Guest guest Posted November 20, 2004 Report Share Posted November 20, 2004 Hello to all, Sat nam. I have been unable to re-start my Amrit Vela Sadhana, basically due to physical,and yes, some emotional exhaustion,as well. The physical strain of housekeep, laundry,ironing,shopping,cooking,dishes,and the million jobs in-between being a Mother of beautiful 5year-old twin boys, and a wife, is sometimes too much. I AM feeling quite low, as I must be doing something wrong. I feel as if I do not receive enough PRANAYAMA, and I research the computer until my eyes are square! I feel I AM going nowhere, when I SO DESIRE THIS UNION!!! I meditate whenever I can, and meditate TO the SUN, also, which helps. My Adi Mantra is very strong now; I believe people could hear it a block away!! Doesn't anyone have ANYTHING to say??? Blessings to All, Love to All, Peace to All, LIGHT to ALL, Nirmal Kaur Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 20, 2004 Report Share Posted November 20, 2004 Sat Nam Nirmal Kaur You are doing nothing wrong. Your body and mind are needing quiet and rest. Sometimes you just do what you can in your practice and some days you do more. And if there is anything I've learned on this journey, is that when you think nothing is happening everything is happening. Meaning all your hard work is working behind the scenes. Your job is to believe it, accept it, and let the change take place. Just keep up. Things will begin to move at the right time for you. Be thankful and be patient because you are here at this point. All of our journeys are different. The beautiful thing is that when you find your truth no matter how hard the road may be you know you'll never turn back and your strength to continue comes from this. Right now your physical energies are being drawn from you with twins and husband to take care of. It also draws from your spiritual and mental energies. Address them all. Not just your physical body. Peace and Light to you, We're all here with you. Santokh Kaur Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 20, 2004 Report Share Posted November 20, 2004 Remember, you are already perfect. You are Nirmal, meaning Without Dirt! Read from the Guru (Siri Guru Granth Sahib) or learn Japji. We run this way and that in search but you are already home. When you tell us that you have some emotional exhaustion, all I can think of is to be steady and be simple. REALLY RELAX. Stop the E-Motion (Ego-Motion). A great spiritual teacher is an "emergency brake" for us when this is what's going on. In the absence of a master you will have to provide this for yourself (so there may be some heavy lifting involved). To have a specific focus for your practice is one way to avoid "over-giving". Where do you see yourself being two months from now? Have a clear picture, a container for your energy. You might need help coming to what that picture needs to be. It will be a picture that challenges whatever duality you might be operating within and that is not supposed to be easy. But Duality is the opposite of Divinity. Yoga, the opposite of Alienation. Once you have that picture is fixed in your mind and heart, be like Shiva (the lord of Dance) in his stillness. When you catch yourself being in Duality cut it! I am thinking of Kali in her Fierceness with that necklace of skulls (woo hoo, I'd hate to meet her in a dark alley! Actually, I probably wouldn't want to go into a dark alley without her.) At any rate, those twins of yours will dig you. Peace, Dharam Singh P.S. I had a thought. Get a hold of any of "Khalsa Women's Training Camp" manuals from the eighties. Very rich food for the women. Georgia Victoria Weinkauf wrote: > > > Hello to all, > > Sat nam. I have been unable to re-start my Amrit Vela Sadhana, > basically due to physical,and yes, some emotional exhaustion,as well. > The physical strain of housekeep, > laundry,ironing,shopping,cooking,dishes,and the million jobs > in-between being a Mother of beautiful 5year-old twin boys, and a > wife, is sometimes too much. > > I AM feeling quite low, as I must be doing something wrong. I feel as > if I do not receive enough PRANAYAMA, and I research the computer > until my eyes are square! I feel I AM going nowhere, when I SO DESIRE > THIS UNION!!! I meditate whenever I can, and meditate TO the SUN, > also, which helps. My Adi Mantra is very strong now; I believe people > could hear it a block away!! > > Doesn't anyone have ANYTHING to say??? > > Blessings to All, > Love to All, > Peace to All, > LIGHT to ALL, > Nirmal Kaur > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 20, 2004 Report Share Posted November 20, 2004 Sat nam.This emotional exhaustion comes from a life-time of complete and utter inability to communicate with my family in the States, save my Mother, and not even her, at the end of her life. My Father is a verbal/emotional abuser; has no idea of the effect, trauma, that his words have impacted so detrimentally on other people's lives, especially those he "loves." This has all climaxed this week, in a letter I wrote to my remaining family since my Mother's death in April. Thank God for Kundalini yoga! To make it breif: I wrote them a letter a few weeks ago asking forgiveness for all pain,etc., WHICH was followed by 2 of the most painful attacks on me, you would not believe it--my Father, and my sister practically blaming me for my Mother's death, and destruction of the family!!! But, through Spiritual wisdom gained through practice of Kundalini yoga and learning about Kundalini yoga through Yogi Bhajan, and his teachings, I AM able NOW to handle this in an entirely NEW LIGHT!!! Instead of going on and and on and on, I simply stated facts, and sent Great Love, and prayed that their hearts could begin to heal,Blessings Peace and Light their way. All that I have learned in my EXPERIENCE of this BEAUTIFUL KUNDALINI yoga and YOGI BHAJAN, I SENT THEIR WAY!!! So!!! I'm a little exhausted, o.k.!?! I assume they received the letter sometime this last week. I have been reading from the Siri Guru Granth Sahib, and will look into Japji. "Where do I see myself being two months from now?" Very clearly. Enlightened. Serving others, as a Healer. Living in Divine Grace, to uplift Humanity, and the EARTH. You asked me publically, Dharam, so I AM answering publically!!! I live in transparancy, with no secrets!!! Blessings to All, Love to All Peace to All, LIGHT TO ALL, Nirmal Kaur In Kundaliniyoga, D H A R A M <pran-_yogi@s...> wrote: > Remember, you are already perfect. You are Nirmal, meaning Without Dirt! > Read from the Guru (Siri Guru Granth Sahib) or learn Japji. We run this > way and that in search but you are already home. When you tell us that > you have some emotional exhaustion, all I can think of is to be steady > and be simple. REALLY RELAX. Stop the E-Motion (Ego-Motion). A great > spiritual teacher is an "emergency brake" for us when this is what's > going on. In the absence of a master you will have to provide this for > yourself (so there may be some heavy lifting involved). To have a > specific focus for your practice is one way to avoid "over-giving". > Where do you see yourself being two months from now? Have a clear > picture, a container for your energy. You might need help coming to > what that picture needs to be. It will be a picture that challenges > whatever duality you might be operating within and that is not supposed > to be easy. But Duality is the opposite of Divinity. Yoga, the opposite > of Alienation. > Once you have that picture is fixed in your mind and heart, be like > Shiva (the lord of Dance) in his stillness. When you catch yourself > being in Duality cut it! I am thinking of Kali in her Fierceness with > that necklace of skulls (woo hoo, I'd hate to meet her in a dark alley! > Actually, I probably wouldn't want to go into a dark alley without her.) > At any rate, those twins of yours will dig you. > Peace, > Dharam Singh > P.S. I had a thought. Get a hold of any of "Khalsa Women's Training > Camp" manuals from the eighties. Very rich food for the women. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 20, 2004 Report Share Posted November 20, 2004 Dear Nirmal Kaur, > Sat nam. I have been unable to re-start my Amrit Vela Sadhana, > basically due to physical,and yes, some emotional exhaustion, as well. Our bodies need sleep too. Do some personal sadhana before you start every day. It does not have to be in the Amrit Vela, although we all strive for that luxury. But we do have to do something before we start the day to connect. No matter what amount of time do something. How about tune in, spinal flexes and 11 minute meditation, and 5 minutes silent? Could you do that everyday? You seem to alternate between manic and low. You need to balance out. Set a do-able minimum and be grateful for that. Sat Nam, Gururattan Kaur Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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