How to deal with emotional triggers?

[Guest guest]

I spoke with my ex last night. While we continue to have a pleasant

relationship, I ALWAYS come away feeling so guillty and ashamed regarding my

behavior in the relationship. I really thought I'd let thtat go in the last

year, but boy was I blind sided yesterday!

 

 

so I went reeling off into a binge. While my binges aren't what they used to be

by a long shot, I know that I was self-medicating. But how do I stop it? We've

been broken up 6 years now - I thought I'd be over the worst of it. I've asked

for and received forgiveness from him, and I thought myself. But he remains the

single person in the world that I feel as though I damaged in some way. His

life has continued to spiral downward and he's desperately unhappy. And since I

talked with him yesterday, I can't stop crying - I'm not normally that

emotional. But he was always so gregareous and we would ballroom dance the

night away. He doesn't dance anymore - and that hurts more than anything else I

think I've heard in a long time I guess one of the problems is that I didn't

leave due to a lack of love, it was more an act of hubris.

 

Does anyone out there have any insight for me? I'm still crying, I still want

to medicate it away. It took me a long time to regain my sense of hope and self

worth after I left and I don't want to go backwards here. But I'm in alot of

pain today ya'll.

 

LEO

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

LEO... Forgive me for coming in on this so late... I'm trying to catch up on

my mail before it self deletes and ran across yours that calls for healing.

 

Use the mantra "Ra Ma Da Sa, Sa Say So Hung"

 

It will soothe you and it will heal you, and by your saying it when you are

sad and thinking of his sadness you can also project it to him for his

healing.

 

Peace be with you.

 

Scorpio