Solstice experience

[Guest guest]

Dear friends:

Hope all is well with everybody.

I am writing to tell you that I absolutely LOVED Winter Solstice. I can't

imagine missing it in the years to come -- ever.

I honestly didn't want to leave my new friends and daily practice.

I will admit that the nights after tantric work were the loneliest I have

ever had in my life!!! I was surely in my own hole of misery and madness. I

wanted to leave every night so badly.

I had to make it to my tantric burger duty at 5 am after sadhana each

morning, I felt like it was my duty to be there. I would say to myself. "I

will leave right after tantric burger duty" But I never did because somehow I

always felt so much better around 8 am that I could never even imagine

thinking of leaving!

I teetered back and forth like this daily. On the last morning I actually

left camp-- I cried my eyes out because I felt like could have stayed forever.

I truly had major 'seeing with my heart' experiences that are so valuable to

me and my family. The changes in me are very noticeable by everyone that I

know. Im sticking with the diet choices, my skin looks the best it ever has.

I have never felt so beautifully radiant in my whole life. All things in my

life are approaching me from a different angle now. I am keeping my head

covered for 40 days and I feel great. I may never uncover it. Who knows!

The people that I met and the experience I came home with from solstice are

irreplaceable to me. I saw so many beautiful visions during my meditations

that I am still speechless of most of them. I am going to paint them to the

best of my ability. I wish I could share everything with you. Many lifetimes

seemed to fly by me yet I knew them each passionately. SO many things I have

longed for before in my life I know now I have experienced them all in their

fullest form and there is no reason for sadness or unnecessary wanting. My

children are little angels, I have seen them in my visions. They have been so

many people to me and me to them. We are all such old souls and should be

treated as such at all times with respect and compassion, even the youngest

babe has lived and died countless lifetimes. We are all experienced

journeymen of this human condition no matter who we are. This human form we

all hold now is a precious moment in what we are as a whole.

It is a miracle how we are all so endlessly connected to one another riding

this endless spiral of living, breathing and dying. Living is a truely holy

experience. I hope we all learn to not waste it.

 

I dreamed of Yogi Bhajan in sleep dream and in mediation dreaming and he

touched my heart and soul so deeply with just his loving presence. When I see

his face or feel his presence tears well up in my eyes and I am suddenly

overflowing with love and peace. I will be forever changing and dancing with

this precious experience.

 

I have still never completed anything that lasted for 40 days except loving

you all and Yogi Bhajan so dearly. I am so familiarly connected to you and I

am blessed to have found you all. I will help to bring others home too. I do

not have a plan, but for now, somehow, that seems to be O.K.

I will do the mediation for Yogi Bhajan and my intent will be for his good

health and safe keeping while in India. Much love to you dear friends. See

you this summer at Solstice!

Remember all this pain is just an illusion.

Sat Nam

Humbly

Guru Tera Kaur