Guest guest Posted February 27, 2004 Report Share Posted February 27, 2004 At a point in my life while still a young child, I had the feeling that there was something we were all missing. I began to read the Bible. The Old Testament was of little intersest as it seemed full of harsh judgements and punishment by a jealous god and so on... But Jesus was of a different nature. He seemed to have an intimate relationship with the divine. He was little concerned over those old rules in the Old Testament, but seemed to be his own authority, and even said on many occasions that his authority and the proof thereof came directly from "the Father." I could never believe in a god that seemed less compassionate than my own Dad! How absurd. I felt great love and connection to the things Jesus supposedly said. One day I was immersed in this contemplation of Jesus. I felt so close to him. I seemed to understand the things he said that even my mother and father did not. I was immersed in the feeling of how much he loved us all and consequently was loving him a great deal. That night, I went over to a small party one of my friends was having and standing in the middle of this small room with my friends all around me, the love for jesus got so strong that suddenly it seemed as if my heart broke open. A profound bliss, light and warm intense love that was laying dormant in me had suddenly and unexpectedly flooded my body. I could feel it go to the ends of my fingers and toes. It was life itself. For a long time since, I have described this as life itself. It was as if more life was flowing through me, like my wattage had gone from 25 watts to 1000 watts. This was all acompanied with a great feeling of love. I also had the feeling of being "back home." I was profoundly connected to all life, including all matter such as "rock." It was clear that all was of this same stuff. Nothing exists which is not This. There was also a profound joy as if all life was celebrating with me. There was also an unmistaken obvious knowing that *all* suffering in the world was not really true. It was EXACTLY the same relief you might feel as from waking up rom a nightmare. Not only that, but that most suffering came from the people themselves. It was shown to me that we ignore willingly our Source and that causes the appearance of suffering. It was quite remarkable and unexplainable. I was shining within so hard with this love and light and energy that I suddenly became frightened that the others around me may notice and I would draw attention to myself. I was actually afraid that I might start glowing. Well, my friends, as soon as this fear had crept into my thoughts and my awareness was more focussed on "my body" the love and light *immediately* seemed to draw back to that Source, and poor me was left with poor me ounce again. But now, poor me was saying WOW....and i knew instinctively that we are all holding this in somehow and my search to find out how and why immediately moved me to read Autobiography of a Yogi.........and now after reading much mostly Hindu stuff, but also buddhist, Sufi, and such, I was brought back to Sri Ramana and Sri Nisargadatta and have no need to read much anymore except for the blissful puja that reading represents. your faithful brother, Shawn Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 28, 2004 Report Share Posted February 28, 2004 This is very beautiful Shawn. Thanks Brother! I will post it to HS as well. Love to all Harsha --- Shawn Hair <shawn wrote: > > > At a point in my life while still a young child, I > had the feeling that > there was something we were all missing. I began to > read the > Bible. The Old Testament was of little intersest as > it seemed full > of harsh judgements and punishment by a jealous god > and so > on... > > But Jesus was of a different nature. He seemed to > have an > intimate relationship with the divine. He was little > concerned over > those old rules in the Old Testament, but seemed to > be his own > authority, and even said on many occasions that his > authority > and the proof thereof came directly from "the > Father." > > I could never believe in a god that seemed less > compassionate > than my own Dad! How absurd. > > I felt great love and connection to the things Jesus > supposedly > said. One day I was immersed in this contemplation > of Jesus. I > felt so close to him. I seemed to understand the > things he said > that even my mother and father did not. I was > immersed in the > feeling of how much he loved us all and consequently > was loving > him a great deal. > That night, I went over to a small party one of > my friends was > having and standing in the middle of this small room > with my > friends all around me, the love for jesus got so > strong that > suddenly it seemed as if my heart broke open. > > A profound bliss, light and warm intense love > that was laying > dormant in me had suddenly and unexpectedly flooded > my body. > I could feel it go to the ends of my fingers and > toes. It was life > itself. For a long time since, I have described > this as life itself. It > was as if more life was flowing through me, like my > wattage had > gone from 25 watts to 1000 watts. > > This was all acompanied with a great feeling of > love. I also had > the feeling of being "back home." I was profoundly > connected to > all life, including all matter such as "rock." It > was clear that all > was of this same stuff. Nothing exists which is not > This. > > There was also a profound joy as if all life was > celebrating with > me. There was also an unmistaken obvious knowing > that *all* > suffering in the world was not really true. It was > EXACTLY the > same relief you might feel as from waking up rom a > nightmare. > > Not only that, but that most suffering came from the > people > themselves. It was shown to me that we ignore > willingly our > Source and that causes the appearance of suffering. > It was quite > remarkable and unexplainable. > > I was shining within so hard with this love and > light and energy > that I suddenly became frightened that the others > around me > may notice and I would draw attention to myself. I > was actually > afraid that I might start glowing. > > Well, my friends, as soon as this fear had crept > into my thoughts > and my awareness was more focussed on "my body" the > love > and light *immediately* seemed to draw back to that > Source, and > poor me was left with poor me ounce again. > > But now, poor me was saying WOW....and i knew > instinctively > that we are all holding this in somehow and my > search to find > out how and why immediately moved me to read > Autobiography > of a Yogi.........and now after reading much mostly > Hindu stuff, but > also buddhist, Sufi, and such, I was brought back to > Sri Ramana > and Sri Nisargadatta and have no need to read much > anymore > except for the blissful puja that reading > represents. > > your faithful brother, > > Shawn ===== /join Get better spam protection with Mail. http://antispam./tools Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 28, 2004 Report Share Posted February 28, 2004 I recollect the terse and pithy words of my Guru, Sri Parabrahma: "Everything is Spiritual, there is nothing material." "In a red hot iron rod, is there a portion bereft of heat?" These words are understood only when one undergoes what you have described from your experience. In his Grace, NagarajaShawn Hair <shawn (AT) withouraloha (DOT) com> wrote: A profound bliss, light and warm intense love that was laying dormant in me had suddenly and unexpectedly flooded my body.I could feel it go to the ends of my fingers and toes. It was life itself. For a long time since, I have described this as life itself. It was as if more life was flowing through me, like my wattage had gone from 25 watts to 1000 watts.This was all acompanied with a great feeling of love. I also had the feeling of being "back home." I was profoundly connected to all life, including all matter such as "rock." It was clear that all was of this same stuff. Nothing exists which is not This. India Insurance Special: Be informed on the best policies, services, tools and more. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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