Guest guest Posted January 5, 2003 Report Share Posted January 5, 2003 Sat Nam everyone, I realized last night that I've been really dominating the airways on this list...Mostly because I've been on holidays from work since winter solstice... but tomorrow I return to a full schedule of work and life! I still plan to read the posts but I won't have the kind of time to respond so much. (incase anybody wonders why I'm so present then all of a sudden, seem to not be there). I wanted to share a transformational experience I've had while being a part of this list in the last month or two. It's funny that I've been talking alot about desires v.s. soul's desire, because when it comes to this darn internet connection, I experience huge desire! A desire to be meaningfully connected with other's who share a similar path, passion or way of life...I find myself wanting to check to see if anyone has left another message etc...I've gone from hardly ever using a computer to being on it all the time! (And I notice my Nervous System is not the better for it!) When I first introduced myself, I mentioned that I feel somewhat isolated in my present enviroment as far as "peer group" connection goes and my intention with joining this group was to try to experience more of that. I also tend to struggle in a group dynamic with letting myself shine or allowing the essence of me to come across. I think it was two Decembers ago, I did a SNR workshop with my teacher and the theme was uncovering your "Fundamental Delusion". Basically, what is at the core and what has been the base for all other delusions in your life to grow out of? Mine was that, if I truely be myself and express that, everyone around me will be anihalated (wrong spelling?) and I will end up utterly alone. So, hence I've done a lot of suppression in my life. So in a group, I often experience much fear and anxiety, although with everyday that passes this delusion looses steam in my life as I heal and have experiences that counter this fear. When I decided to join this group it was with the intention of being wholey genuine and completely me! Because of this I decided I would share some vulnerable information at times and really speak what was in my heart. Of course, this scared the crap out of me! It wasn't until just these last few days that I've stopped experiencing anxiety after I posted an email! Everytime I posted, all that old fear would raise up afterwards, but everytime, my postings were met with compassion, understanding and genuine comradery. I feel deeply touched and grateful for this experience. It has re built some trust for me in the universe, in people and in myself that it is infact "safe" to be me. I'm reminded of words I often hear during meditation...the war is over...the war is over...it's safe...(I have a sense that I have ripened and I'm ready to be me now). As for my newly aquired internet addiction? I realize my wanting to consume myself in this list all the time is an escape from my current circumstances of life and that my path really is to live in the light and be the light in whatever circumstance I find myself in and in that way effect the enviroment around me and release the fear I hold of "living" being a "dangerous" experience. At any rate, I now have a greater sense connection and trust in expressing myself due to the positive experience that I have encountered here. Thank you. One last thought I have, we learn to love ourselves by loving others, we learn to connect with the deepest part of ourselves by deeply connecting with others and we learn to trust the God inside us by trusting in the God present in another. All light, Sat Sangeet Kaur Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 5, 2003 Report Share Posted January 5, 2003 Sat Nam Satsangeetkaur Thank you so much for this posting. I seem to have a lot in common with you. I hope I have the same sucess with transformation as you Namaste Carol xx PS please don't be a stranger just stay up late like I do He He > _______________ MSN 8 with e-mail virus protection service: 2 months FREE* http://join.msn.com/?page=features/virus Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 7, 2003 Report Share Posted January 7, 2003 very nicely put! i am new to the group as well & have yet to post anything or even to say "hello out there". i've just recently started practicing Kundalini Yoga (just before Xmas) & while i have practiced yoga before , never this kind & this is certainly brand spanking new to me . anyway....i say all of this to say that i googled Kundalini Yoga & got the 3Ho website & have been on somewhat of a journey ever since . I am learning that not only is this a form of exercise but a way of life for a whole bunch of folk , the cold showers , the chala beans , the overall healing aspect of this just completely blows my mind!!!! i am so glad that i d to the website & who knows maybe someday i'll be posting my experiences / knowledge . (smile) mojave62 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 7, 2003 Report Share Posted January 7, 2003 Welcom mojave62, I hope you do post your experiences. This is definited a good site and group to have discovered. I am doing the cold showers and I am following what someone said about breathing slowly and don't hold your breath when you get in. Just relax, etc! The only thing is I have been sneezing ever since. So I am gonna have to find a way I can do the cold showers with out coming down with something. If you (or anyone else) have any suggestion, please let me know. Toyb - mojave62 Kundaliniyoga Tuesday, January 07, 2003 10:03 AM Re: Transformation and the Internet! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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