My Introduction...

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I've been lurking here for a short while, and I have finally decided to post

an introduction. You may call me Wyllow (which is my legal name) or Neena (which

is a name that came to me during meditation). I live in New York. I am nineteen

years old and have been a practicing Pagan since the age of twelve. I'm the

entertainment coordinator for NYC's Pagan Pride Project, and I also run a group

for local Pagans in college that has yet to have a meeting. (I'm hoping to set

one up soon.)

I have been fascinated by Kali since I first saw Her name in a list of

Goddesses. I was thirteen at the time, and I didn't know much about Her yet.

For the next several years, I constantly found myself going back to Kali. I had

worked with other Goddesses (most often Egyptian ones, who it seemed easiest to

find information on), however something always drew my attention to Kali-Ma. I

was reluctant to work with Her at first because everyone I met seemed to feel

the need to say, "Stay away from Kali, she's (insert negative word here)." Then

I saw Her image for the first time, and I just...knew. She was the one who had

been guiding me for so long. She was the inner strength I was trying so

desperately to find. I cast aside any reservations I had had and set out to

learn more.

I believe that Kali-Ma is in my life because I needed her more than anyone.

I was sexually abused for much of my childhood, and I repressed the memories

until recently because I was not ready to deal with them. As a teenager, my

first relationship was an abusive one, and I was left terrified of running into

the abuser. It was as if the people who had abused me over the years still had

control over me because I was terrified of them.

As you can see from the above paragraph, I had a lot of inner demons to face

and conquer. And slowly, I began to see signs from Her that it was time to face

them. When I am fearful of someone without reason (such as thinking

obsessively, "What if my ex gets on this bus?" or being afraid of someone

because he looks like someone who has hurt me), I can hear Her telling me not

to be afraid. Fear gives that person power. If I do not fear them, they cannot

hurt me. (This does not include people who actually pose a physical threat, of

course. If someone's got a gun to my head, they can obviously hurt me, if I'm

afraid or not.) This has been the most important lesson I've had to learn so

far, and I am still learning it. I am always looking to learn more about

Kali-Ma, which is why I joined this list. She has touched my life in so many

ways, and I am grateful to Her. I'm not initiated into a Kali coven, although

I'd love to be. (They seem to be everywhere except in New York.) I know many

basic things about Kali, and I want to know more. Okay, now you all know who

I am.

Love & Light,

Wyllow (Neena)

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[Guest guest]

Blessings upon you Wyllow .. & welcome to the list.

 

Om Shanti ...

Yogini Shakti

[Guest guest]

Om Kali Neenaji,

Welcome to our group. We are happy to know you better.Please share with us the

topic that you would like to be discuss as we usually will talk on the most

frequently ask question first. Furthermore we will not know where to start

unless somebody opens up and ask ....

Jai Kali !!!

>Wyllow-Nicole Ivey

>Kali_Ma >Kali_Ma >Subject:

My Introduction... >Sun, 15 Sep 2002 06:49:50 -0700 (PDT) > >

>Greetings, > I've been lurking here for a short while, and I have finally

decided to post an introduction. You may call me Wyllow (which is my legal

name) or Neena (which is a name that came to me during meditation). I live in

New York. I am nineteen years old and have been a practicing Pagan since the

age of twelve. I'm the entertainment coordinator for NYC's Pagan Pride Project,

and I also run a group for local Pagans in college that has yet to have a

meeting. (I'm hoping to set one up soon.) >I have been fascinated by Kali since

I first saw Her name in a list of Goddesses. I was thirteen at the time, and I

didn't know much about Her yet. For the next several years, I constantly found

myself going back to Kali. I had worked with other Goddesses (most often

Egyptian ones, who it seemed easiest to find information on), however something

always drew my attention to Kali-Ma. I was reluctant to work with Her at first

because everyone I met seemed to feel the need to say, "Stay away from Kali,

she's (insert negative word here)." Then I saw Her image for the first time,

and I just...knew. She was the one who had been guiding me for so long. She was

the inner strength I was trying so desperately to find. I cast aside any

reservations I had had and set out to learn more. > I believe that Kali-Ma is

in my life because I needed her more than anyone. I was sexually abused for

much of my childhood, and I repressed the memories until recently because I was

not ready to deal with them. As a teenager, my first relationship was an abusive

one, and I was left terrified of running into the abuser. It was as if the

people who had abused me over the years still had control over me because I was

terrified of them. > As you can see from the above paragraph, I had a lot of

inner demons to face and conquer. And slowly, I began to see signs from Her

that it was time to face them. When I am fearful of someone without reason

(such as thinking obsessively, "What if my ex gets on this bus?" or being

afraid of someone because he looks like someone who has hurt me), I can hear

Her telling me not to be afraid. Fear gives that person power. If I do not fear

them, they cannot hurt me. (This does not include people who actually pose a

physical threat, of course. If someone's got a gun to my head, they can

obviously hurt me, if I'm afraid or not.) This has been the most important

lesson I've had to learn so far, and I am still learning it. > I am always

looking to learn more about Kali-Ma, which is why I joined this list. She has

touched my life in so many ways, and I am grateful to Her. I'm not initiated

into a Kali coven, although I'd love to be. (They seem to be everywhere except

in New York.) I know many basic things about Kali, and I want to know more. >

Okay, now you all know who I am. >Love & Light, >Wyllow (Neena) > > >

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