release after classes

[Guest guest]

Hi everyone Anne Marie here,

I wanted to thank Sat Sangeet (I hope I spelled that right) It seems every

time I have a question or observation I get my answers from this list. I

have been teaching 2 classes on Saturdays for a month now. (I also teach

three nights per week) What I have noticed is on a Saturday I feel that

everything comes to a head for me. Three weeks out of the four I have argued

with my loverly husband for next to no reason and ended up in tears. I feel

better knowing that Im not the only one who has gone through this. My poor

husband looks so shocked when I start and I hear words coming out of my

mouth and dont know who is speaking sometimes. I have been doing lots of Sun

Salutations in my lessons as it has been so cold in the gyms that I teach

in. Would they bring up these feelings and if so how can I ride this out

other than going to my room for the whole night? Maybe now that Im aware of

what is going on I will be able to curb my feelings more. Any suggestions

would be appreciated. Sat Nam Anne Marie

[Guest guest]

Sat Nam Marie,

 

" Would they bring up these feelings and if so how can I ride this

out other than going to my room for the whole night? Maybe now that Im

aware of what is going on I will be able to curb my feelings more. Any

suggestions would be appreciated."

 

--ego will always be there. I still find myself reacting occasionally,

after steady KY and lots of meditation for 4-5 yrs. Its natural. What

I found really helps, find that space after your morning meditation and

just hold it. THANKS GURURATTAN. ( I had actually been developing tools

I wasn't using) Then during the day you will be more aware, aware of

your thoughts, feelings, and best of all you can 'watch' when your

thinking is turning negative.

 

Constant contact with the space is the best defense. I've been practing

this daily, and while not prefected, I at least notice when I drift from

the space, bring myself back.

Sometimes I use breath to center, concentrate on the inhales, and

exhales. Don't forget to include your husband in your space too, maybe

one reason you react to him, he's seperate from your realm of awareness.

 

Thats alot of responsibility teaching 5 classes a week plus whatever

else you do. Yes I believe the tangles with your husband are directly

related. I feel this is common, for me I believe when I do it , its a

'reality' check for my ego. A sort of 'self' validation. But when I

begin trying to keep my space during the day, this helped immensely.

Now I'm aware of when one of those 'thoughts' or 'moods' is

manifesting, I test it and see where it comes from. Broken down this

way it always dissipates, when you bring attention or insight to the

thoughts and feelings it has a way of disarming them.

What it boils down to; its more convenient to react to someone else than

to disect your own feelings.

 

"curb my feelings"

 

--do everything but try to curb them. allow them , analyze them, in the

end they curb themselves.

 

 

Blessings

 

Deva