Looking for a starting point

[Guest guest]

Hello all,

 

I am new to the group. Please forgive the length of this letter and please let

me explain how I arrived here and why I'm here now.

 

I grew up knowing of an "energy" inside of us that was connected to and/or a

part of God. I understood that we were all made of that "energy" ... As a child

I knew that I could go to that "energy" and feel Love/Peace. As I grew I knew

that I could "tap into" that "energy" when ever I needed and I knew I could get

"messages" from that place. I used it make decisions in my life or to find

direction when I was confused. Additionally, my dreams were always Big and

important to me and I always felt there was "meaning" behind them. It's just

something that I've always known/done.. it was never anything "different" or

"amazing" to me and because it was not something I was ever taught I was never

fully aware of what it was.. I just thought that that was how everyone "talked

to God" when they needed to.

 

As I grew the only thing I studied was some dreamwork (as a hobby) but in the

process I met a coworker with whom I discussed some of these dreams. He gave me

a book years ago on Transendental Meditation. The book only explained that TM is

a form of meditation and you need an experienced teacher to teach it. It did not

give me any 'earth shaking'information So I did nothing with it.

 

For the past three years I have been emailing with this friend (who is now

overseas) and we have always discussed "My Energy Theory"... things I just

"know" that have always "made sense" to me.. of why the world is the way it is

and why humans do the things we do... and how God fits into it all. He always

questioned me and gave me "homework assignments" or things to "ponder"... and I

always just answered by following "my energy"...

 

Finally at Christmas he said to me that it has been amazing to watch me "grow

up" over the internet and that if he were here my Christmas gift would be that

he would teach me of Kundalini Yoga. I told him that if that were the case then

my gift to him is to learn all about it.

 

Well.. as romantic as that sounds.. it's so much more than that!!

 

As I've been reading for the past 3 weeks or so I can not believe what I am

learning!! To me this is "my energy theory" written out by someone else...

please know that I have no prior education on any of this but it all "fits"

perfectly into what I already know and experience..and then it fills in pieces

of a puzzle that I didn't even know were missing!!!!..

 

I realize now that this is not MY theory at all.. and I feel kind of silly

explaining it to you all in that way.. but I hope you will understand my point.

 

So my question to the group is this:

 

Where can I BEGIN my learning? I mean.. I must completely start from scratch.

 

I don't fully understand what "chakras" are and I don't really know what

"meditation" is... I'm not sure if that's what I've "been" doing when I "talk to

God" ... and I don't understand what all the mantras are and why they are

important...(Please.. Please.. Please forgive my ignorance.)

 

Everything I read seems to be for people who already know 'how to meditate' or

what a "chakra" and a "mantra" is and which one to use when... for instance:

 

Lesson 2 Exercise 1 of the lists lessons states:

EXERCISE ONE

Everyday be silent and practice listening within. Do this for a few minutes

before and after your KY and meditation practice.

 

What is my KY mediation practice??? is that what I term as "talking to God" or

is that what it states above that paragraph as chanting the "mantras"? and then

which mantras do I need to chant? Neither Lessons 1 nor 2 tell me what I'm

supposed to chant or how I'm supposed to meditate. I think I need "Kundalini for

Dummies" or something. :-)

 

I am very anxious to learn all I can... I feel like this is what I'm "supposed"

to be doing... so if anyone has any recommendations or information please please

forward it to me.

 

Also if anyone knows of a reputable "teacher" (I'm not sure that that is the

correct term) in the NJ, NY or PA area please forward that as well. I really

would like to take "classes" or to study this more in a structured way where I

can ask questions and talk to someone as I go.

 

Thank you in advance for any and all help you might offer.

D

[Guest guest]

D,

Hi..I don't really have the answers your looking for.

I am sure there will be wonderful responses coming

your way. There are so many knowledgeable and kind

people here.

I just wanted to say I really enjoyed what you wrote.

It was beautiful!

I wish you luck and do understand how you feel about this

being the right path. It felt that way to me also.

When I found it last year..it was like what I knew it along without a

name or direction exactly.

I look forward to reading the information you receive.

I truly am excited for you.

Blessings,

Harriet

 

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[Guest guest]

thank you for your response lillyleaf,

 

and to the post an apology, I think I sent my post twice from two different

accounts, I didnt think the first went thru.

 

I'm hoping to get a few recommendation on beginners books and most of all a

name or place in NJ to go to physically.

 

IF anyone has recommendations. Please help.

 

Thanks

D

 

PS.. I'm saving everyone's posts for when I get to a point that I can

understand them :-)