today's consciousness tomorrow's subconscious

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This is post regarding today's conscious thought becoming tomorrow's

subconscious is interesting. Of course, makes perfect sense but I'd never

thought about it much. And it is timely, for me, it seems.It struck me

particularly with where I am in my practice.

I just started yoga this year, when I discovered KY. I developed a rapid

love for KY. It just really fit with me. This might sound odd, but it was

kind of an infatuation with the practice. The feelings, the spaciousness I

felt. Just being with myself. Not exactly knowing how to say it it felt

nearly magical, but not in a sense of ohhh awe, but a very grounded type

feeling. Ok, I was going to say kind of high too. Grounded but high?!

Anyway... I've noticed the last couple of weeks in all my yoga practice the

feeling has just evaporated. I don't feel magic, I don't really feel

anything. Of course sometimes I feel aches and pains, and still chase the

days list of things to do out of my mind. I feel compelled and drawn to the

practice. It feels expansive, somehow but not so much "wow".

It's also interesting reading about awakening, because I still don't know

really what this means Reading some people knew they were "awakened" as

children.

I do sometimes feel a kind of buzz in my fingertips during practice. It's

kind of cool, but then what happens, I think, that feels cool and then I'm

"thinking" about feeling instead of just feeling.

Anyway, I'm rambling, just because the earlier post about subconscious

struck a chord. Maybe some of my practice is becoming more subconscious?

It's like I'm losing some of the honeymoon type of relationship with the

practice. Anyone remember ever feeling like this? Ann