Bhagavan's continous presence, I

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Dear All,

someone requested to post accounts of Bhagavan's

continous presence. I will search out some postnirvana-stories

out of different sources and a kind of series will be made,

as time permits.

This here is a part of an article found in the Mountain Path

1983 by Fred Broumand.

 

If members feel so, they are invited to share also how they came

to Bhagavan, how they experience His grace, his presence, compassion ....

the continuous story ...

 

 

In His Grace

Gabriele

 

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Shortly before my fortieth birthday I went through what

is known in America as the Mid-Life crises. ...

 

There was no unhappiness about the family or the

environment. What I experienced was like being lost in

a forest. I continued my life as usual. But work, coming

and going, eating and sleeping all became automatic

without much thinking or participation on my part. I was

completely apart from my environment.

 

In seclusion and away from curiosity of people I would be

merged in myself. I would become very much aware

of the presence of God. Wherever I went I always felt He was

next to me, then I would weep and pray for His mercy and to

be set free from the bondage of desire. I would walk weakly

and lean against a tree or a post as though I was about to

collapse. A simple mention of God and I would melt in tears

and the feeling of devotion.

 

Without the notice of others I underwent a complete change,

I became more serious and introverted. Everything was fresh

and different. My wordly desires and ambitions vanished without

any effort on my part. New hopes and new ways of life were

being formed. I was amazed and pleased at the change which

had taken place in me.

 

The crowning experience took place soon afterwards.

After months of search I was able to acqure some books on

Maharshi's teachings. By the time I finished the first book I

knew without the slightest doubt in my mind that I had

finally found the one thing that I had always been searching for.

The secret longing of my heart had been realized and satisfied

at last. The search had come to an end and contentment and

peace took its place.

 

When I first realized that God had come to me in the form of

Ramana I trembled with joy and excitement, yet with hesitation

and caution. I could not imagine what I had done to deserve such

kindness. O Lord Thou art indeed the Almighty King of the Universe

to have such Generosity, such Grace, such Compassion on

insignificant creature. Ramana sang in praise of the Lord Arunachala,

"Thou hast become famous by Thy continued union with the poor and

the lowly", and now I could see this for myself. To Thee O Ramana

I bow my head in humility.

 

Maharshi's Grace was revealed to me in a series of dreams and

internal response to some important questions during waking hours.

Each experience made me melt in tears of joy and filled my heart with

devotion and gratitute to Ramana. By Bhagavan's boudless Grace the

old self, the mighty ego, started melting in the fire of His Wisdom.

Now, instead of being stuck in quicksand I am resting calmly aboard

the vessel of His Grace and sailing towards His Kingdom of peace and

serenity. And that is how Ramana out of His compassion came into

my life and made me for ever His humble and devoted servant.

 

It has been some three years since the beginning of all these changes.

But during this short period I have lived a lot more than all the previous

forty years. The love and joy that I have experienced is beyond what I

had ever imagined possible, and beyond what I can express in words.

The bond of love by which He has drawn me to Himself is so strong

he has now become everything to me. There is never a day when He

is apart from me, but then how could He, He is the Real Self that

abides in my Heart.

 

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Fred Broumand: How Bhagavan Came to My Life in:

The Mountain Pat, 1983

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