that

seems to be most active around me and easiest to please of all the

rest. I know that in her 108 names, it is said that, "Whosoever

recites these names with devotion and love, the GODDESS MATANGI

RESPECTFULLY RESIDES WITH THAT WORSHIPPER."

 

And so I believe it's time for me to disclose major incidents of my

spiritual journey thus far to people I believe are far more

knowledgeable in the field of yoga/tantra than me. I especially ask

fellow devotees of goddess Matangi to comment on my post and share

their own experiences, such as mine, if any.

 

I am hoping for a more thoughtful insight into my experiences by the

esteemed members of this forum and I sincerely hope that my thoughts

will not be dismissed as hallucinations of a delusional mind because

I assure you ? they are not so!

 

Om Namah Shivaya!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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--- texasauditor <texasauditor wrote:

 

> Om Namah Shivaya!

>

> Everybody in this group please accept my humble

> namaskaaram! May you

> and your familes/friends be blessed by the

> omnipresent Mahadev!

>

> My name is Rahul and I am 25 years old and currently

> residing in

> Dallas, TX (USA). I was introduced to the practices

> of Tantra at an

> early age by my father who is a devotee of Durga and

> also a

> r of `Mantra, Tantra, Yantra' magazine. I

> am a new member

> of this group and have been very impressed by the

> knowledge and

> expertise of the members on the subjects of Tantra

> and general

> spiritual matters. It is my objective to learn from

> all of you and

> also to obtain your honest critique on my own

> spiritual practices.

>

> Personally, I am a devotee of Shiva & Durga (Kali,

> Dhoomavati,

> Baglamukhi & Matangi) and I have accepted none other

> than `MAHADEV'

> himself as my spiritual/tantric guru – a request

> which I believe he

> has been kind enough to accept. By the grace of

> mahadev, I came to

> know about the 10 mahavidyas when I was 18 years old

> and as of

> today, my daily prayer includes the following;

>

> - Ganesha Mantra

> - Shiv Rudrashtakam

> - Durga 108 names

> - Kali 108 names

> - Dhoomavati Kavach

> - Dhoomavati Stotram

> - Dhoomavati 108 names

> - Baglamukhi 108 names

> - Matangi Kavach

> - Matangi 108 Names

> - Kshma Prarthna

>

> In the course of time, I have experienced certain

> incidents that

> defied logic and seem to be the work of a `higher'

> power. Here are a

> few examples;

>

> - My 3 year old acute acne was cured within a mere

> month – never to

> return again – by praying to goddess Matangi. And

> I'll be damned if

> I had not tried every medicine in town prior to that

> to no avail.

>

> - While reading the story of Tirupati Balaji I was

> very moved by the

> stories of his kindness and mercy on his devotees. I

> prayed to him

> and at the end of the prayer, donated all fruits of

> my prayer to the

> good of others but also jokingly suggested that if

> he still wants to

> grant me a wish then I ask that he join me to

> worship my

> guru `Shivji' on the auspicious occasion of

> `Mahashivratri' which

> was to occur in a few weeks. Indeed, not expecting

> anything

> whatsoever, I forgot all about it. On the eve of

> `Mahashivratri'

> when I was in line to surrender my prayers and

> offerings to mahadev,

> a young guy that I had never seen before approached

> me and

> repeatedly insisted that he knows me, is my friend,

> and that we were

> supposed to meet today in the temple. I wasn't in

> any mood of

> talking since I was uttering prayers and after a

> customary

> introduction, seeing he was empty handed, gave him

> half of all my

> offerings including packets of milk. He accepted,

> thanked me for the

> offerings, smiled and arrogantly walked straight

> into the shiva

> temple, a move not noticed/protested by any of the

> devotees in line.

> I was somewhat offended and wanted to have a word

> with him when he

> came out. But that was the last I ever saw of him.

> He went in, but

> he never came out, as I would have seen him

> (entrance and exit being

> the same) and was nowhere to be found when I entered

> the shiva

> temple.

>

> - At the famous `Jwalamukhi' shrine in H.P. (our

> kul-devi), there is

> a small statue of chaturbhuja mahakali on the back

> wall of the

> shrine. Being a kali devotee, I once offered a

> chunari, prayers & my

> own blood to mahakali, and then proceeded for a

> parikrama of the

> shrine. Upon my return to the statue at the end of

> the parikrama

> (which took barely 30 seconds), I discovered that

> the chunari was

> gone! I was outraged. I said bad things to mahakali

> and told her

> that she could have at least kept someone from

> stealing my offering

> until I left her temple. Crying, sad and very upset,

> I left the

> temple and refused to take her prasadam from the

> priest. That same

> night I had a dream in which she appeared telling me

> that she took

> the `chunari' to where she resides and it was not

> stolen! Needless

> to say, I was in the temple the next morning again

> crying and

> offering my apologies to her for my stupidity and

> ignorance.

>

> - Within a year and half of worship, I was admitted

> to a university

> in Bridgeport, CT – USA for studies. My father's

> friend prepared all

> the paperwork and I was granted a visa to the United

> States without

> being asked a single question by the embassy officer

> even though the

> paperwork submitted clearly showed that I was unable

> to fully

> support myself financially in the United States.

> Today, after 5

> years in the US, I am almost finished with my higher

> studies and

> work as a `Financial Analyst' for a multi-billion

> dollar

> corporation.

>

> Recently however, there has been an occurrence that

> has left me

> preplexed and I am desperate too seek an explanation

> from the

> members of this forum who seem to have devoted their

> entire lives in

> the pursuit of tantra and worship.

>

> About 2 months ago, I stayed out late with friends

> at a social

> gathering and did not return home @ my usual time to

> say my daily

> prayers. When I did come home, there was still time

> to pray before

> the clock struck midnight but I was too tired and

> did not even

> realize when I fell asleep on my bed without

> praying.

>

> The next morning, at approximately 6:30 AM, while I

> was fully-awake

> but still lazily lying in bed unwilling to get up, I

> felt like

> someone was walking on my bed with gentle steps. And

> it was not an

> illusion because I could feel the mattress compress

> and the bed-

> sheet and my blanket move with each step just as of

> there was a real

> person walking on the bed. Whoever it was, would

> take 4 gentle

> steps, starting from right next to my feet all the

> way to my waist

> and then walk backwards. I pulled away the blanket

> from my face and

> turned back to look but saw nothing.

>

> Wondering and clueless, I pulled the blanket over my

> face again and

> was wondering about the incident when to my horror,

> it happened all

> over again - 4 steps starting right next to my feet

> going all the

> way to my waist and then 4 steps backwards.

> Horrified, I decided to

> call for help but remembered that I had forgotten to

> pray the

> previous night. Intuitively, with apologies, I

> recited the following

>

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Mail - PC Magazine Editors' Choice 2005

 

[Guest guest]

, "Rahul Shukla" <rshukla@h...> wrote:

>

> Om Namah Shivaya!

>

> Everybody in this group please accept my humble namaskaaram! May

you and

> your familes/friends be blessed by the omnipresent Mahadev!

>

> My name is Rahul and I am 25 years old and currently residing in

Dallas,

> TX (USA). I was introduced to the practices of Tantra at an early

age by

> my father who is a devotee of Durga and also a r

of 'Mantra,

> Tantra, Yantra' magazine. I am a new member of this group and have

been

> very impressed by the knowledge and expertise of the members on the

> subjects of Tantra and general spiritual matters. It is my

objective to

> learn from all of you and also to obtain your honest critique on

my own

> spiritual practices.

>

>

>

> Personally, I am a devotee of Shiva & Durga (Kali, Dhoomavati,

> Baglamukhi & Matangi) and I have accepted none other than 'MAHADEV'

> himself as my spiritual/tantric guru - a request which I believe

he has

> been kind enough to accept. By the grace of mahadev, I came to know

> about the 10 mahavidyas when I was 18 years old and as of today, my

> daily prayer includes the following;

>

>

>

> - Ganesha Mantra

>

> - Shiv Rudrashtakam

>

> - Durga 108 names

>

> - Kali 108 names

>

> - Dhoomavati Kavach

>

> - Dhoomavati Stotram

>

> - Dhoomavati 108 names

>

> - Baglamukhi 108 names

>

> - Matangi Kavach

>

> - Matangi 108 Names

>

> - Kshma Prarthna

>

>

>

> In the course of time, I have experienced certain incidents that

defied

> logic and seem to be the work of a 'higher' power. Here are a few

> examples;

>

>

>

> - My 3 year old acute acne was cured within a mere month - never to

> return again - by praying to goddess Matangi. And I'll be damned

if I

> had not tried every medicine in town prior to that to no avail.

>

>

>

> - While reading the story of Tirupati Balaji I was very moved by

the

> stories of his kindness and mercy on his devotees. I prayed to him

and

> at the end of the prayer, donated all fruits of my prayer to the

good of

> others but also jokingly suggested that if he still wants to grant

me a

> wish then I ask that he join me to worship my guru 'Shivji' on the

> auspicious occasion of 'Mahashivratri' which was to occur in a few

> weeks. Indeed, not expecting anything whatsoever, I forgot all

about it.

> On the eve of 'Mahashivratri' when I was in line to surrender my

prayers

> and offerings to mahadev, a young guy that I had never seen before

> approached me and repeatedly insisted that he knows me, is my

friend,

> and that we were supposed to meet today in the temple. I wasn't in

any

> mood of talking since I was uttering prayers and after a customary

> introduction, seeing he was empty handed, gave him half of all my

> offerings including packets of milk. He accepted, thanked me for

the

> offerings, smiled and arrogantly walked straight into the shiva

temple,

> a move not noticed/protested by any of the devotees in line. I was

> somewhat offended and wanted to have a word with him when he came

out.

> But that was the last I ever saw of him. He went in, but he never

came

> out, as I would have seen him (entrance and exit being the same)

and was

> nowhere to be found when I entered the shiva temple.

>

>

>

> - At the famous 'Jwalamukhi' shrine in H.P. (our kul-devi), there

is a

> small statue of chaturbhuja mahakali on the back wall of the

shrine.

> Being a kali devotee, I once offered a chunari, prayers & my own

blood

> to mahakali, and then proceeded for a parikrama of the shrine.

Upon my

> return to the statue at the end of the parikrama (which took

barely 30

> seconds), I discovered that the chunari was gone! I was outraged.

I said

> bad things to mahakali and told her that she could have at least

kept

> someone from stealing my offering until I left her temple. Crying,

sad

> and very upset, I left the temple and refused to take her prasadam

from

> the priest. That same night I had a dream in which she appeared

telling

> me that she took the 'chunari' to where she resides and it was not

> stolen! Needless to say, I was in the temple the next morning again

> crying and offering my apologies to her for my stupidity and

ignorance.

>

>

>

> - Within a year and half of worship, I was admitted to a

university in

> Bridgeport, CT - USA for studies. My father's friend prepared all

the

> paperwork and I was granted a visa to the United States without

being

> asked a single question by the embassy officer even though the

paperwork

> submitted clearly showed that I was unable to fully support myself

> financially in the United States. Today, after 5 years in the US,

I am

> almost finished with my higher studies and work as a 'Financial

Analyst'

> for a multi-billion dollar corporation.

>

>

>

> Recently however, there has been an occurrence that has left me

> preplexed and I am desperate too seek an explanation from the

members of

> this forum who seem to have devoted their entire lives in the

pursuit of

> tantra and worship.

>

>

>

> About 2 months ago, I stayed out late with friends at a social

gathering

> and did not return home @ my usual time to say my daily prayers.

When I

> did come home, there was still time to pray before the clock struck

> midnight but I was too tired and did not even realize when I fell

asleep

> on my bed without praying.

>

>

>

> The next morning, at approximately 6:30 AM, while I was fully-

awake but

> still lazily lying in bed unwilling to get up, I felt like someone

was

> walking on my bed with gentle steps. And it was not an illusion

because

> I could feel the mattress compress and the bed-sheet and my

blanket move

> with each step just as of there was a real person walking on the

bed.

> Whoever it was, would take 4 gentle steps, starting from right

next to

> my feet all the way to my waist and then walk backwards. I pulled

away

> the blanket from my face and turned back to look but saw nothing.

>

>

>

> Wondering and clueless, I pulled the blanket over my face again

and was

> wondering about the incident when to my horror, it happened all

over

> again - 4 steps starting right next to my feet going all the way

to my

> waist and then 4 steps backwards. Horrified, I decided to call for

help

> but remembered that I had forgotten to pray the previous night.

> Intuitively, with apologies, I recited the following shloka to

goddess

> Matangi;

>

>

>

> Shyaamaangim Shashishekharaam Trinayanaam Vedeh Karairbibhratim,

>

>

>

> Paasham Khetamathankusham Dridmasim Naashaya Bhaktdvisham,

>

>

>

> Ratnalankaran Prabhotjwalatanum Bhaswatkiritam Shubhaam,

>

>

>

> Maatangim Mansa Smaraami Sadyaam, Sarvaarth Sidhipradaam.

>

>

>

> ... and requested that if it's her, she kindly proceed to the

prayer

> spot (make shift temple in one of the book-shelf spaces in my

apartment)

> and I shall come and pray to her immediately after my shower. And

the

> next thing I heard was the bed-room door (which was already left

open

> somewhat the night before), further swing open as if someone was

leaving

> the room.

>

>

>

> Needless to say, I did take a shower and finished my prayers but

was

> very shaken by this experience. After a few weeks when I felt

somewhat

> normal I began to dismiss the incident as a figment of my

imagination.

>

>

>

> So this recent Friday (11/11/05), while praying to goddess Matangi

I

> requested the goddess that if I am not mistaken to assume that it

was

> her walking on my bed that morning, can she please do something to

prove

> it to me? I prayed that I am shaken to assume to the contrary

(spirit

> activity) as I believed that I was immune and protected from all

such

> unwelcome omens and it is affecting my belief in all my prayers.

That

> Friday night (11/11/05), I fell asleep praying to goddess Matangi

and

> the next morning (Saturday - 11/12/05), much to my surprise, the

entire

> process was repeated again although much earlier (5:00 AM).

>

>

>

> I can assure you that I woke up only a few minutes before the

incident

> but was fully alert. Only this time, I wasn't scared. After

walking on

> my bed once and back, the footsteps stopped but on my insistence

(I mean

> it, I asked her to do it again), it occurred once again. She took 4

> steps forward and 4 steps backwards the exact same way as in the

last

> incident.

>

>

>

> Of all the goddesses that I worship daily, I have a very different

and

> special relationship with Matangini devi. She's the one that seems

to be

> most active around me and easiest to please of all the rest. I

know that

> in her 108 names, it is said that, "Whosoever recites these names

with

> devotion and love, the GODDESS MATANGI RESPECTFULLY RESIDES WITH

THAT

> WORSHIPPER."

>

>

>

> And so I believe it's time for me to disclose major incidents of my

> spiritual journey thus far to people I believe are far more

> knowledgeable in the field of yoga/tantra than me. I especially ask

> fellow devotees of goddess Matangi to comment on my post and share

their

> own experiences, such as mine, if any.

>

>

>

> I am hoping for a more thoughtful insight into my experiences by

the

> esteemed members of this forum and I sincerely hope that my

thoughts

> will not be dismissed as hallucinations of a delusional mind

because I

> assure you - they are not so!

>

>

>

> Om Namah Shivaya!

>

 

 

Jai Gurudev.........

 

Dear brother,

 

I am writing because of the spiritual experience u had and i must

say it is mind blowing and i am impressed by your devotion.I am just

an ordinary disciple of gurudev whose blessing is showered on all of

his devotees .Yes it was Ma matangi on your bed side who just wanted

to tell u that she missed ur worship as a mother misses her son.One

more information I am also an engineer and a devotee to Mahadev and

Maa Kali . Its all becuse of the blessing of gurudev that u are

having all these experiences and u can just feel him even if u have

the magzine which just not an ordinary magzine which u will find in

the market.Let the blessing of gurudev flow to all and peace reside

in everyone.

 

JAI GURUDEV.....

 

Abhishek Singh.