Karma & Expansion

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Sat Nam...Everyone,

 

I've just recently entered into the Jupiter phase of my year and

find myself being called to expand in new ways. In numerology my

Karma # is an 8 (the pranic body)...my destiny or knowledge # is an

8 as well. What that means is that when people come to me for

interaction, what they are wanting from me are the qualities of the

8....but, because it's also my karma # I'll constantly be challenged

in my attempt to deliver to them "the 8!"

 

In my life there are many ways that I can observe how I already

emulate the 8 (this comes from having it as my knowledge

#)....but...there are some areas where I struggle (this is because

it's also my Karma #).

 

Since recovering from the chicken pox (CP), I find myself having

made a "quantum leap" in the number 8 department. Right off the top

I noticed a fearlessness, when it came to expressing myself in the

written word. Having the chicken pox was a major detox for

me...after it fully manifested, I began to experience an increase in

understanding in all areas of my life. It was as if I was

experiencing the world with new eyes.

 

In the last 2 years and even more intensely in the last 6 months I

have been working with music in order to work on my karma...singing

and the actual process of creating of music...trying to understand

all the components that go into a finished piece of music. It was

during CP that I experienced, especially in this area, an opening of

my understanding of this process.

 

Singing is one of the key ways to develope the pranic body and just

about a week ago I made a key realization in the singing

department....I realized that in order to "hit" a note anywhere in

your range, it requires a constant, stable, flow of the breath,

meditated by the diaphragm.....The #8 is all about feeling a

constant flow of prana or "Divine flow", through you at any given

time. This is where the fearlessness grows out of...we can connect

with prana through the flow of the breath ....it's a constant

connection to the infinite. This is where the endless amounts of

energy originates from....with this realization I was able to

observe the process I go through while singing and see why I

experience the angst that I do, at times.

 

When I begin to come close to the top of my range, the first thing I

notice is a sense of fear (my diaphragm has tightened up)...I begin

to worry that if I go for it, the breath just simply won't be

there...it's a feeling like taking a flying leap without being

certain that there is a safety net below. From there I decide, I

had better control the situation, and I begin to clamp down on my

throat in an attempt to control the sound that comes out, and from

here you end up with a forced attempt. This all took place in a

matter of seconds, but I realized how this same process plays out in

my life as well.

 

I was in a workshop this weekend and surpise! (we were talking about

karma) and I had this same experience...although my teacher had to

put it into context for me I wasn't able to witness it in that

moment. AS the workshop progressed I found myself getting more and

more distressed.. I felt like I couldn't keep all the facts

straight, couldn't remember from one moment to the next what had

just been said....finally it came my turn to talk about my karma #

and I just blurted out..."I hear you say one thing and I understand

but then you go onto the next thing and I immediately forget what

you've just said and I'm so confused and I feel like I can't hold

onto any of this info and keep it in my head all at once!"

 

My teacher goes.."A-ha! classical 8 behavior!" And in that moment

it dawned on me....CONSTANT FLOW!...I don't need to "hold on" to

anything, because there is always "more" coming "down the pipe".

More information...more energy...more breath...more light...and more

love. There is no lack of anything....it's all there waiting for me

to align myself with it. Fear stems from that sense of

lack....lacking a connection with the everpresent constant flow of

the Divine in our lives. When I struggle, is when I "resist" that

flow through me and either "attach" to it or try to control it in

some way...instead of falling in line with it and becoming a

co-creator of the beauty inherent in the present moment.

 

I continue to be amazed at how a deeper meaning can always begin to

emerge as you further your practice...things that you understood in

one part of your life, but up until the present moment, never saw

the connection that it had in another part of your life! Wow...what

a beautiful adventure we have embarked on!

 

All Light,

Sat Sangeet

PS this isn't a closed topic for me yet and I continue to understand

more each day..but I needed to share what I had so far to help me

process it further. I appreciate the use of your ears! Sat nam.