2nd yog class:( ??

April 8, 2002

I have a lot of stuff going on right now---plus a lot of buried past

emotional stuff~~~anyway, this is my 2nd class---this is a slow yoga

class, no power yoga here:)--and with the 1st class, I just felt

anxious---I figured it was the bill collector who happened to call

just prior to my class, telling me I would be taken to court---(we

have many bills due to medical stuff and car and home repairs--my

husband is now disabled with a progresive heart condition)----and

this 2nd class, I just wanted to cry at the end of it--I felt

depressed and hopeless---I just mentioned how sad I felt, and she

said this is normal due to the opening of the heart, and getting in

touch with our true feelings---well, groovy, but I don't wan't to

feel like blowing my head off every time I take a class. What do I

do? I was embarrassed to tell her how sad I really felt. I am comming

to Yoga as a way to deal with life-but I'm afraid these feelings will

overwhelm me.

Namaste,

Cindy

April 9, 2002

Dearest Cindy,

I'm sending you a lot of Love, Light and Peace,

these feelings will not overwhelm you, only, if you allow it...,

and I'm sure you will not, you are the boss :-)

I know this through own experience. Since some days I have "to fight" inside

with feelings of sadness

or I can' feel any hope, but I never give up..., I go for a walk with the

dog... fresh air and movement is good...

I like this Mantra: Aap Sehaie Hoa..., it can help "to kill" negativity.

I want to suggest you to connect with the light every day.

Do you know Lumen de Lumine? It's a potent prayer full of light.

And you can use the Circle of Light, you can choose, if you need help for

your health, general challenges or prosperity

- you will get help through the prayers of other people

(www.universalhealingforce.com)

I wish you all the best, health for your husband and all pockets full of

money to pay all the bills.

Sometimes it's dark, but the sun is stronger and will shine for you again.