Guest guest Posted October 14, 2002 Report Share Posted October 14, 2002 Sat Nam ya'll, I was laying in bed, just about to go off to sleep when I atarted having a bunch of body memory flare up from a hospital stay last year. It wasn't even about being sick, but as I lay there in my bed, I could feel all those tubes being shoved into my body after they admitted me and I could even hear some of the medical conversations around me. WAY more than I would have heard awake with my 20% hearing. That's kind of the weird part - I was unconcious for most of this. But my body remembers. I spent a half hour in bed, with my arms over my head, trying to breathe deep and not freak out over the sensations. I noticed about this time that I was keeping my hands as far away from any of these sensation areas as I could. Was the admonishion to "Don't Touch" that strong in the hospital? After awhile I was able to bring my arms down and physically touch the parts of me that had borne the trauma. Even as I type this I can still feel all these tubes. But I'm trying to avoid a sedative, so I thought I'd dump on ya'll. And "good for me!" for recognizing it for what it was! It's truely the most peculiar thing I've ever felt. I've had body memories before, but never like this. Like all bad memories, this one and the ones related to it will lose their power in time I know, but right now I have to keep opening my eyes to remind myself that this is not happening to me NOW. I'm trying to hang with the feelings my body is trying to express without getting myself all hung up in those feelings. Kundalini Yoga - oh yeah, we're having big fun now. :-) Sat Nam, Leo Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 15, 2002 Report Share Posted October 15, 2002 Dear Leo, have to keep opening my eyes to remind myself that this is not happening to me NOW. I'm trying to hang with the feelings my body is trying to express without getting myself all hung up in those feelings. That's it Leo. BE with the feelings. Give them love. You are on the path, brother. > Kundalini Yoga - oh yeah, we're having big fun now. Yea. :+) Sat Nam, Gururattan Kaur Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 15, 2002 Report Share Posted October 15, 2002 Hi, Leo, That was an interesting experience you shared. I commend you for being willing to be with it. Many times we want to run and hide from events like this. Best, Kartar Kaur Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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