To Gag or not to Gag???

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Pu-leeze!! Brush my teeth with salt?? I won't even swim in the

ocean because the taste of the salt water makes me want to throw up!

 

All kidding aside...something is becoming clear to me as I read

these e-mails around "cleansing" the glands at the back of the

throat...

 

Dharam has hit the nail on the head...I have a huge fear of throwing

up! The way it makes you LOOK when it happens...the way it makes

you FEEL when it happens...the loss of CONTROL over your body...in

other words, here's another opportunity for surrender I guess. I

have to remind myself, this is a natural body rhythm?? as the words

catch on my tongue...

 

I have some mind crap in the way... for example (this is not

ladylike behavior!) I've prided myself in never, ever

having "horked" in my life...and this is awfully close in my book!

 

I guess I can let go of pride, it hasn't gotten me anywhere so far...

 

You know, I was at the sink this morning, brushing my teeth, and

yes, I do brush my tongue!! just not to the point of gagging (FYI I

also have a nicely pink tongue!)...and I was flirting with

danger...should I do it? shouldn't I? I was testing the waters,

slipping that toothbrush back a little further, a little further...

 

But, then I thought... I think I'll wait for the directions!

(chicken!) Now that I have the directions, I feel no better, I also

have aquired the giggles and a pounding heart from the thought of

trying it.

 

Maybe I should just practice the art of gagging first,just noticing

that I don't in fact "die" when this happens and not feel so much

pressure to be really "productive" in the fruits of my labour?

 

Why am I wanting to be able to do this so badly you may wonder?

 

At winter solstice within an hour of finishing a class

titled "Overcoming fear and Split Personalities" I came down with a

massive sinus congestion cold. And it continues to persist somewhat

as a mucousy throat and I'm wondering if I should do "the art of

gagging" to help it along?

 

Hmm... In this moment I just realized a deeper fear at work here for

me than the "gagging" issue. There's always something underneath

the goofiness, eh? I realize I'm speaking to 1000 people that I

don't know, so I won't share it, but thank you for responding to my

inquiry, speaking about this has helped me to "de-cloak" the

limiting thought pattern at work.

 

Sat Nam,

Sat Sangeet