Rogue Elephant and other concerns

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Sat Nam ya'll,

AS most of you I'm sure are aware, many of the drugs taken for HIV infection

are extremely strong and terribly toxic. In order to take these drugs, I also

have to take other drugs that will make my body accept the drugs without killing

me. Think of it as chemotherapy with no rest periods. One of those drugs is a

powerful anti-emetic to deal with nausea, so ideally, you should be able to

shove a Volkswagon down my throat and not engage my gag reflex. Yet about 1 out

of three mornings, I am waking up between 4 and 5 puking my guts out.. Somehow

I don't think this counts as Elephant Kriya if it's involuntary. And puking is

my LEAST favorite thing to do!!! Meanwhile I get a great ab workout! (It's an

ill wind indeed that blows NO good anywhere) However, after heaving bile for

30-45 minutes, I can't tell ya'll how wracked my body is on these mornings. All

I want is a little water and to rest, not drag myself to the yoga mat. Yeah I

know it's the "ambrosial hours", but - uh-uh! If I up my dose of phenogren too

much I end up too loaded to be functional. Kinda damned if I do damned if I

don't, you know?

Which kind of brings up another topic. I know we're not supposed to do yoga

less than 2 hours after eating. Because of the meds that I'm on however, I'm

not really allowed to "run on empty", in part because of malabsorbtion of food

by the body - again, medication related. In fact, I often get up in the middle

of the night to eat! I can't afford to lose ANY body-weight. I try to be as

empty as possible, but certain things just aren't feasible.

I'm trying to adapt. Not doing Breathe of Fire for awhile or any inverted

postures. In fact, I'm pretty much sticking to things like Alt. Nostril

Breathing, LDB and some meditations. I think I've got a combination of

allergies and rising kundalini that are at the bottom of all this. Meanwhile

I'm just dealing with my symptoms as they appear and listen to my inner voice

for direction. I've always belived that adaptablity is the key to my survival -

specialization is for insects.

And yet, in the midsts of all this I reamain calm and other than the

immediate, transient repurcussions and reactions as I've described, I feel

almost great. The drugs ARE working well, but I am also more accutely aware of

the level of toxins in my body, so this may simply be a toxic reaction. I see

my Doc on the 10th and I'll report all this then, earlier if it becomes any

worse.

 

All Blessings for the new year, Sat Nam, Leo