My wonderful Solstice experience

[Guest guest]

Dear friends and fellow yogis:

 

Drove all day Friday, and arrived a little earlier than I expected.

As I arrived, I wondered how I would connect up with my tantric

partner. She was flying in from California, and neither of us had a

good idea of what time we'd arrive, but we had hoped to tent next to

each other. In addition to doing tantric together, we had decided to

try for a 7-day fast, and wanted to be close to each other to support

this additional challenge.

 

As things happen at Solstice, I walked into the registration trailer,

and there she was

 

The first few days are easy-going. Peace Prayer Day (lots of great

talks by lots of great people), and then a couple of days with a few

(great classes), dancing to live music in the evening, always

surrounded by the clear clean air and dramatic views of Ram Das Puri,

high in the mountains outside Espanola, New Mexico. I can't comment

on the food, obviously, but it was great last year, very cleansing.

My partner and I spent a lot of the mealtimes just walking in the

sun, looking out over the mountains, simply enjoying the experience

of being, being outdoors, being with no demands of everyday life. I

encourage you to fast once in a while and discover how much energy

you use in preparing food, eating, digesting, eliminating, etc. It

is great to give your body time off from that from time to time, and

very good for us at many levels - it is no accident that every

spiritual path recommends fasting.

 

The best part of those days for me, in many ways, is group sadhana.

Most days I do sadhana with only a cat for company, and she adamantly

refuses to do anything but a few cat stretches. Sundays I lead a

group sadhana, so I do get to chant with people once a week, but this

is chanting with hundreds of people and live sadhana music.

Marvelous!!!

 

And in a blink of an eye, Tuesday arrives, the first day of White

Tantric yoga (WTY). More than 900 people are there to do this most

intense of yogas together. All are dressed in white, everyone is

excited. We find a seat. Nice to be away from the edge if it rains

or the dust is blowing, so everyone starts lining up an hour before

they open the Tantric Shelter (imagine a huge auditorium with no

walls).

 

WTY uses the energy of couples and groups to accomplish powerful

change and immense subconscious cleansing in a very short time.

Alignment is important. There are lines of yellow tape running from

one end of the shelter to the other. Men face one way, women the

other, our knees at the edge of the tape, so we face each and are

aligned in nice neat rows. Energy moves between us and down the

lines (hence referred to as the Z-energy), and YB utilizes this

energy to empower the meditational process, the ascent of K energy,

the opening of chakras, the cleansing of the mind, etc.

 

Frankly, for me, the first day was just horrible. It was not nearly

as physically challenging as it can be, but for me it was painful. I

felt awful. It was extremely emotional and incredibly draining. I

knew at some level that this was just cleansing, that it was

preparation for what was to come, and was all very necessary, but I

still wanted to run away... Finally it was all over. My partner and

I were observing silence for the three days of WTY, but I didn't need

to ask her, or anyone else, if it had been as hard for them. It was

on our faces.

 

Wednesday comes quickly, and it is a whole new day. I feel light and

clear and clean and ready for whatever they will do to us. Everyone

is feeling good. It is as if all of our toxins, physical and

emotional, were removed yesterday. Although my partner wants to

stick out her fast until tomorrow, I decide that 6 days is enough for

me and eat a huge breakfast - a whole orange!

 

Today there is lots of laughter, and it is hard for me not to join in

every time. The clarity lasts all day. There is a sense of

something happening to me, below the surface. something I am not

subtle enough to understand or put in words, but something profound.

The day goes very quickly, and although we feel good, we are very

tired, and my partner decides to break her fast with a little

watermelon, and we both go to bed very early.

 

Waking up in plenty of time for sadhana, I can't believe it is the

last day of WTY already. The days pass so fast here it is dizzying.

I'm excited for sadhana, excited for this third day. I realize in

retrospect that I had a sense of impending... something...

 

I feel clear and strong today. Something good and important is

happening, and today will be the best. I am determined to hold my

back as straight as possible, to move as little as possible, to let

go into the depth of the meditations as much as possible. And just

like that the morning meditations are over. What happened? My

partner and I walk in the sun, just breathing. Munch a litle

watermelon, lost in no thoughts, immersed in something no words can

explain.

 

The first meditation after lunch is 62 minutes. This meditation, YB

says, will open up our chakras for once and for all, enabling us to

go and teach and elevate. I attach my tantric belt, a clever harness

that Gururattan is selling, that helps us hold a good meditative

posture.

 

And the fireworks begin! This meditation was the most amazing

meditation of my life. I cannot begin to describe what happened, but

read about any classical K arousal - this was my version. In no time

at all the energy started to flow up my spine, and it just carried me

right out of my body - Whooooooshhhhh! Every once in a while I would

check in with my body, and every time I would experience a

spontaneous mulbhand, causing another big jolt of energy, knocking me

right back out of my body.

 

I had many different visions during the period, but the best ones

were when I could see the whole group of meditators, and could

see/feel the Z-energy flowing between everyone. I kept seeing YB - I

would focus on somebody or something, and he'd peek his head around

and smile at me and say "Keep Up!". I was quite aware of him working

on us - I finally understood what he means when he says that. I felt

connected to everyone there - I was everyone there. I felt connected

to and part of everyone there is, the planet, the Galaxy, the

Universe.

 

Near the end of the meditation, I began slipping back into my body

more and more. I noticed that I had't moved my body, never even

twitched my legs. They had fallen asleep. My butt hurt. My back

hurt. And it was OK just to feel all that and not wriggle around. I

began to feel that I was both completely in my body, and still

everyone and everything at the same time. I was completely at peace,

completely in bliss, completely in love with everything I am,

everything I felt, everybody, every molecule, everything...

 

There were more meditations that day - YB even came up and spoke to

us in person (he doesn't have to be physically with us to work on us,

but just comes to us in his subtle body), but I can't say I have any

strong memories of anything after the meditation above. Too blissed

out for the rest of the day, I just floated here and there and smiled

at everyone.

 

Gururattan taught a most excellent class the next day, about uniting

Shiva (the ascent or enlightment experience like this one) and Shakti

(the descent or liberation experience, where we learn to hold the

space in every moment of life). It was exactly what I needed to

learn about. She will be saying more about this, I know - there will

be a forthcoming lesson on this topic, and I look forward to

practicing what she taught us and learning more.

 

Sadly, this last day came to an end even faster than the others, and

was primarily occupied with saying goodbye, and simply recovering

from the intense effort of the past few days.

 

A common saying is that WTY can move one along more than a whole year

of meditating alone. It is so true. Don't miss your opportunity.

Come to Solstice next year! I'll be looking for you!

 

Much love and many blessings,

Sadhant

[Guest guest]

Kundaliniyoga, "Sadhant Singh" <kundaliniyoga@t...> wrote:

> Dear friends and fellow yogis:

>

> Drove all day Friday, and arrived a little earlier than I

expected.

> As I arrived, I wondered how I would connect up with my tantric

> partner. She was flying in from California, and neither of us had

a

> good idea of what time we'd arrive, but we had hoped to tent next

to

> each other. In addition to doing tantric together, we had decided

to

> try for a 7-day fast, and wanted to be close to each other to

support

> this additional challenge.

>

> As things happen at Solstice, I walked into the registration

trailer,

> and there she was

>

> The first few days are easy-going. Peace Prayer Day (lots of great

> talks by lots of great people), and then a couple of days with a

few

> (great classes), dancing to live music in the evening, always

> surrounded by the clear clean air and dramatic views of Ram Das

Puri,

> high in the mountains outside Espanola, New Mexico. I can't

comment

> on the food, obviously, but it was great last year, very

cleansing.

> My partner and I spent a lot of the mealtimes just walking in the

> sun, looking out over the mountains, simply enjoying the experience

> of being, being outdoors, being with no demands of everyday life.

I

> encourage you to fast once in a while and discover how much energy

> you use in preparing food, eating, digesting, eliminating, etc. It

> is great to give your body time off from that from time to time,

and

> very good for us at many levels - it is no accident that every

> spiritual path recommends fasting.

>

> The best part of those days for me, in many ways, is group

sadhana.

> Most days I do sadhana with only a cat for company, and she

adamantly

> refuses to do anything but a few cat stretches. Sundays I lead a

> group sadhana, so I do get to chant with people once a week, but

this

> is chanting with hundreds of people and live sadhana music.

> Marvelous!!!

>

> And in a blink of an eye, Tuesday arrives, the first day of White

> Tantric yoga (WTY). More than 900 people are there to do this most

> intense of yogas together. All are dressed in white, everyone is

> excited. We find a seat. Nice to be away from the edge if it

rains

> or the dust is blowing, so everyone starts lining up an hour before

> they open the Tantric Shelter (imagine a huge auditorium with no

> walls).

>

> WTY uses the energy of couples and groups to accomplish powerful

> change and immense subconscious cleansing in a very short time.

> Alignment is important. There are lines of yellow tape running

from

> one end of the shelter to the other. Men face one way, women the

> other, our knees at the edge of the tape, so we face each and are

> aligned in nice neat rows. Energy moves between us and down the

> lines (hence referred to as the Z-energy), and YB utilizes this

> energy to empower the meditational process, the ascent of K energy,

> the opening of chakras, the cleansing of the mind, etc.

>

> Frankly, for me, the first day was just horrible. It was not

nearly

> as physically challenging as it can be, but for me it was painful.

I

> felt awful. It was extremely emotional and incredibly draining. I

> knew at some level that this was just cleansing, that it was

> preparation for what was to come, and was all very necessary, but I

> still wanted to run away... Finally it was all over. My partner

and

> I were observing silence for the three days of WTY, but I didn't

need

> to ask her, or anyone else, if it had been as hard for them. It

was

> on our faces.

>

> Wednesday comes quickly, and it is a whole new day. I feel light

and

> clear and clean and ready for whatever they will do to us.

Everyone

> is feeling good. It is as if all of our toxins, physical and

> emotional, were removed yesterday. Although my partner wants to

> stick out her fast until tomorrow, I decide that 6 days is enough

for

> me and eat a huge breakfast - a whole orange!

>

> Today there is lots of laughter, and it is hard for me not to join

in

> every time. The clarity lasts all day. There is a sense of

> something happening to me, below the surface. something I am not

> subtle enough to understand or put in words, but something

profound.

> The day goes very quickly, and although we feel good, we are very

> tired, and my partner decides to break her fast with a little

> watermelon, and we both go to bed very early.

>

> Waking up in plenty of time for sadhana, I can't believe it is the

> last day of WTY already. The days pass so fast here it is

dizzying.

> I'm excited for sadhana, excited for this third day. I realize in

> retrospect that I had a sense of impending... something...

>

>

> The first meditation after lunch is 62 minutes. This meditation,

YB

> says, will open up our chakras for once and for all, enabling us to

> go and teach and elevate. I attach my tantric belt, a clever

harness

> that Gururattan is selling, that helps us hold a good meditative

> posture.

>

> And the fireworks begin! This meditation was the most amazing

> meditation of my life. I cannot begin to describe what happened,

but

> read about any classical K arousal - this was my version. In no

time

> at all the energy started to flow up my spine, and it just carried

me

> right out of my body - Whooooooshhhhh! Every once in a while I

would

> check in with my body, and every time I would experience a

> spontaneous mulbhand, causing another big jolt of energy, knocking

me

> right back out of my body.

>

> I had many different visions during the period, but the best ones

> were when I could see the whole group of meditators, and could

> see/feel the Z-energy flowing between everyone. I kept seeing YB -

I

> would focus on somebody or something, and he'd peek his head around

> and smile at me and say "Keep Up!". I was quite aware of him

working

> on us - I finally understood what he means when he says that. I

felt

> connected to everyone there - I was everyone there. I felt

connected

> to and part of everyone there is, the planet, the Galaxy, the

> Universe.

>

> Near the end of the meditation, I began slipping back into my body

> more and more. I noticed that I had't moved my body, never even

> twitched my legs. They had fallen asleep. My butt hurt. My back

> hurt. And it was OK just to feel all that and not wriggle around.

I

> began to feel that I was both completely in my body, and still

> everyone and everything at the same time. I was completely at

peace,

> completely in bliss, completely in love with everything I am,

> everything I felt, everybody, every molecule, everything...

>

> There were more meditations that day - YB even came up and spoke to

> us in person (he doesn't have to be physically with us to work on

us,

> but just comes to us in his subtle body), but I can't say I have

any

> strong memories of anything after the meditation above. Too

blissed

> out for the rest of the day, I just floated here and there and

smiled

> at everyone.

>

> Gururattan taught a most excellent class the next day, about

uniting

> Shiva (the ascent or enlightment experience like this one) and

Shakti

> (the descent or liberation experience, where we learn to hold the

> space in every moment of life). It was exactly what I needed to

> learn about. She will be saying more about this, I know - there

will

> be a forthcoming lesson on this topic, and I look forward to

> practicing what she taught us and learning more.

>

> A common saying is that WTY can move one along more than a whole

year

> of meditating alone. It is so true. Don't miss your opportunity.

> Come to Solstice next year! I'll be looking for you!

>

> Much love and many blessings,

> Sadhant

 

 

what a wonderful experience! thank you for sharing it with us. I have

definitely set my intention to be there next year, and your recount

of your experiences for us was a great window to what can happen

there.

Sat Nam,

Jessie