RE: Sa Ta Na Ma/Source Connection

[Guest guest]

Sat Nam Leslie and Deva and...Everyone!

 

I experienced huge "resistance" from my ego with this mantra....the

first time I practiced....it was the first mantra I ever practiced

before... so I went in kinda blind, not knowing anything about ego

yet really...and I mananged for the 40 days and saw changes in my

life. This meditation will give you an experience of "Sat Nam"..

your true identity...so anything that "blocks" or obscures the light

of that true identity, will need to raise to the surface to be

healed eventually, when you chant this meditation.

 

Then all of last year I kept feeling a calling to come back to it

and practice it again in a committed way....and frankly it was hell,

to begin with....but after the about the 65 day mark, I began to

experience an easing of the crap rising to the surface and began to

experience more light with it.

 

So like Deva said...it's normal...and good positive forward movement

to experience resistance to continuing a mantra, because of what

begins arising for you when you do practice it...

 

Understanding the process that you are going through, helps to

de-mystify the experience for you....and helps you to move

forward "despite" ego resistance.

 

Meditation is meant to "clean out" your garbage can initially...we

need to support that with "cleaning out" the physical body and

taking care of it through a physical yoga practice as well...the two

need to find a balance.

 

There are different aspects that come together to support us in

achieving an effective meditative practice....such as the above and

then as Deva said...we need to cultivate awareness while we meditate

so we can neutrally witness the mind and whatever other flow happens

to be flowing through our space during our meditation...

 

Without the witnessing aspect of meditation, which requires

awareness, we never get past the point of drowning in our crap, we

get overcome by it...we aren't able to understand or "distil" the

gift out of the garbage inherent in it...we "bounce" back and forth

between the positive and negative mind and we go off on a whim and

whimsy anytime our senses get stimulated in a particular direction.

 

Someone asked me off line the other day "how can I connect with the

Source" ...when I responded I wasn't feeling particulary eloquent at

that moment and perhaps didn't say as much as I should have...so

I'll say a few things now about it in context with this post...

 

Awareness and the developemnet of it, is key...

 

One way it can be developed is by consciously breathing and relating

to your whole body as you do it... so you take a breath in...and

it's like all of a sudden, you can be aware and feel every cell in

your body...you visualize the breath flowing into every cell on the

inhale and then out, releasing negativity as you exhale...Now some

people will read this and go "yup" I did that....but I mean "really"

get in there and breathe and do not stop until you can

consciously "feel" something (be it vibration, tingle, light, a

sense of ease etc) in "every" single part of your body....in the

parts where you can't feel...let the prana in the breath massage

those areas until you can. Have a sense of yourself in

totality...feel yourself deeply.

 

On a really "physical" level this begins with feeling the gross

physical anatomy of the body (muscles, bones, organs) and then in a

more subtle way you expand your awareness to feel more deeply (or

subtlely) the energy beneath the physical..."Well how do I do that??"

 

I like to imagine that all of a sudden I am becoming aware of

the "space" in my body (prana fills all spaces..so if I can feel the

space, I can feel the prana) It's a new perspective.

 

I imagine what the space in my lungs and heart feels like..imagining

my sensory system is not bound in my physical body, but it can

expand to feel the space within my body or without for that matter.

It's a new perspective. Be willing to hold a "new" perspective.

 

I begin to sense the space between my cells...the space between my

muscles...the space within my bone structure...the space inwhich my

mind lives...the space around my body (the aura)...the space in the

bedroom down the hall from me...and it goes on and on...

 

I become aware of this space by this method and eventually I begin

to see all those spaces fill with light, as I become aware of the

energy in my body...and then it goes on from there...where ever it

happens to go...

 

But once I get into that "aware" state then I can witness what goes

on during meditation and understand and distil what needs to be

distilled from it. Having this witnessing state of mind

(meditative mind)in all aspects of your daily life allows you to

track your experiences and what's coming to you in your enviroment,

as well as what is going on within you at the time and it allows you

the capacity to begin to "actively" instead of subconsciously, work

with whatever is most important for you to work with in that moment.

 

Remember...whatever is coming up for you in any given moment..is

always going to be, what you should work with actively, to create

the most forward movement for yourself...but without having the

awareness of what "is" coming up for you...your like a dog chasing

it's tail...stuck in a pattern.

 

What does this have to do with connecting with the Source? You need

to develope the skill of awareness inorder to be able to "recognize"

the Source!! Remember God (the Source) is always lurking...we just

can't see it through all the dust and debri in the air sometimes!

 

The more we clean our mind and body through the meditative/yoga

process...the more Source, we will see and experience in our lives.

 

And there's nothing linear about all of this either! We can't talk

about it in that way...it's a dynamic play. Where our consciouness

is at will be different in all parts of our life. I might be able

to live or uphold the "consciousness" of Non-violence in respect to,

I not going to go out and beat the crap out of somebody...but I may

not be able to maintain that consciousness in the words that I use

to speak to another...they may cut like a knife...

 

So there are always different levels that we are constanly

intermingling with and we don't make it to one level and say "great!

We're there or I made it!...finished with that!... never have to

work with my ego again" (Ha Ha!).... (ROFL)....we are constantly,

depending on where our consciousness is in that moment, doing a

dance bewteen all these different levels or spaces (whatever you

want to call them).

 

And we are constantly developing and building momentum towards

quantum leaping towards the light..with every little bit of

awareness we muster within our practices, it moves us

forward...that's money in the bank...to subsidize your

"future" leap towards the light!" ha ha!

 

Happy Quantum Leaping!

 

Sat Sangeet Kaur