Guest guest Posted December 20, 2004 Report Share Posted December 20, 2004 I noticed someone had mentioned low Ki recently and I feel that I too have that problem but I'm not sure if its just depression. I went from going to weekly yoga and tai chi classes, sadhana 2-3 times a week and reading alot about KY and of course reading the notes from this wonderful group. Over the past 3 weeks I feel as though I do not have the motivation for meditating. I dropped my evening classes (due to time/family pressures) I've put on 10 lbs (in my belly) and the thought of going to sadhana makes me tired and intimidated since I feel less flexible than ever. I know this is a vicious cycle. I work, have 4 kids, a husband thatis not too supportive of my yoga time and I have been taking a difficult college class that has required most of my free time and I tell myself that when it ends I'll be fine(it ends this week) but I'm not sure if its depression. Another piece to this puzzle is that I took a seminar in enlightenment about a month ago and I feel that this situation has been worse since. I almost feel as though I am rebelling against KY although I Know its been so helpful in the past. Thanks for any suggestions for getting out of this cycle and if anyone has been in similar situations. Another note I have been doing KY for a little over 2 years. Harnam Kaur Massachusetts Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 21, 2004 Report Share Posted December 21, 2004 Dear Harnam Kaur, Not sure if I can help with anything, but to say that I am going thru the exact same thing right now. I just try telling myself its a process just like everything else up to this point. Of course that doesn't help when you have a husband thats rolls his eyes at you, and you know hes saying to himself (shes nuts). My biggest problem is I have a very hard time expressing myself with words. I don't feel that I am depressed, but I'm having alot of self doubt right now, I think my skeptical mind won't let me believe what I know now. But I will continue to work on it everyday with or without the support of my husband. I have found however(on my own) that I have been taking things much too seriously, so I will lighten up on myself and lets things happen as they may. Wishing you a very peaceful Holiday Season. Cindy Massachusetts(Holliston) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 21, 2004 Report Share Posted December 21, 2004 Dear Harnum Kaur, I would like to share with you my experience and some suggestions which may help. Sometimes I also have a problem with motivation. In my case I call it the Sabateur. My mind tells me I feel too bad to do yoga, or I feel too good, it has many creative reasons! What I'm doing now is - I prepare my yoga place the night before - everything laid out, all I have to do is dress. I have made an agreement with myself - if I want to think about 'not doing yoga' fine, I can, after I do it. Then I can spend the rest of the day thinking of reasons to not do yoga. But first I do yoga. In your case perhaps pick out a couple of postures, which do not seem too difficult, since you feel 'not flexible'. Something that will bring immediate results, like breath of fire. Find some inspiring words and keep them around. My opinion is that discipline is key. That when we overcome that resistance that is the victory. That when you overcome it and even if you only do 5 minutes of yoga or meditation, you are victorious, and please savor that victory. Lastly, that you are posting to this list is good. You will receive much inspiration I am sure. Good luck, keep reading, keep posting. Don't be hard on yourself. You are on the path. Many of us get waylaid along the way. Just come back. We are here for you. Sat nam, Kartar Kaur Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 21, 2004 Report Share Posted December 21, 2004 Thank you for the encouraging words. Its so nice (in a selfish way) to hear that I am not the only person who does this. Its like I know that KY is probably the thing I need most and yet I sabotage myself by thinking of reasons not to do it. Thanks again. This group is so powerful. Sat Nam. Harnam Kaur (Joanne) from Massachusetts. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 21, 2004 Report Share Posted December 21, 2004 Sat Nam! There are many reasons to have these feelings. But as far as the immediate time is concerned, remember today is winter solstice up north here. Today I could have gladly stayed in deep meditation all day. It was so sweet to sit with myself and just be. I certainly didn't feel active and to have had to force myself would not been wise. I just didn't have any energy, but that was ok. We need to respect the changing energies and their effects on our body. It is a time to get in touch with our deep longing for the Divine. In the emptiness is the force that propells us to reach out for that which is already in us. Yes, it is not depression, it is the deep longing that is trying to get our attention. Blessings, Gururattan Kaur Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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