need help - relax

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Dear Preeti,

 

Sounds like you are making a lot of progress. I am impressed.

 

Then suddenly I just lost the motivation. I

> just dint feel like getting up in the morning to do

> the sets.

 

Our energies shift. Planetary energies shift. Seasons shift.

 

So instead of fretting over my lassitude to

> practice in the mornings I tried doing some inner

> work.

 

This is a good approach and very much in tune with your energies. When they

are not outer, they are inner and then inner work is more appropriate and

possible.

 

I have been trying to establish a loving

> relationship with my soul. I try and share every

> thought and every action with my soul, like a really

> close friend with whom I consult before doing

> anything. I must admit that it made me feel nice and

> on many occasions helped me to find courage to do

> things that I couldn't have otherwise.

 

This is very beautiful! Thank you for sharing this loving wisdom.

 

I would start> my day with this practice and commit to myself to keep> it

going through out the day, keep coming back to it > if I would 'slip' in to

the irresistible train of

> useless thoughts as usual. And everyday I 'slip' soon

> after I make this commitment to myself. The problem is

> that I simply am not motivated enough to take effort

> to gather up myself all over again and again. I lose

> myself.

 

This is normal. Relax. If you do this even a few times a day, that is

great. No one is on all the time.

 

I 'know' it's beneficial for me to get back

> but I don't. It feels like too much of an effort.

 

Then just love yourself and where you are at.

Loving and allowing is very relaxing and peaceful.

 

I> feel it's because, although I benefit from the

> process, I am not thoroughly enjoying it.

 

Then try doing it only when you enjoy it.

 

Where am I> going wrong?

 

Too hard on yourself. Christa said it well.

 

Or is it just my lassitude. Or is it

> because this process is not working for me and my

> 'unmotivation' is pressing me to go deeper and find a

> completely different approach to my sadhana. Although

> it beats me what approach there can be other than

> this.

 

This approach is wonderful, but it does take effort.. There is also loving

self. That take some effort too. And there is also simply being with what

is. That takes less effort. Try these out too.

 

 

I know you would say that if you really want to

> do it, you would do it. I really want to, but am just

> not motivated enough. I know that sounds

> contradictory, but I can't explain it. because I don't

> understand it myself!! As much as I abhor living

> 'unconsciously', I am unable to be present to myself

> all the time.

 

No one can. And who would want to? Sometimes we just have to let go and

surrender to the Infinite. That is wonderful too.

 

I am a little tired of this unending

> process of fighting the lassitude and inertia within

> me,

 

Then try loving it and call it a different name. Perhaps beingness that

just wants to be accepted.

 

and motivating myself again and again. I am

> eagerly looking forward to all of your opinions and

> suggestions. Gk , is this the result of some planetary

> cycles at work!?

 

As I said, that is always a part of it. And with this season of winter

here, we don't want to be pushed so much.

 

It seems like we humans should observe animals. Like my border collie dog

who will soon leave on another assignment. Until last week she was on walk

alert all the time. This week she can't walk and lies peacefully on the

porch. She is so at peace with herself now. For the first 11 years she was

available to walk all the time. And when she rested, she was a peace with

herself too. I was always amazed at how she could be so up and then so

relaxed.

 

We humans need to learn to relax, let go and let life and death unfold. The

sun is in Scorpio now so this is a good time to surrender to this

transformation process. It is going to happen anyway, so might as well be

with the flow.

 

Thank you for your prayers.

 

Sat nam,

 

Gururattan Kaur