Guest guest Posted May 22, 2001 Report Share Posted May 22, 2001 Dear Arghyo<br><br>Your question hits at the toughest part of my sadhna. “Thy will, not my will.” Faith. I am often asked this question IRL in our discussion groups, and I can share a little of my personal experience in case it triggers some thoughts for others here. <br><br>My personal path began purely with gaining of knowledge in an attempt to understand "reality” or ‘Truth’ from a wide and apparently different points of view including psychology and western metaphysics. To quote my soulfriend “ reality is realized in stages – appearance, empirical, experience.” I started at the empirical stage.<br><br>As I understood the basis of the Creative Intelligence that exists within us, the creation process itself through the study of energy, the various paths of yoga etc., I began to get a tiny glimpse of the majesty that we are a part of and what we deny by living in ignorance. After a while, book learning wasn’t enough, I began the stage of meditation looking for direct experience of that Creative Intelligence. Meanwhile as I applied my learning to real life I realized the importance of Faith.<br><br>My understanding of yoga teaches me that unless I desire with intent I cannot achieve; both material and spiritual achievements. Achievements, I discovered, depend not on the desire itself but our attachments to it. Attachments represent aspects of our self which need healing/cleansing and gets in the way of pure creation. I experienced for myself, that the key to achieving anything was to have an intent (sankalpa), and a total un-attachment to the consequences of the outcome. By deferring to the Universal Intelligence/ Shiva/shakti/ God, I remind myself of my place again and again - only a note in the great orchestra; a drop in the ocean.<br><br>Desire is unavoidable for the ego centered ‘man.’ We need the basic desire to live to remain alive. The level of consciousness determines the nature of desire. Some one may desire a million dollars, children or a lover, while others may desire the Truth. Desire, to me, is the fuel that moves us forward. It is desire that led to the incarnation in the first place. I personally crave or ask for mukti, from my ego, the ignorant 'i' which doesn't seem to have the confidence to trust and let go of control of the creation process. Then ‘i’ use my mind with its understanding and insight to bring myself back and restabilize myself in the 'I' which silently awaits. ( ‘i’ = ego; and ‘I” = the transcendent )<br><br>Therefore, i use my mind and the insights it gains as a tool to keep me grounded in the Truth as i experience it at the moment. It is the ego which leads to our incarnation. It is ego-centered tools like feelings, thoughts (mind) that I use to transcend itself. Koan isn’t it? One of my guru says “ Ego makes a great slave, but a lousy master.” <br><br>This going back and forth is an important part of my sadhna. Like dyeing a cloth. Dipping in color again and again. One day the dip will make my color permanent. I therefore bring myself back to “Thy will be done” again and again, every time I stray and seek control. <br><br>I live what I understand, I try not to say that which I can’t live and through a systematic constant vigilant retuning I return to the center which knows, has always known and has no need to ask. <br><br>I'm sure the journey is imperfect, but it has worked so far and will continue to work till I will need no reminder that "Thy will" is always done.<br><br>Tat Twam Asi<br>UMA Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 22, 2001 Report Share Posted May 22, 2001 Excellent, what you said is exactly practical spirituality. To know what to achieve and where I fail is the essence of quest.<br>Ultimately its THY WILL, not mine as per Jnana Yoga. I dont exist as such because manas and buddhi is but matter. Its all a dream not like the dream we have at night. Its difficult to explain because Time and space does not exist there. Just feel it without that feeling.<br>Though THY WILL remains the same for other yogas yet the way of reconciling may be different. All roads lead to the same path. But individuals differ due to previous Samaskaras. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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