Dirty Look

[Guest guest]

I am grateful toward whatsoever life bring to

me!<br>Today, when I was in office working hard on preparing

papers to my customer, the printer machine started to

let out a paper which was made by me. One of my

female co-workers assumed this paper was for her and

turn up to pick it up. I called her with a smile face

in an attempt to let her know it was for me not for

her and when she found out what was going on, she

suddenly gave me a serious "dirty look", meanwhile, my

heart hurt badly. That was just like the same situation

when I was a young boy my aunt gave me her dirty look.

All the bad memory of the past arose! <br>The other

day I attended a group of Osho therapy. I was unhappy

in life because I carry all the bad memory of the

past on my mind. I think all people in the world are

against me, they were always ready to laugh at me. The

leading of the group said all the miserable things were

just the mind. Let go of them, they are garbage, they

cannot do anything and if they did, it is your

cooperation to make it. Yes, when we were young, we were not

capable to deal with things like this, but now you were

grown up, you are an adult, you got lots of energy to

cope with things like this, you got the capacity to

protect yourself. But you didn't realize this fact, deep

down you supposed you were still a young

boy.<br>Suddenly, I turned back into my mind to find from where the

hurt come? Is it true that the hurt just the mind? If

I think I didn't hurt by her, can I make it? Yes, I

could feel my heart hurt but I also feel one man who

was going to watch my hurt and that man is not

affected by outside action. In fact, I am the both man and

hurt. Suddenly I realize that if I stop the feeling of

being hurt, all the bad feeling stop immediately. Deep

inside I feel great gratitude to that female because

thanks to her, I got the way. <br>Yes, they are all mind

to let us feel sad, hurt, unhappy, let go of the

mind, you are different from when you were young.

<br>Swami Anand Prabodh

[Guest guest]

It is wonderful that you are taking charge of

your life and deciding to make consious choices about

your actions.<br><br>We are a product of our

experiences that has occured over a long period of time, past

life and within this life itself. Each time we relive

these emotions we have the opportunity to choose our

response. Some teachers distinguish between the words react

and respond; where react involves acting on one

immediate emotions, while respond means to act after giving

it appropriate thought. <br><br>Once we become aware

of the dynamics of feelings, thoughts and actions,

we realize that while we have no control over

others' actions, little control over our emotions, we DO

have a certain degree of control over our actions. We

can, as you described, choose to look at the picture

from a different paradigm and act differently from the

way we have acted in the past. This then breaks the

cycle and one has begun the journey to break away from

past programming. <br><br>Conscious living for me is

one of the fastest ways to start gaining the fruits

of spiritual endeavors. <br><br>Thanks and do

continue to share your journey with us .. <br><br>Tat twam

asi<br>UMA