New Member

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Namaste!

 

My name is Satori, and I am a new member here. Where to begin? I had

a vision of Kali Ma when I was 11 years old. I was going through a

very difficult time period...I was an abused child, my father was

arrested for murder, and my family was suffering terribly. I was also

diagnosed with Bipolar Affective Disorder and was suffering from

horrors of the abuse of my father. I was suicidal and lost, out of

school and social life and locked in my room trying to get up the

courage to kill myself. One day, I was finally ready, with the knife

in my hand and crying hysterically trying to resist my broken mind. I

looked up into a clock on our wall. The clock was about five square

feet, and had a mirrored face. Suddenly, a vicious face appeared in a

grimace, the blue face of Kali, and it spread into a calm and

peaceful smile, and my whole body and mind relaxed. I stared at the

face and felt my whole being renewed and made whole, and when it

faded, I calmly returned the knife.

 

That started the healing process of my life. I sought help, told the

facts about my father, got into therapy, and eventually got back into

school and got my life on track. At first, I did not know that it was

Kali who had awakened me to my destructive nature, and sought out the

source in various spiritual paths. I got involved in paganism and

studed and practiced the occult for a few years, but it felt empty

and wrong. I eventually turned to Hinduism and Buddhism, and

discovered Kali Ma in my studies. I knew instantly that it was Kali,

but some old part of my destructive nature tried to resist her.

Recently, my life has become full of negativity and suffering again,

both with my illness and in my everyday life, and Kali has come to me

again, refusing to take no for an answer.

 

Since accepting Her into my life, I have found my life getting on

track again, feeling the burning pulse of Her influence in my life. I

have felt Her burning away the negativity and suffering in my life,

leaving room for growth. I have built an altar to Her, and practive

prayer, meditation and yoga daily. Now, on the cusp of my 19th

birthday, I seek community with other devotees of Kali. I hope to

learn much in my time here.

 

Jai Ma!

Satori