a few thoughts

[Guest guest]

hello everyone,

 

I'm new to KY, like many of you apparently. I've been reading a lot lately about

spiritualism etc and I agree something is changing in the world, let's hope for

the good. And if it's not the whole world then at least I'm changing, and it's

also due to this nice group that I continue!

It's difficult to explain all that I'm feeling these last months, if not

impossible. I recently stopped drinking, smoking, marihuana and other stuff. I

wanted to do this for a long time, but it's KY that triggered it. Yogically (I

like how some people communicate on this group:) I feel much better now !

I've been living in a dreamlike state for the last 5 years is what I realize

now. Nothing seemed to interest me, nothing seemed important (and don't get me

wrong, I wasn't a 'junk' in people's eyes, I'm a civil engineer, on the outside

nothing 'seemed' wrong). I didn't even notice the days passing by. I was just

like most people around me actually.

But no longer !

Actually the whole world is a magical place. Even the smallest thing like 'a

sound'. I've been thinking a lot about this lately.

One of the things I noticed with the people around me is that there is a fear of

seeing G** in all. When I talk about it with my friends (which I don't do a lot)

they almost get mad or laugh it away. And I can see their surprise, anger, fear

and most of all doubt (if they listen and aren't too absorbed by another

fantastic tv-show -> I know I shouldn't be so judgemental he, I did (and

sometimes still do) the same, but now it seems such a waste of time).

When they ask me about it (they sometimes do, they know I'm into 'something new'

and are actually very intruiged, I like to stay a bit mysterious to get their

attention more, for some reason 'secret knowledge' attracks a lot more) they ask

the 'standard' questions like "do you believe in god?". If I say yes,

trrromm-trrromm-trrommm, the whole army comes into action; they start about

science and how we don't need a god, that god is a poor explanation for dumb

people...they start about big bang, about religions causing all these pain,

wars,...

I wasn't raised spiritually at all. But what I think is ; I don't know anything

about 'the beginning of time' or 'the meaning of war' or ... but frankly, that

doesn't really mather. Lately I am really hit by the beauty of life. How the

plants grow, how words can change my view completely, how I sometimes can

actually feel the breeze they talk about (on top of your head and in the palms

of your hands)... How amazing the world is if you look at it! And it's all these

small things that people find 'normal' that I don't find normal anymore, but

magical. The touch of someone, the sun, the water, music, air,...

Thank 'IT' I'm alive! And thank you all for sharing.

 

I'd love to get to know a real teacher, a master that can guide me a bit (is

there one around Brussels?) (and some day, I'd love to become a teacher myself)

Of course, I'm not there yet, I still get frustrated, hurt people and hurt

myself...but just by writing this I feel a bit liberated, if I share things they

seem to get more real, so thanks a lot for reading and good luck to you all.

 

saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat nam

Hans.

[Guest guest]

Hans....Saaaaaaaaaat Nam!

 

I relate to what you are saying...about "simple" beauty. I remember

writing a letter to Yogi Bhajan last year and I was saying to

him...I never imagined there would come a time in my life, when I

would simply "inhale" and feel like this one "moment" and one

breath, held all potential and all possibilities....everything I

ever need to sustain myself can be found....in just "one"

breath...it's simply there for me if I can relate to it.

 

I don't believe life gets any more simple or magical than

that....it's very beautiful to experience life in this way.

 

Something you said in your post reminded me of this...

 

During my meditation yesterday and in a dream right before I awoke,

I recieved some feedback, that I am experiencing

"existential" fear...I took some philosophy in college and I

remember speaking about existentialism...but to be honest...I was

young and really didn't understand what it was about...so yesterday

morning I looked it up in the dictionary...(I'm thinking, I'm

probably the only person who meditates with a dictionary beside her!

Ha ha!)

 

I was reminded of the definition this morning reading the part of

your post, where you were describing, some of your friends reactions

to you believing "God is in all".

 

The definition went like this....the philosophy that man can only be

free through full consciousness of his illogical position in a

meaningless universe.

 

So I realized I was experiencing fear of the unknown...fear of "my

God! what's this whole universe about?" Fear that I have no purpose

and my life (my existence) holds no meaning....and I suffer for the

sake of suffering alone and nothing positive is trying to emerge

from what I percieve as, painful situations etc. etc...

 

Obviously, it's the unconscious parts of me having this struggle

because the conscious parts of me know a different truth than the

one expressed above.

 

But my point is...I think everyone is grappling with this...when

your friends jump on the "no God" bandwagon...I think it's them

grappling with this and through conversation with you, they are

trying to process some of that. Sometimes if we hear past the

actually words one uses...we get to hear what they are actually

saying....so don't get so freaked about, people not knowing what

we're talking about or being met with a lot of opposition, when we

speak about these things....

 

I think the trick is to get "right" within yourself...and then no

matter what anybody says...you relate to your True identity...and

you begin to lose your reactions to certain trains of

communication/topics and then you can hear "beneath" the "delivery"

of what's being said, to the essence of what's being said and then

respond to that....and in that we come together and begin to have an

understanding between each other.

 

Anyways..I think I'm just thinking outloud here! Thank you... your

post helped me to process abit and see more clearly.

 

Hans...welcome to the "magical mystery tour!"

 

(That's what I'm titling my journey with Kundalini Yoga! At least

that's what I'm calling it today! Ha ha!)

 

All Light,

Sat Sangeet

[Guest guest]

Sat Nam Hans!

Thank you for the wonderful mail...it was really honest and touching and in many

parts very familiar...

Love and Light

Marily Sat Atma