My experience at the European summer solstice

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Sat Nam.

I had a wonderful experience at the European summer solstice that I

want to share with this list. I found the information about the

festival on internet only two weeks before our scheduled vacation to

France. I was pulled to it without any possibility to escape. I did

not know anything about white tantric yoga before but I had

practised kundalini yoga for almost a year. Already the first few

festival days I felt like coming home for me.

When the tantra started a few days later I got opened in a fantastic

way. I never thought it was humanly possible to experience what I

experienced. Wahe Guru! The energy started moving up in me in the

morning all the way to my neck. Finding its way around my rib case

from the back to the front like two like two big healing,

electrifying hands. Then further up to the back of my head and from

there to the front of my head. All the end parts of my body like

feet, hands, lips, nose were very tingling. This was followed by 3

hours of Sat Kriya in the afternoon which energised me so much that

I could not sleep in the night.

After that unbelievable first day I remembered that I had myself

booked for Seva (in this case helping the camp organisation) at the

todler camp during the full second day. At registration they told me

I could use a day of ´rest´ doing Seva, on the second tantra

day,

being a first time participator.... Instead of feeling bad about

missing the second day, I stated my wish to the universe at the

Gurdwara service the next morning, to receive the best possible out

of the day. Strangely enough, I think this was the first time in my

life I could approach a possible *not getting what I want* in such a

way. It felt like I was gently guided and could feel what was right

to think, say and do.

When I arrived at the todler camp they said I was only needed for

the morning part of the day, so I could go to the tantra in the

afternoon. This gave me a BIG inner smile. This day the tantra was

working on the heart and I could feel the whole camp glowing,

radiating peace and love, even when I worked with the little ones in

the camp that morning. When I arrived at the big top later that day

for the white tantra, the monitors guided me to a partner for the

afternoon. Looking deeply in eachothers eyes we could make soul

contact contact and in 15 minutes our energies started to melt into

one new body. I felt fountains of energy coming up and just by

projecting them on my partner I could transfer the flow to her. We

had it going around in circles and were connected like I never felt

before. Male and female aspects disappeared and we experienced

god/goddess in eachother and we became ONE. We had a complete

fearless and angerless junction. We where completely overwhelmed by

this but enjoyed the tremendous beauty of it. I was allowed to feel

what it is like to love completely and endlessly from the heart

instead of to need from the lower chakras. A beautiful gift, a

wonderful opening.

The third and last tantra day lifted this feeling of one-ness to a

broader perspective for me. During the lunchbreak it felt like we

had created heaven on earth and the camp had transformed to a city

of angels. Words cannot describe this but it seemed that the faces

of the people had changed. Everybody looked very healthy and all the

eyes had become very intensive in color and were bright, radiating.

 

Being a part time single daddy of 3 small kids makes it challenging

to keep up this perfect state of being. But now, almost two weeks

later, it is still there. Not as intensive as at the festival, but

it is there, like a continuous heartbeat in the background. And

every day it pushes out and peels off a layer from my old ego

patterns. It is working, alive in me. Like a program that was

installed very deeply inside of me and it started to run its

cleaning routines. I started doing Sadhana in the mornings, did not

smoke or drink since the beginning of the festival and have

wonderful experiences each and every day. Like when I visited a

horse farm some days later. I was standing face to face with a horse

that was known as unpredictable and wild. Suddenly I had the same

kind of junction with the horse that I had during the tantra. We

were one for a second and both me and the horse were shocked, but

not afraid. After that I could approach the horse without problems.

 

Every day I tell myself not to doubt and just surrender to what

happens, eventhough sometimes it seems strange and completely

different from what my life used to look like.

Last weeks convinced me that Kundalini has become my friend and

companion for life and I registered for a level 1 teacher training.

I want to consolidate, integrate, share and expand this most amazing

´consciousness´. I have been reading your postings on this list

for

half a year now. Thank you all for your share in bringing me where I

am.

 

Namasté,

 

Rama Singh

The Netherlands