RAMADASA

[Guest guest]

Dear Friends,

 

Yesterday I got my 'Circle of Life' of 'Gurudass' from a wonderfull

person from this group, together with many gifts for me and my

children. It was like Christmas day, me and my kids, we felt so

special.

And for the first time today I listened to the RAMADASA mantra. I

didnt expect such a thunderbolt effect. I cannot describe the

power of it. It felt like coming home, like a mother opening her

arms and saying "it is oke now, let it go", like I was literally in a

sphere of love, surrounded by it, embraced by it so very special.

Tears. Like a waterfall and it looked like I could not stop.

Whenever I hear it I still start crying and all the pain is pouring

out. I realize only now how much pain I had but I cannot say what

caused all that pain, there are no images or thoughts, just the

feeling that all the pain is coming out, like some obstacles are

being washed away. Together with this there is another feeling,

anger, and lots of it. It comes and goes, but it is extremely

difficult to keep it under control, I have to do my utmost best to

stay patient with the kids. I feel attacked by everything they say

and I could hardly keep myself from shouting at other people

today, everybody seemed to make me so angry. I do have anger

issues, worsened by PMS, but never this extreme. I assume it is

all part of the healing, I remember having a simular experience

when I was attuned to Reiki 2, but again, not this extreme. It is

real Anger with a capital and it feels like hate sometimes, hatred

at anything, nothing special in particular. I will be happy when the

kids will be asleep tonight so I will be able to deeply concentrate

on what is exactly going on inside of me as it is quite confusing.

 

My 5 year old son Emre also loved the song, he was humming

along while playing. When he went outside to play he said: I liked

that song and I will hide it for when I am sad, when nobody

wants to play with me. I will hide it in my tummy this song. (And

a couple of hours later I hear him humming the melody so it also

made quite an impression on him).

He just asked me to play the song again and both he and his

brother of three started some weird dance, a mix between an

indian tribaldance and streetdance. As they calm down they are

both humming, the little one making up his own text, and I simply

melt....

 

Thanks again every one on this list for writing all those inspiring

words, they help me and assist me on the road that I am

travelling.

 

Blessings,

Sija, Istanbul

[Guest guest]

Dear Sija

 

Regarding PMS or PMT. In my experience as a brief therapist, this is caused

by unresolved anger, not the problem in itself, any work you can do to release

that anger will help the other symptoms to subside.

 

Something which can help us to accept ourselves better is this affirmation "

I forgive myself for being human and not perfect." However, make sure you

hear it with your body, not just saying it with your head and throat. I prefer

to make affirmations down at the diaphragm level, often bringing in lower tones

than I would normally use. Most people would benefit from working with this

concept. It is also useful to explore assertiveness strategies - all of this

apart from regular KY which will ultimately digs out the anger at the lower

abdominal level.

 

 

with love

Vanessa