Guest guest Posted May 19, 2003 Report Share Posted May 19, 2003 During a group chant/meditation my arms and legs went completely numb. I found it horribly difficult to concentrate and found myself becoming more and more angry. I changed positions and found that the chant was causing the anger to build even more. Sitting there in the middle of class I suddenly felt alienated and like I didn't belong there...my hands started to shake and I was trembling from my core. I quietly rolled up my mat and left feeling like a failure but felt that to stay would have been disrepectful to my teacher. Does anyone relate to this happening? Anything similar happen to you? Any thoughts would be appreciated. Sat Nam, Mary Kathryn Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 19, 2003 Report Share Posted May 19, 2003 Hi Mary Kathryn, It sounds like you were experiencing an emotional release. I have had similar experiences and know how confusing and even scary they can be. However they are wonderful opportunities for releasing emotions. Chanting is known to cause these cathartic releases and many teachers are aware of this and would encourage you to stay with the emotion and be aware of it. I would encourage you to speak with your teacher about this incident and see what she says. The most important thing for you to know is that this is a completely natural response. You may wish to try and tap into that same feeling of numbness/anger in a theraputic environment where you can examine it further. Much love to you, Kassandra Kundaliniyoga, "yogaonthego" <yogaonthego> wrote: > During a group chant/meditation my arms and legs went completely > numb. I found it horribly difficult to concentrate and found myself > becoming more and more angry. I changed positions and found that the > chant was causing the anger to build even more. Sitting there in > the middle of class I suddenly felt alienated and like I didn't > belong there...my hands started to shake and I was trembling from my > core. I quietly rolled up my mat and left feeling like a failure > but felt that to stay would have been disrepectful to my teacher. > > Does anyone relate to this happening? Anything similar happen to > you? Any thoughts would be appreciated. > > Sat Nam, > Mary Kathryn Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 19, 2003 Report Share Posted May 19, 2003 Sat Nam Mary Kathryn, I would just add to what Kassandra so aptly expressed...that you don't ever have to "worry" about how a "teacher" will feel based on how you are feeling in a class.....a students behavior is never "personal" to the "teacher" (meaning, they don't take your feelings personally) the student experiences it personally, but the teacher doesn't ....(that doesn't mean there isn't an effect for every cause, you put into effect, whether it be in action or thought...we still are responsible for our behavior....but...teacher's expect students to be stirred up inside and to act crazy sometimes...if you are truly a "teacher" you understand this process...because at some point you had to have experienced it as well, to have experienced any evolution in your life. When a person sits down and chants Ong namo Guru Dev Namo as a teacher...they embody the essence of the teacher in that moment...they are there to foster an experience of growth through presence and the teachings they share with the class.....a natural outcome of this would be that the students limitations gets stirred up so they can become aware of them and heal them, as Kassandra has said. If a teacher becomes stirred by a students reaction within a class...it should become grist for that teacher's mill...because they too have experienced where there own limitation lies...in being impersonally, personal. I share this experience with you as well...as I am sure everyone has at some point....you're not alone! All blessings, Sat Sangeet "OUR DESTINY IS TO BE HAPPY" - Yogi Bhajan To UNSUBSCRIBE from this list, please send a blank email to Kundaliniyoga NO UNSUBSCRIBE REQUESTS TO THE LIST PLEASE!> WEB SITE: kundalini yoga KUNDALINI YOGA ON-LINE TRAINING. Details from kundalini yogaclasses.html Transitions to a Heart Centered World - Gururattan K. Khalsa Ph.D. The most comprehensive source of Yogi Bhajan's Kundalini Yoga sets and meditations available! transitions.html Post your free ad now! Canada Personals Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 20, 2003 Report Share Posted May 20, 2003 Mary Kathryn, When we don't feel good about our anger and don't feel empowered about expressing our fire. When on some deep level our expressions (sometimes aggressive, which is not bad) are thwarted by thoughts of guilt and too much "consideration" (anger directed at the self), our arms and legs, and more, will show numbness and other symptoms of "dis-integration" and alienation. You gained some good awareness from this experience. A few things came to the surface. Persistent anger, more often than not, is something that keeps us from having a relationship with "the self". Check it out, next time you're feeling great (after a good Sadhana, maybe) watch what happens when your thoughts turn to those of annoyance or irritation at another driver or some other mammal. It's subtle, sometimes. It can be so habitual. What how quickly your energy gets dispersed and "how" that sense of "connectedness" just vaporizes. What does good anger look like? For me, anger that comes from supporting my heart felt feelings feels pretty integrated. It comes as a part of an expression of the healthy emotions of love and affection and is not sticky. Within Yoga practice, the tuning-in process (kundalini yogakyt03.html ) will create that space of love and affection and within that space, balance can take place as we have linked beyond our subjective self. Meditation is not for the faint at heart. I could not ever do a meditation without having done my yoga....This is true for many people. Without an integrated navel sense I would be headin' for the hills in a New York minute. You might want to try the Kriya for Inner Anger. I will send at your request. Until then, there is much you can do. Gurpranam. Triangle pose. Navel work. Warriors Tension release and other Kriyas where you get to pound the floor (ask Ranjit about these) Running in place with a punching motion. Basically, find that place where anger feels integrated. That should keep you busy for a weekend. Hope this helps, Sat Nam Dharam Singh yogaonthego wrote: > During a group chant/meditation my arms and legs went completely > numb. I found it horribly difficult to concentrate and found myself > becoming more and more angry. I changed positions and found that the > chant was causing the anger to build even more. Sitting there in > the middle of class I suddenly felt alienated and like I didn't > belong there...my hands started to shake and I was trembling from my > core. I quietly rolled up my mat and left feeling like a failure > but felt that to stay would have been disrepectful to my teacher. > > Does anyone relate to this happening? Anything similar happen to > you? Any thoughts would be appreciated. > > Sat Nam, > Mary Kathryn Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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