Trusting people

[Guest guest]

sat nam everybody

i have been practicing ky off and on for a few weeks now trying to

overcome my anxiety and depression and sometimes i feel improvement

sometimes not but lately i have been strongly feeling ungrounded and

a feeling of deadness inside which scares me to death and leads to a

feeling of paranoid and unability to talk to poeple in addittion to

not feeling a sense of self .

i appreciate if anybody can help me with kriya or meditation for self

love and for trusting people since i strongly feel disconnected from

life by my fear.

thank you very much all and god bless

sincerely

ahmad

[Guest guest]

Sat Nam Ahmad,

 

You were saying that the fear that you are experiencing is dis-connecting you

from your life...that you experience anxiety and depression at times and also

struggle with trust and self love...Ky has helped you somewhat, but not lately

and you were asking for some help around particular kriya's or meditations.

 

I would probably suggest Kirtan Kriya...but the purpose of my reply is actually

in regards to something else related to what you have described.

 

It's important to realize, especially for beginners and those who begin a more

constant practice of KY, is that it brings all of your limitations up to the

surface to be healed. "Limitations" code word for "crap and craziness".

 

So something that may seem to help in the beginning...in time actually seems not

to help or to make the situation worse even! But actually, this is a sign that

it is working...the crap is rising to the surface into your awareness to be let

go of and to be healed. It has to come fully into your awareness and you have

to observe the ins and outs of it and where it stems from before it can fully be

let go of and healed.

 

At this point we can get freaked out about it and hold onto it by wishing it

wasn't so, wishing our experience was differen than what it is and wrapping a

whole bunch of thought around it and not let it go....or we can begin to engage

the inner witness and observer....and simply notice our experience without

judging it good, bad or ugly and allow the crap to rise and let it be disapated

and transformed back into a more useful form of energy that supports our

well-being.

 

In my experience, sometimes "crap" rises for a very. very, very looooong time!

and you feel like you aren't making any headway and you wonder if you'll ever

feel whole again....and then BOOM....you suddenly make a quantum leap and you

are now in a new place consciousness-wise...and you are left wondering what all

the worry had been about?

 

My point is that we don't have to be afraid of where we are at in any given

moment in any given experience....if our intention is to heal and we have a

strong practice....then we can rest assured that we are in the process of

healing and whatever is presently going down, is part of that process.

 

Our job is too move through it as consciously as possible....make the wisest

choices that we can in a moment...and to open a space of allowing without

judgement....so we allow space in which transformation can occur.

 

All Light,

Sat Sangeet kaur

Calgary, Canada

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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