Am I faking it?SHIVOHAM>>>>>>>>>>>>>

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evrybody is stuck at this "knowing" level n

intellectually enjoy the trip.but at "being"

level,there is no activity since objectification is

zero.you may be at this level or your "manas" is

fooloing you.the trick is one needs the help of

"manas" even to lose it.anyway others cant verify or

vouch for your experience.raj

 

--- gautam <oneness.univ wrote:

 

> Dear friends,

> I have in the recent months seen a lot of internal

> change. But the doubt

> comes - Am I acting/faking it? This is since I do

> read quite a bit of

> Ramana's books and people's experiences. After

> connecting to Ramana Maharshi

> in August, I felt I had lost the need for a separate

> identity. The ego/false

> self is still there, I certainly haven't identified

> with anything

> higher/larger etc. However, my cellphone is off, I

> don't feel the need of

> keeping up with people/relatives/old friends, my

> need to maintain a

> web-presence, to come up on google, to meet with

> people, all that has died

> off. I have nothing to say to people, nor anything

> to hear from them.

>

> I don't feel any sense of greater joy or peace or

> bliss, so this doesn't

> sound like an ego-death. OTOH, there is a futility,

> a "what's the point of

> all this?" kind of feeling/malaise.

>

> When I ask "Who Am I", I either see Bhagavan's face,

> or just a blank. If you

> ask me to define myself today, I would probably say

> "I am love for Ramana",

> but would that not be because that is the

> predominant thought, and so I have

> identified with a thought/feeling, as against this

> body.

>

> I feel that this "samsara" is losing its hold on me,

> attachments have dies

> out ... but again the question comes, is this really

> happening, or am I/ego

> faking it? Is there a sure way of knowing what's

> really going on?

>

> At the dear feet of Sri Bhagavan,

> Om Namo Ramanaya.

>

>

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atmanyevaatmanaa tushtah stithaprajnastadochyathe.

 

 

 

 

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