Scared and lost touch with myself

[Guest guest]

sat nam everybody

i have following the articles in this group and for some reason i

kinda felt little hope that somebody can help me in my misery which

at this moment i am struggling to put it in a way that someone can

understand it and be able to help me.

i have suffering most of my life of what seems to be anxiety(in the

medical books),but the way i feel it is more than that.

the story begins when i moved from my country to canada about 4 years

ago and since then i have going through some tough times that left me

now with feelings of severe fear from life , feelings that i am lost

in life ,no goals no hope no dreams but the worst feeling is losing

touch with myself ,when i am by myself my eyes are open but i dont

see anything ,not deff but i dont hear anything ,my mind is absent

and when iam around people i feel scared when i talk to them i feel

scared and guilty because i feel its not me who is talking or i dont

feel that the words are coming from my heart .the link between me and

myself is broken.

on the physical side,i feel tension under my navel and above my navel

and a heat in my lower back which in ky terms lower chakra specialy

the second chakra.

i hope that someone understands that i cant understand and show me a

specific set or meditation to symptoms that i am struggling to

understand .

finally i want to thank you all for your assistance

and god bless you all.

sincerly

ahmad