My Experience

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Kundalini...<br><br>I want to relate my

experience. I still question if I am actually experiencing

anything or not. I sometimes think this is all a figment

of my imagination. <br><br>winter of 2000 i was

reading j.krishnamurti. i understood some of what he was

saying but not everything. then one night, after one of

my reading sessions, i lay down to sleep. i was on

my back and i started thinking about what i had

read. all of a sudden, in a flash (not a literal visual

flash) of insight, i understood. but this was not an

insight in the traditional sense, i.e. there was a

"wider" quality to it. there i lay, tearing with joy, it

was an amazing experience. this is but the

preamble.<br><br>the next night, out of the blue i decided to

concentrate on by lower spine. i had read about chakras but

was skeptical and even questioned their existence.

now, almost automatically, i sent my attention to my

spine. i utilized breathing techniques i had learnt

through SRF (self realization fellowship) lessons but had

found "boring" and had given up on. after a while, i

felt an energy welling up at the base of my

spine.<br><br>in the weeks to follow, whenever i lay down to

sleep, the energy would start building, often on its

own, without the breathing exercises. i did some

research on chakras and concentrated on location where

literature claimed where my 2nd chakra would be. as i

concentrated on the chakra one night, i felt a burning

sensation. after a while, the burning gave way to something

like a wave, spreading out of the chakra location in

all directions. that night i felt something rise up

my back (trickling sensation) till my chest, where

it seemed to disappear and then come back at my neck

and up into my head where it seemed to

disappear.<br><br>since then, twice i have felt as though, well, my brain

was going to part. once after i had meditated and

then slept. i woke up and was chatting online and all

of a sudden, out of the blue i felt as though my

brain was going to part from the top of my head. the

second time, when i was waiting for a bus, the weather

was beautiful and i felt a tingling in my head and

starting from a little right and moving up to the top of

my head, again i felt that parting sensation. both

times, the parting stopped, and things "reset".<br><br>i

have to still to see any light or experience the vast

emptiness that many meditators claim they experience. but i

do know that something is going on. im posting my

experience because i have questions and i feel it would be

better if people knew what perspective i am speaking

from.<br><br>thnx.<br><br>adi.