White Tantra experiences

[Guest guest]

Sat Nam everyone!

 

Back at the end of July I went to the European KY festival, about 2 hours SW of

Paris, in France. It was my second year going, also my second year of doing the

3 days of White Tantra! I was taught that it takes 40 days for the full

experience of Tantra to take effect, during which time you will notice shifts

and transformations. The clarity and understandings that have taken place are

truly incredible so I wanted to write and share with you all.

 

The first year that I did White Tantra was 2001, I was on holiday in the South

of France during the following 40 day period, and I broke my foot jumping into a

swimming pool that was too shallow. I quickly caught onto the fact that

although my conscious plans were to be galavanting around southern France in our

hire car, camping in all the lovely spots and taking in the scenery, my

unconscious self had decided that I needed something quite different, to be

quite still, with my self, (in a wheelchair), so as to be aware of the new

changes taking place. (Funny thing is, that at the moment of jumping into the

pool, a split-second before, this little voice said, “This is stupid” and I

jumped anyway!)

 

The symbolism of the event showed me that I simply wasn't allowed to run away

from myself this time by distracting myself with holiday adventures, I was stuck

with my own immobile presence, whether I liked it or not! Last year’s

post-Tantra experience was not very pretty, some rather "ugly" intimate

relationship issues surfaced, and I was ‘graced’ with some startling new

self-discoveries. It took me several months to wade through the new

realisations (and another year to act on them :-). I remember sitting on a dock

at night on the south coast, listening to the boats bobbing up and down, and

saying to my partner that I felt different, really different. If you've ever

gone to the bottom of the swimming pool and then, looked up to the surface, you

can see what's going on but it's all wavy, the image and sounds are distorted,

and everythings just swirling around. I felt like I had spent my whole life

until that point at the bottom of the swimming pool and that for the first time,

I had just raised my head above the surface. I cried because I felt a deep

sadness and realised that before that moment, I hadn't actually been conscious

of my own existance, (if that makes sense), I hadn’t been aware of my Self. I

had been living on automatic pilot, not aware of the choices I had been making

at each stage of my life.

 

It's incredible how much can change in year and this year's Tantra's effects

have been completely different, guess I was clearing a lot of "goop" the first

year. I have noticed this year that I have a stronger and more healthy sense of

self esteem, a new commitment to making choices that lead to wholeness and

healing instead of a divided sense of self (we could call this loving myself!),

and a new clarity of recognizing the relationship between actions and their

results, which is proving very handy in knowing when certain words or actions

will have unfavourable outcomes, it’s like I can see and feel the whole chain

of events playing out in an instant, so, before I speak or do something, I can

make a wiser choice! How wonderful!

 

One of the days of Tantra this year was a real challenge for me because I had

hurt my left arm / shoulder the day before, doing an 11 minute “chopping”

exercise, with hands in the Sat Kriya Mudra, raising them over the head and then

lowering them towards the body rapidly!! But I remember the strength that came

through the words of the facilitator when she said that Tantra reflects into our

lives, when you have a great challenge in Tantra and you go through it, you rise

above it and you KEEP UP, then you will have that same energy ready again to be

accessed when you face a challenging situation in your daily lives, and you will

KNOW that you have the resources in you to face it! Since doing the Tantra and

keeping up with the challenges, I have found myself stronger in my life, there’s

no doubt about it.

 

I love this quote from Ravi Singh, so I thought I’d share it with you all:

 

“In Kundalini Yoga we encourage students to tune into their bodies and not do

more than they’re ready for. By the same token, we encourage people to do more

than they thought they could. Thus the whole philosophic underpinning of this

system can be expressed in 2 words: Keep up!”

 

I’ve been kind of quiet on the list recently since I’ve just moved from Paris

back to England, and am now living about an hour south-west of London. It’s

taken some adapting moving back, especially since I am temporarily living with

my mum, Oh what a joy to be the ‘little daughter’ again!!! :-) I’m sure

that’ll never change no matter how old I get. It’s a challenge, but then isn’t

that how we grow, the old grit in the oyster to form the pearl. It’s driving me

deeper into my practice to resource myself and stay centered…so I take that as a

blessing in disguise.

 

Nice to be back on the list again!

 

Sat Nam, blessings and love to you all….

 

Krishan-Shiva Kaur

 

 

 

 

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[Guest guest]

Wow, Krishan. Thanks for sharing. It sounds like you've had a busy

year! I'm not near that stage yet. I'm not sure I'm quite ready to

be dealing with all my 'junk'. But it's great to hear about others

making these types of strides and coming out stronger and better for

it. Thanks again!

 

And now for one of Christa's really simple questions.....what's White

Tantra? I remember reading somewhere that Yogi Bhajan is the current

master and that there's only ever one master at a time. But I'm not

real clear on how this differs/relates to ky.

 

Christa