Inner Anger Kriya

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Hello Dharam,

 

Thank you for forwarding the kriya on inner anger. I did one set yesterday

and one today. I have to tell you that this kriya may be the one that I need

at the moment.

Four years ago I had back surgery. I had to learn to walk again and there is

not a day that goes by that I cannot think about not doing some type of

exercise. I have to exercise daily to maintain my strength. This surgery is

also what brought me to yoga and it has been the best thing for me.

 

I had worked for the same company for 23 years. After my back surgery, they

did not want me to return to work there. However, I don't think they had a

choice in the matter. They placed me in a work area that I was not accustomed

to, with a lot of people cussing, screaming and fighting. I immediately asked

the company to transfer me to another area, as well as applying for every

single job that I was capable of doing. Every job that I formally applied

for, I was denied. I was told that I did not have the qualifications for that

particular job. I was also told that the area that I was working in was where

I would be staying(permanently)if I still wanted a job. In a period of one

year, I applied for twenty some different jobs and was never once given the

opportunity to prove myself and to get myself away from this horrible

environment I was working in. Well, that is when I started to hold all my

emotions inside and I did that for a year. I have never been the same.

Eventually, I stayed home sick and the company would not let me return to

work. This is the reason why I asked for the inner anger kriya.

 

I am 48 years old and now a student. I guess I am kind of out of synch with

people my age. I am doing OK with all this and I'm doing really well in

college. College is where I took my first yoga classes. My instructor had us

do a research paper on the different types of yoga. That's what brought me to

this web site and kundalini yoga was the yoga that really interested me. I

really enjoy reading this web site and all of you folks here are very

compassionate. I look forward to reading the posts daily.

 

 

You asked me about my birthdate. It's 02-18-1854. I guess by everything I had

read on this board that I should know that I need to accept what has happened

to me and that it's all about karma. I'm not saying that I completely

understand it, but I am trying to accept it.

 

In the process of all this, I no longer have any of the friends that I used

to have. It seems that everyone wants me to return to the person that I was.

However, I can't do that even if I tried my best. I am trying my best right

now to do the best that I can with the situation right here before me and I

feel that I am doing pretty well.

 

Anyway, that is where I am coming from so I guess I did ask for the

appropriate kriya.Thanks so much for your response. I really appreciate it.

 

Sincerely,

Gina

[Guest guest]

Hi Gina,

Do the Kriya every now and then, and do it really well. The second and third

postures are real hard without strong abdominals. I can't imagine

how it might feel having had back surgery. Do be very careful not to stress out

the lower back. Make sure that the small of your back is flush to

the floor. The moment you can no longer maintain the integrity of this posture,

you must let go. Rest briefly, then you can try again. This is the

part of the Kriya where your buttons are pushed and you are forced to face the

anger that has been swallowed. It will really be in your face, at

this point. It's when you raise both legs and begin pounding then you are then

expressing it. The legs up in this position are working the psoas

muscle and is relating to elimination and letting the toxicity go.

I did this Kriya after having finally faced the intensity of my anger in a

contained way. All through my years (31 at that time) my anger was

usually terrifying to me. I'd express it but I couldn't maintain the relation or

connection. It was anger than only knew how to destroy or leave.

Having been able to be find a calm center within my anger/rage I could neutrally

decide to check out the possibilities with doing more "anger

work".

Now I will do it when I feel like I am working against myself. When my

subconscious is trying to derail me and will not take no for an answer.

I don't see it so much as a tool for dealing with a frustration that I can put

my finger on, but as some way to release myself from a very old

pattern. There is a need to feel what is going on regarding your company.

There are levels that will miss by doing this Kriya as the only outlet.

Go check out your numbers and work with your 9th and your 2nd bodies on a

more regular basis and chant a lot. Don't get stuck in negativity

about that job scene.

Also, you are numerologically predisposed to wanting to do more than one job,

anyway. To find completion in ways more numerous that might be the

case with a 23 year gig.

Keep forward motion on that schooling idea. Diversify!

Gotta go to sleep. Been a long day.

Sat Nam,

Dharam

 

 

gladymarmalade wrote:

 

> Hello Dharam,

>

> Four years ago I had back surgery. I had to learn to walk again and there is

> not a day that goes by that I cannot think about not doing some type of

> exercise. I have to exercise daily to maintain my strength. This surgery is

> also what brought me to yoga and it has been the best thing for me.

>

> Eventually, I stayed home sick and the company would not let me return to

> work. This is the reason why I asked for the inner anger kriya.

>

> I am 48 years old and now a student. I guess I am kind of out of synch with

> people my age. I am doing OK with all this and I'm doing really well in

> college. College is where I took my first yoga classes. My instructor had us

> do a research paper on the different types of yoga. That's what brought me to

> this web site and kundalini yoga was the yoga that really interested me. I

> really enjoy reading this web site and all of you folks here are very

> compassionate. I look forward to reading the posts daily.

>

> You asked me about my birthdate. It's 02-18-1854. I guess by everything I had

> read on this board that I should know that I need to accept what has happened

> to me and that it's all about karma. I'm not saying that I completely

> understand it, but I am trying to accept it.

>

> Anyway, that is where I am coming from so I guess I did ask for the

> appropriate kriya.Thanks so much for your response. I really appreciate it.

>

> Sincerely,

> Gina

>

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Hey Avtar,

Good to know you are meditating [your brains out], also. I'd really like to

hear more of how your perceptions changed while you were/are doing

this Kriya.

In your time, no hurry.

Ever Forward, Never Backward,

Sat Nam,

Dharam

 

 

Avtar Kaur wrote:

 

> Thanks Dharam. I did LOTS of meditation with this kryia, since Dec. 1st

> I've been doing The Divine Mother, and am up to 62 mins on that. Before

> I was doing at least 31 mins of Ad Guray Nameh,plus other things. It was

> hard on my knees too, and I know I'm going to have to stop the Divine

> Mother before too long as it is really hard on my neck and shoulders,

> which were already problematic for me. But I'm going to go for 120 days

> if I can. Doing this kryia ( Inner Anger) was a wondeful experience and

> helped me greatly.

>

> Love to all,

> Avtar

>

> _____

[Guest guest]

Well Dharam,

 

I had a good look at my shadow side doing this kryia. I come from a

tradition where the shadow is thought of as evil, and therefore if one

wants to be spiritual one tiries to pretend it isn't there. What a

recipe for disaster. Anyway, I sure looked at my angry feelings over the

last 90 days, and had to admit they are alive and well !!!! What it's

made me do is examine WHY I get angry more deeply, and try to determine

whether there is just cause, or just bruised ego. I'm finding it's a

very good way to discover what really makes me tick, where my ego is, and

where I need to make changes, and also where to accept the things I can't

do anything about.

 

I keep thinking about YB telling us to bring things to the highest place

within us, and then drop them. I can see how that works with things that

are over, but how do you do that with things that are ongoing ? That

drive you nuts on a regular basis and you cannot change ? Any thoughts

on this ?

 

Avtar

 

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