sharing small life changes

[Guest guest]

I also wanted to share some changes that I've noticed taking place

over the last few months (since beginning KY). I should start by

saying that when I was younger (in my teens) it was not uncommon for

me to have vivid dreams/visions (that came true) or hear the phone

ring before it actually did or be asked a question and know the

answer without knowing how I knew it. It was all very natural for me,

but it always scared my mother. I never tried it, so it was never

intentional. But after answering a question one day (whose answer I

should not have known) she looked me straight in the eyes and

said "You REALLY scare me when you do that." I still remember the

look in her eyes. She looked at me like I was possessed or something.

Ever since then, I haven't had any visions or any other of the

intuitive feelings that I used to get. I certainly didn't consciously

want them not to come, but I think on a sub-conscious level I didn't

like knowing my mother had this internal fear of me. So I'm assuming

that I somehow 'turned it off'.

 

I was also very right-brained in high school and college. I loved,

and was good at, writing, psychology, philosophy and languages

(french and russian). I was absolutely horrible with anything

involving algebra, equations or math in general (I took basic Algebra

in college twice and got D's both times).

 

However, my current job, which I'm quite good at, has me working in

high tech doing spatial data analysis (hence my email address). So I

have become much more left-brained over the years. But I still felt

like something was missing.

 

Since doing KY, I have noticed some of the abilities I had when I was

younger are beginning to come back. I now hear the phone ring before

it actually does (not every time, but occasionally). I'll call

someone not for any particular reason, only to find out they were

just about to call me. I now even hear rain falling on the roof of my

house before it actually starts to rain. But those are really

the 'side effects' so to speak of what really is driving me. I'm more

at peace now than I was. I have a different perspective on life now.

I catch myself saying things that surprise me. It's almost like it's

not me saying them, even though the words are coming from my mouth.

And it's not that I'm surprised because the words are 'bad', but

rather I'm surprised because they sound more aged (I know that

doesn't sound right) or forgiving or understanding than I think I am.

It sounds strange I know. But I believe and feel what I am saying, I

just find it surprising that I'm the one saying it. I'm not sure that

makes any sense. It's like I'm standing back listening to someone

else speak through me.

 

My eating habits have also changed. I used to eat (and love) just

about every type of food, except coconut. I even love the taste of

liver (always have). But lately I just don't feel like eating a lot

of meat. I will sometimes, but at other times, I seem to have an

aversion to it. It makes no sense to me. And now I have had this

craving for watermelon and pineapple lately. And I was never really

big on pineapple. I know I'm eating healthier. I'm eating more fresh

fruits and veggies. But I'm not making a conscious effort to do so,

which is the interesting part to me. I have always been one to eat

when I feel hungry and eat what I feel my body wanted. I never bought

low-fat, low cal, diet anything. I always ate what I wanted. But I

also never ate when I wasn't hungry. (and my weight has hovered

between 115 to 118 lbs -- so it worked for me). But now I appear to

be 'turning into a vegetarian' by eating what appeals to my body. And

that's what's interesting to me.

 

I'm not sure exactly what is happening, but it all appears to be

positive. I hope to continue to grow and learn and expand. And I will

occasionally post rather lengthy 'stories' like this one just to

share the changes I see happening in me with everyone else out there.

Hopefully you will also do the same. And I hope I didn't bore anyone!

 

Christa