Mastery...Being...Tricky Mind!

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Sat Nam...ladies and gentleman,

 

I have been contemplating all the responses I have received from my

inquiries over the last day or so and the theme of all responses are

along the lines of...release the mind...trust the process...be in

the process at hand and allow the unfoldment to occur as it will,

surpassing the limitations, of the boundary of the mind.

"By thinking and thinking...nothing happens....though I may think a

thousand times!"

 

I'm sure no one else can relate to this....but I realized...I HAVE A

TRICKY MIND! Ha Ha! I can't believe it! It" duped" and I didn't

even notice!

 

As I told Rebecca, I would, I watched with more attention this

morning and noticed something...

 

In my last meditation class this semester with my teacher...he

started the class off by saying something like..."every time we

meditate using the Siri Gaitri mantra (Ra ma da sa…) afterwards what

I see with, shocking clarity, is everyone's ego limitations...it

never fails, every time...it's in the expressions on your

faces...it's in the questions that you ask afterwards, it's in how

you talk to one another... etc etc".

(putting this statement into context...someone had asked him what it

is that he sees, as we do the meditation....although it might sound

harsh for him to say that...it wasn't at all).

 

But my point was...that wasn't the first time I had heard him make

that observation...nor was it the first time I had witnessed it,

with my classmates or within my own classes with

students...BUT...what I did notice, was myself saying to

myself .."he's not talking about me, he's talking about everyone

else." ROFL!!! Surprise! "Oh no no no no...not me???" OOOOH...

YES...sister...whip off those rose colored glasses you're

wearing...cause he's got your number...and he's just called it out!

Ha ha!

 

I suppose it should have tipped me off, when I found myself avoiding

eye contact with him, as he was saying it...but illusions die

hard......you know, my teacher's got that whole look you in the eye,

speak the Truth, break through all the barriers of the heart with

your words and presence thing, going for him...you too would avoid

eye contact in the same situation!! What do you call that when

someone does that?? They've got a name for it...it's on the tip of

my tongue...oh yeah, right...don't they call that... mastery??

Ha ha ha!

 

Okay... all kidding aside...I have a point.

 

What started me on this trail of thought Friday to begin with...was

an experience of Light and expansion. After posting...I noticed a

pattern had emerged in what I had written and I can look back and

see the tendency repeating several times in the past...including the

night in question, when my teacher gave us this observation and I

was busy coyly saying to myself, "Oh nooo.... not me!"

 

The pattern goes like this... I have an experience of

expansion/infiniteness/light ...I come out of the meditation and the

first thing I do, is to start talking about love or expressing it in

some way...and then I begin to ask questions about infinity and

creation.

 

Today as I meditated, I kept "one eye open" so I could see what

dynamic was at play... under all of this...

 

As I began to experience an expanded state...an opening into

all...the questions began...but in a flash, I had an understanding

come through as well. And this is how my mind is TRICKY...I could

almost hear it whispering to itself... "just get her talking about

the infinite in her head...she'll forget all about...actually having

the experience of it..."

 

It tricked me with it's content! Talk to her about something she

enjoys...that'll keep her put! With a Karma number of 8, my

challenge is to go from finite to infinite. The mind is limited and

can not go to infinite, so the moment it sees me headed in that

direction, it pulls out all the stops...including, wrapping me up in

a finite conversation on the infinite!

 

So I began to meditate once again with the intention to see what's

underneath this tendency...and I floated up against a plexi glass

wall of fear.

 

I was reminded of some words of my teacher's... "we're afraid to

become comfortable with the unknown". Yes... I am. My hope is to

heal this fear...

 

Standing on the outside... looking through a clear wall, into the

richness of your Soul...it's within your grasp...if you could just

breakthrough this almost feeble barrier that separates you....

from you.

 

Well...on the upside...at least it was plexi glass and not stone or

steel! Ha ha!

 

I'm reminded of that children's game...rock,paper,scizzors...anyone

remember what element or tool beats glass??

 

 

 

Sat Sangeet Kaur

P.S. I know...it's a process...I'm just emoting...