Growing up...Quantum Leaps of Consciousness

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Sat Nam...Everyone,

 

There is one thing, in the last 4 years of practicing kundalini

yoga, that I have come to understand....and that is....my teacher is

always right!! It kills me to have to say that...but it appears to

be true.

 

Sometimes it may takes years for me to understand what he has

said...but eventually...it always comes around to being true!

 

About 3 weeks ago I took a SNR workshop with my teacher, on healing

to do with the Soul # (inner child). By the end of the workshop I

was so raw and torn apart...I felt as if I couldn't survive what I

was feeling. As the workshop was coming to a close and I was still

full out crying (as I had been for the last 2 hours!) I asked my

teacher or rather stated in a questioning way..."so..this has been a

positive experience then???" (through my tears).

 

My teacher kinda chuckled and said, "well...I think after your bath

tub drains alittle...you'll begin to see things alittle

differently...and think you will begin to feel that way..." In that

moment there was no convincing me though.

 

Well as, George Constanza, form Sienfeld would say..."I'm

back..baby...I'm Back!!" Ha ha ha!

 

Took me 3 weeks....but I got some perspective!

 

This morning during meditation I began to think about the process of

growing up...and I don't mean growing up as in going from young to

old, as in a physical growing up,...we all do that....I was thinking

about the growing up of our consciousnesses'.

 

What's that sayings of YB's? Something about the spiritual teacher

being the one who sets you straight on everything you've learned up

until the point you meet your teacher! Ha Ha!

 

I've made the observation, in the last few days...that I am growing

up! (giggle, giggle)....

 

Our bodies grow...but our consciousnesses are arrested at different

stages in our growth. One can have huge consciousness in one

area...and yet have infantile consciousness in another area of their

life. This has been my experience.

 

The nice thing about growing up your consciousness is that it is not

bound by time and space...the physical body needs time to

grow....the consciousness can change in an instant. We can make

huge leaps and bounds in no time at all.....and the more momentum we

build in this direction...the greater the leaps of consciousness can

be.

 

I remember my first White Tantric experience....I had basically

fallen apart the month prior to going...I had been seeking SNR and

counselling from my teacher once a week the month prior to leaving

etc....just to get by....at the event, sitting there in the 3rd

posture we did that day...a pain so great over took me and I

resisted until it was so encompassing the only option now had become

surrender...and I did.

 

My body shook like I was a space shuttle re-entereing the

atmosphere...and I remember thinking to myself..."Oh my God!....I

must be getting ready to make a Quantum Leap!!" I leapt alright...I

leapt from the arms of pain and distortion into an ocean of

Grace....where I heard the Divine whispering sweet nothings into my

ear...caressing my face with his words of love...and for once in my

life, having an experience of satiation....he spoke to me about

there being no separation, as my sense of body melted into this sea

of "all"...I was complete.

 

Afterwards... for the following 3 days...I experienced what it was

like to be fearless. This single experience of the Light is what

reminds me to get up when I fall down...

 

I told someone later..."now that I have experienced the Truth...I

can no longer live in the illusion"....because now, I know

differently. Now that isn't to say that I don't live in

illusion...because I do...but I no longer, can consciously live the

illusion...so the illusion must be healed, when I become conscious

of it working in my life...it's time to heal it.

 

So I continue to chip away at the illusion,

 

Sat Sangeet Kaur