Guest guest Posted October 6, 2003 Report Share Posted October 6, 2003 In every possible way I could I proceeded step by step on my lonely journey into the unknown, into the immaculate darkness of myself. The hardships, loneliness; the utter despair! So much have I unlearned, given away, left behind, never to look back again, not knowing what next would challenge me, regardless of my hellish fatigues. I am a lonely man now, young yet old, desperate yet full of rapture forsaking all man could ever dream of. Who could have warned me of the conscious diamond that swallows all time and suffering? I am the thundering oceans, I am the mysterious stars and the uncaused shining heavens above, still nothing is here, o lost soul, you can ever relate to. "Lord, have mercy!" The living dried wood of the known invites me to be burned as a sacrifice of Love, I stand here alone and now am daring to make this ultimate sacrifice, purified through divine struggle as I am, Myrrh fragrance forming shapes of Cherubim's embracing and comforting me with ancient hymns of Eden, I collapse: hands folding together in the dark and dusty little corner of "me", "Lord, have mercy!" I am lost now, back in my eternal abode, I wander around these spheres unsure: "Know you are everything: the walls, the garden and even the throne". I don't feel at home, vagabond, owner and inhibitor of a celestial palace existing in itself. My reign is compassion -so it seems- never have I been other: the natural state of being what I am: the limitless expansion of Intelligence. My kingdom is founded by the living and intelligent sound of galactic creation -OM-, how, Beloved, could I have forgotten? How could I have ever forgotten I am, indeed, the Unlimited Mercifier, the Friend? "Lord, have mercy!" By knowing nothing I found out the mystery of the all Pervasive, I was there before the birth of man and fish and trees, abiding as "I-I", I was there witnessing the dreamlike appearance of the eternal Destroyer: "I-I", I am here to witness the final collapse of thought: "I-I". "Lord, have mercy!" I have seen my own deathbed this dreaded day in spring, blooming blossoms, and the old apple tree in the corner of the garden, oh Joy! I have seen this body grow from the warmth of my mothers breasts to an old and satisfied man lost in not knowing, forgotten, abandoned. I AM beyond the apple tree, my death will be a lonely one, reunion with the Friend on such a spring day should be a mystery. "Lord, have mercy!" I am humanity - I AM I AM I-I Amen. ---Outgoing mail is certified Virus Free.Checked by AVG anti-virus system (http://www.grisoft.com).Version: 6.0.516 / Virus Database: 313 - Release Date: 9/1/2003 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 6, 2003 Report Share Posted October 6, 2003 ---Dear Ben ,thanks very much for posting this most excellent Poem .It is worth reading and re-reading over and over again, it is pregnant with meaning! Love and every best wish , in His Grace, Alan In every possible way I could I proceeded step by step on my lonely journey into the unknown, > into the immaculate darkness of myself. > The hardships, loneliness; the utter despair! > So much have I unlearned, given away, left behind, never to look back again, not knowing what > next would challenge me, regardless of my hellish fatigues. > I am a lonely man now, young yet old, desperate yet full of rapture forsaking all man could ever > dream of. > Who could have warned me of the conscious diamond that swallows all time and suffering? > I am the thundering oceans, I am the mysterious stars and the uncaused shining heavens above, > still nothing is here, o lost soul, you can ever relate to. > "Lord, have mercy!" > > The living dried wood of the known invites me to be burned as a sacrifice of Love, > I stand here alone and now am daring to make this ultimate sacrifice, purified through divine > struggle as I am, > Myrrh fragrance forming shapes of Cherubim's embracing and comforting me with ancient hymns of > Eden, > I collapse: hands folding together in the dark and dusty little corner of "me", > "Lord, have mercy!" > > I am lost now, back in my eternal abode, I wander around these spheres unsure: "Know you are > everything: the walls, the garden and even the throne". > I don't feel at home, vagabond, owner and inhibitor of a celestial palace existing in itself. > My reign is compassion -so it seems- never have I been other: the natural state of being what I > am: the limitless expansion of Intelligence. > My kingdom is founded by the living and intelligent sound of galactic creation -OM-, how, > Beloved, could I have forgotten? > How could I have ever forgotten I am, indeed, the Unlimited Mercifier, the Friend? > "Lord, have mercy!" > > By knowing nothing I found out the mystery of the all Pervasive, > I was there before the birth of man and fish and trees, abiding as "I-I", > I was there witnessing the dreamlike appearance of the eternal Destroyer: "I-I", > I am here to witness the final collapse of thought: "I-I". > "Lord, have mercy!" > > I have seen my own deathbed this dreaded day in spring, blooming blossoms, and the old apple > tree in the corner of the garden, oh Joy! > I have seen this body grow from the warmth of my mothers breasts to an old and satisfied man > lost in not knowing, forgotten, abandoned. > I AM beyond the apple tree, my death will be a lonely one, reunion with the Friend on such a > spring day should be a mystery. > "Lord, have mercy!" > > I am humanity - I AM > I AM I-I > > Amen. > > > --- > Outgoing mail is certified Virus Free. > Checked by AVG anti-virus system (http://www.grisoft.com). > Version: 6.0.516 / Virus Database: 313 - Release 9/1/2003 > ______________________ Want to chat instantly with your online friends? Get the FREE Messenger http://mail.messenger..co.uk Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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