Experiencing the Lord of seven hills

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Jai Sriman Narayana,

 

We have not seen Lord with our eyes. We have never

felt the touch of His divine form physically.

We have just heard about Him from our AAcharyas and

scriptures. We imagine his form from the descriptions

of scriptures, our alwars and our AAcharyas.

 

To make things most easy for us, He has taken the

archa murthi form at all the divya deshams. All these

archa forms point to his Unique forms with which He

shines in Srimad vaikuntham. In that form, he shows

his love thru his eyes and hands and legs, but does

not talk to us. There were very rare instances like

Varadaraja Perumal talking to Sri Kanchi pUrNa. In our

case, its only that we keep taking to Him and He

remains silent, but graces us with his smile or abhaya

hastam.

 

There are lot who say that Lord is formless and some

who say that He is not at all there and some who say

that there is some consciousness and that is

everything and thats all.

 

In addition to these, our day to day worries which we

take too much to our heart make us sometimes

disbelievers of God. There are moments in which even a

believer can get lost and start thinking that nothing

is there or probably God is there, but He does not

love us or probably He does not exist with the form

with which we worship him and so on. All these

thoughts arise due to a mixture of various kinds of

thoughts.

 

Mine is such a case. I love the Lord and praise Him

and express love to Him as long as everything is fine

with me. I am a great believer till then. But once

something goes wrong, I start scolding Him and

shouting at Him.

Today was one of such cases :

 

I was expecting success in a personal issue and was

eagerly waiting for it to happen. But it turned out to

be a failure.

 

(Probably I love the Lord, with a selfish motive, just

because He is all powerful and He can grant me

anything I want. Normally any relation which we see in

the world, has some selfish motive hidden somewhere,

whether good or bad. Very few like the Love of parents

/ AAcharya, stand out apart from others. We want pure

love from everybody, but when its our turn not all may

be able to give pure unconditional love. The same goes

with Loving the Lord in my case. I love Him with

selfish motives but want him to show his true love to

me ).

 

When Iam happy, I praise the Lord and act as if I have

a lot of love towards Him. But that nice hearted one,

takes it as true expression of love from my side.

Probably He is like a very little baby, who smiles and

raises her hands to everybody who approach it and does

not know why they have come to it ( whether to love it

or harm it ).

 

As I was in a self-made distress today morning, I was

being harsh to Him. In all such situations, I get

mixed feelings like the following :

 

1) God does not love me. He plays with me.

2) He is not responsive to my problems ( even though

they were created by me myself ).

3) Why does He not come before me and take care of

me?. Why should He hide?. Didn't He come and appear

before prahlada,or gajendra?. Are all these stories

just made up?. If not, where is He?. Or Is He really

there?.

4) When In agony, probably we will long to see him and

question Him more than at any other time.

 

What failure I felt that I experienced today was

purely to do with the mind. I am healthy without any

problems/diseases. But as it normally happens, we take

unnecessary burden on our mind when things are going

on fine with the body and will realize the importance

of all those healthy moments which are gone, only when

the body revolts against us.

 

Probably some experiences He gives us, just to make us

a bit more strong or for the highest reason ( make us

really understand His love towards us ).

 

The following happened when I was arguing with Him

today morning :

 

I was arguing with the Srinivase perumal vigraham. I

was sitting on my bed and was telling Him - "You just

hit people and run away from them. You make them cry

and do you respond to their sorrow?. You never talk to

me. Its I who does all the talking and get exhausted.

You just smile. I think you are happy like that.

People say that you love us madly. So if thats true,

why don't you come here and sit with me now. Why is it

that I get a feeling that you elude me?. If you really

care, come here now and sit here by my side". All this

I was saying with a very loud voice to Him.

 

At the same time, there was a knock on the door. I

opened it and I saw my friend. He normally comes to

see cricket matches in my room. As I was out of order,

I asked him, is there a cricket match today?. ( as if

he had no other purpose to visit me. ). Immediately, I

realized it and invited him inside. He is from

Tirupati and is on job search here in Bangalore. He

took out a packet and said that it is the Laddu

prasadam of Lord Srinivasa, which He got for me. I was

mum. Lord had sent his grace, just when I was asking

Him to come and sit by my side.

 

I told my friend that I was actually practising a

drama, which I am going to play in my office ( I

thought that he could have heard my shouting ). Just

not to scare him, I told that I was playing the

character of a father in law in that play.

 

He left after sitting for some time. I just wished

that he gets his job thru the same Lord's grace and

leads a happy life. Bringing the prasadam could not

have been so significant for him, but for me it was

the most important happening in my life. I could see

the following in this incident :

 

1) Lord knew that on this day, I will really ask for

him to come to me and so He started from Tirumala

couple of days before itself. He passed thru many

hands, came to my friend's hand, created the thought

in his mind, that he should come and give it to me and

came with him.

 

2) If I can remember this incident, then there can be

no cause of worry in any stage of life ( But

unfortunately I forget. Just a couple of months back,

I visited Kanchi and went to Varadaraja perumal. He

allowed me to do chamara kainkaryam to him and made me

stand for 15 minutes before him. That is another

unforgettable moment in life - probably once in a

crore life times. But I could easily forget that and

was back to my old ways. So I am writing this mail,

before I can forget this Love of Srinivasa. ).

 

3) Many a times, we think that people who visit us,

just come with a purpose. But it was the greatness and

kindness of my friend, who remembered me and brought

the prasadam for me and made my life a happy one.

 

Now thru this incident, Lord clearly showed me that he

exists, He loves us, He responds to even our silly

worries and He shines with his great lovely form over

the Tirumala Hill.

 

Probably, this should serve as an answer to all

doubting and all those who say that He is just some

dummy consciousness, formless and without any

qualities or say that He does not exist.

 

I could not even feel ashamed of myself after this

incident, as this has become a habit to me. I pray to

Him, to make it a habit to keep blessing all of us

with that Love. Thru the Love, He had shown, that

worry was burnt to ashes. Then I realized that, my

actual problem was that I wanted to Him to respond and

not just watch me and that could have been the reason

for all this emotion. The moment, he came, it was

gone. Just like a baby stopping its crying, once a

lolipop is kept in its mouth by its father.

 

This was a long mail, but I felt like just thanking

the Lord thru this mail. Thats all I can do. If I

tried to boost my image as a great devotee of the

Lord, forgive me. I can very well do that and probably

did that. But just that, today, Lord made me an

instrument, in making me realize his existence, love

and care.

 

We need not see Him, but He keeps giving such

experiences to every child of His. If only, these can

be remembered, I can live a happiest life. But may be

I should not remember also. Otherwise, I will not get

angry again and He may not bless me again like he did

today.

 

Forgot to tell, I enjoyed the Laddu prasadam finally.

!!!

 

With salutations to the divine feet of my AACharya

 

Jai Sriman Narayana

 

Maruthi Ramanuja Das

 

 

 

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Priya Sriman Maruthi!

Jai Srimannarayana!

We have gone through your experience and thrilled. It is wonderful not only to

you but to all of us. Let such experiences encounter us frequently, for , we

keep getting Tirupathi Laddus every now and then !!!!!!!

Let us share them too. OK !x?!......

As christians do, we feel ashamed to share our experiences and even if someone

shares, we try to laugh at that person. It is really sad. If one believes it is

nice, otherwise, do not hear at all. Or be passive it is fine. Do not critisize.

should be our policy. Our mangalasasanams to you and Happy New Ugadi "chitra

bhanu" to you and to all ofour bhagavad bandhus.

=chinnajeeyar=

nanirao (AT) hotmail (DOT) com.

Maruthi Pavan [maruthi84 ]Sent:

Friday, April 05, 2002 6:17 AMtiruvengadam;

Subject: Experiencing the Lord of seven hillsJai

Sriman Narayana,We have not seen Lord with our eyes. We have neverfelt the touch

of His divine form physically.We have just heard about Him from our AAcharyas

andscriptures. We imagine his form from the descriptionsof scriptures, our

alwars and our AAcharyas.To make things most easy for us, He has taken thearcha

murthi form at all the divya deshams. All thesearcha forms point to his Unique

forms with which Heshines in Srimad vaikuntham. In that form, he showshis love

thru his eyes and hands and legs, but doesnot talk to us. There were very rare

instances likeVaradaraja Perumal talking to Sri Kanchi pUrNa. In ourcase, its

only that we keep taking to Him and Heremains silent, but graces us with his

smile or abhayahastam.There are lot who say that Lord is formless and somewho

say that He is not at all there and some who saythat there is some

consciousness and that iseverything and thats all.In addition to these, our day

to day worries which wetake too much to our heart make us sometimesdisbelievers

of God. There are moments in which even abeliever can get lost and start

thinking that nothingis there or probably God is there, but He does notlove us

or probably He does not exist with the formwith which we worship him and so on.

All thesethoughts arise due to a mixture of various kinds ofthoughts.Mine is

such a case. I love the Lord and praise Himand express love to Him as long as

everything is finewith me. I am a great believer till then. But oncesomething

goes wrong, I start scolding Him andshouting at Him. Today was one of such

cases :I was expecting success in a personal issue and waseagerly waiting for

it to happen. But it turned out tobe a failure.(Probably I love the Lord, with

a selfish motive, justbecause He is all powerful and He can grant meanything I

want. Normally any relation which we see inthe world, has some selfish motive

hidden somewhere,whether good or bad. Very few like the Love of parents/

AAcharya, stand out apart from others. We want purelove from everybody, but

when its our turn not all maybe able to give pure unconditional love. The same

goeswith Loving the Lord in my case. I love Him withselfish motives but want

him to show his true love tome ).When Iam happy, I praise the Lord and act as

if I havea lot of love towards Him. But that nice hearted one,takes it as true

expression of love from my side.Probably He is like a very little baby, who

smiles andraises her hands to everybody who approach it and doesnot know why

they have come to it ( whether to love itor harm it ).As I was in a self-made

distress today morning, I wasbeing harsh to Him. In all such situations, I

getmixed feelings like the following :1) God does not love me. He plays with

me. 2) He is not responsive to my problems ( even thoughthey were created by me

myself ).3) Why does He not come before me and take care ofme?. Why should He

hide?. Didn't He come and appearbefore prahlada,or gajendra?. Are all these

storiesjust made up?. If not, where is He?. Or Is He reallythere?.4) When In

agony, probably we will long to see him andquestion Him more than at any other

time.What failure I felt that I experienced today waspurely to do with the

mind. I am healthy without anyproblems/diseases. But as it normally happens, we

takeunnecessary burden on our mind when things are goingon fine with the body

and will realize the importanceof all those healthy moments which are gone,

only whenthe body revolts against us.Probably some experiences He gives us,

just to make usa bit more strong or for the highest reason ( make usreally

understand His love towards us ).The following happened when I was arguing with

Himtoday morning :I was arguing with the Srinivase perumal vigraham. Iwas

sitting on my bed and was telling Him - "You justhit people and run away from

them. You make them cryand do you respond to their sorrow?. You never talk

tome. Its I who does all the talking and get exhausted.You just smile. I think

you are happy like that.People say that you love us madly. So if thats true,why

don't you come here and sit with me now. Why is itthat I get a feeling that you

elude me?. If you reallycare, come here now and sit here by my side". All thisI

was saying with a very loud voice to Him.At the same time, there was a knock on

the door. Iopened it and I saw my friend. He normally comes tosee cricket

matches in my room. As I was out of order,I asked him, is there a cricket match

today?. ( as ifhe had no other purpose to visit me. ). Immediately, Irealized it

and invited him inside. He is fromTirupati and is on job search here in

Bangalore. Hetook out a packet and said that it is the Ladduprasadam of Lord

Srinivasa, which He got for me. I wasmum. Lord had sent his grace, just when I

was askingHim to come and sit by my side.I told my friend that I was actually

practising adrama, which I am going to play in my office ( Ithought that he

could have heard my shouting ). Justnot to scare him, I told that I was playing

thecharacter of a father in law in that play.He left after sitting for some

time. I just wishedthat he gets his job thru the same Lord's grace andleads a

happy life. Bringing the prasadam could nothave been so significant for him,

but for me it wasthe most important happening in my life. I could seethe

following in this incident :1) Lord knew that on this day, I will really ask

forhim to come to me and so He started from Tirumalacouple of days before

itself. He passed thru manyhands, came to my friend's hand, created the

thoughtin his mind, that he should come and give it to me andcame with him.2)

If I can remember this incident, then there can beno cause of worry in any

stage of life ( Butunfortunately I forget. Just a couple of months back,I

visited Kanchi and went to Varadaraja perumal. Heallowed me to do chamara

kainkaryam to him and made mestand for 15 minutes before him. That is

anotherunforgettable moment in life - probably once in acrore life times. But I

could easily forget that andwas back to my old ways. So I am writing this

mail,before I can forget this Love of Srinivasa. ).3) Many a times, we think

that people who visit us,just come with a purpose. But it was the greatness

andkindness of my friend, who remembered me and broughtthe prasadam for me and

made my life a happy one.Now thru this incident, Lord clearly showed me that

heexists, He loves us, He responds to even our sillyworries and He shines with

his great lovely form overthe Tirumala Hill.Probably, this should serve as an

answer to alldoubting and all those who say that He is just somedummy

consciousness, formless and without anyqualities or say that He does not

exist.I could not even feel ashamed of myself after thisincident, as this has

become a habit to me. I pray toHim, to make it a habit to keep blessing all of

uswith that Love. Thru the Love, He had shown, thatworry was burnt to ashes.

Then I realized that, myactual problem was that I wanted to Him to respond

andnot just watch me and that could have been the reasonfor all this emotion.

The moment, he came, it wasgone. Just like a baby stopping its crying, once

alolipop is kept in its mouth by its father.This was a long mail, but I felt

like just thankingthe Lord thru this mail. Thats all I can do. If Itried to

boost my image as a great devotee of theLord, forgive me. I can very well do

that and probablydid that. But just that, today, Lord made me aninstrument, in

making me realize his existence, loveand care.We need not see Him, but He keeps

giving suchexperiences to every child of His. If only, these canbe remembered, I

can live a happiest life. But may beI should not remember also. Otherwise, I

will not getangry again and He may not bless me again like he didtoday.Forgot

to tell, I enjoyed the Laddu prasadam finally.!!!With salutations to the divine

feet of my AACharyaJai Sriman NarayanaMaruthi Ramanuja

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