Weird Weekend

[Guest guest]

Dear Leo,

 

When I read about your weird weekend it brought back many memories of my

time with my first teacher (not KY or yoga of any sort, but enlightening).

I had a set pattern for dealing with bad situations. Actually, it wasn't

even "dealing" with them, but avoiding them. I would always resort to going

to the bar and getting dead drunk and/or smoking my worries away. The

person I met that became my teacher, was a performer in one of the bars. He

never drank or did drugs, just performed and visited with the bar patrons.

He seemed an odd charactor for the setting. He kept noticing me and

approached me one evening. He inquired of my pain and I remember thinking

this weird guy was also quite un-nerving (this stressful encounter required

another drink). He wouldn't leave! The end result was that I spent 10

months under his direction and came out of it knowing who I was and what I

really wanted.

 

Everytime I wanted to avoid a situation, and he presented many to me...on

purpose; I would start looking around for a way out with booze or smoke. He

always had the same answer for me. He hounded me with it; drove me crazy

with it! His words, almost verbatem...go ahead, sedate yourself. Bury that

pain deeper inside. That's it, forget about it for now. Don't worry about

it, it will still be there for you to face tomorrow when you are emerging

from the fog of your sedation. Besides, who wants to face crisis with a

clear head and make the right decissions?

 

I used to think that he would drive me crazy with what I thought was his

"new age bull s..t". Now, when crisis comes, his little discusting speech

hits me square in the face. I stand up and stand firm. This is my life and

the people who are impeeding my progress can either accept things as they

are or step aside. As I lose "friends", I gain kindred spirits. It all

balances out in the end.

 

Bless you,

Mary P.

 

The only limitations I have are those I impose upon myself.

 

 

 

 

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