Guest guest Posted January 7, 2003 Report Share Posted January 7, 2003 Sat Nam...Everyone... I was thinking about meditation, transformation and moving forward in life and I thought about something I'd like to share with all of you that has really intensified my transformational experience during meditation. About a year ago I started journaling "during" morning Sadhana. For any of you who have read my intial Sa Ta Na Ma experiences, you know I've had a lot of fear and general "crap" going through my head during the meditative process. I found if I tuned in and then journaled for a few minutes prior to meditating, this was kinda like a loosening of the bottle cap, letting alittle of the pressure off, so I found myself getting into a neutrally aware state much quicker during the meditation that proceeded the journaling. You know, part of transforming is understanding. What in my life has lead me to this moment? to this form of thought, that now shapes how I percieve the world etc...Journaling gave me the opportunity to more deeply explore this... Through this deep understanding, we learn compassion for ourselves and others. Understanding is the cornerstone of compassion. Finally you come to understand that you ended up, where you ended up because frankly, you didn't know any better. If this was my way of thinking, then these actions were born out of this belief etc. How could I have ended up with any other outcome?? When you understand this, you can look at other's behaviors and your own with compassion and it also gives you the drive to now "know" better. Because once you are aware and know better, your actions will be born out of this. Not the old craziness. (the illusion) Back to journaling...I do several meditations in the morning, so after my first one I would begin to journal again, and usually with more clarity and insight at this point. I would also take the opportunity to ask God direct questions, ya know...help me understand what dynamic is being played out in this situation in my life or why am I soooo angry?? or what am I not seeing?? what needs to happen to transform this situation?? or sometimes it was just as blunt as "WILL SOMEONE PLEASE HELP MEEEE!" Then begin to meditate again...and I began hearing really clear answers. Actually, prior to hearing clear answers during meditation...during the journaling process, I found myself all of a sudden, writing in the 3rd person. At first I thought, This is weird?? but since it's a private journal and nobody will see it I'll just go with it...and what I was writing I didn't always understand at the time but through the next meditation it would usually be made clear to me. And as my practice would continue, as I would cycle through the meditations I do in a morning, I would gain more clarity and understanding, as I would journal between each med. Also I would note insights cause they have a way of slipping away on you in the light of day! Over the past 3 months alot of the commotion inside of me has calmed down (I don't seem to have the "Angst" anymore) and my meditative practice has changed from one of seeking understanding and release of old patterns to something else??? What's the something else you might ask? Well, it's still revealing itself, but, about 6 weeks ago, as I was meditating, I noticed I hadn't experienced the need to ask why or what? lately, to God, so I found myself saying... where to from here God? And heard "enter the realm of ecstasy". I didn't have a clue what that meant, but it sounded good! Sure enough, I show up to my Meditation class that I take with my teacher and he begins discussing the 5 realms, one of which is the realm of ecstasy, so now I know what it is, and experienced some of that at winter solstice and even in a SNR workshop I did just prior to solstice. So it continues to unfold, ever moving in a forward direction. I'm always very keen to share with people what has "worked" for me and I realize different things work for different people, but I share my stories for the few people that it does touch in a meaningful way... All light, Sat Sangeet Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 7, 2003 Report Share Posted January 7, 2003 Sat Nam Satsangeet and everybody, I am gonna try that! Maybe that will help me. The last three or four days have been rough. I never thought of asking, I just wondered and tried to figure things out with my cartesian mind. Thanks. - satsangeetkaur <satsangeetkaur Kundaliniyoga Tuesday, January 07, 2003 12:42 PM Meditation and Journaling and Transformation Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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