Guest guest Posted January 15, 2001 Report Share Posted January 15, 2001 Oh, that’s a great story, Jyotsi. Part of what makes your stories so fun is that you are so candid about your state of mind at the time of your interactions with Amma. Ellen Lamb [jyotsna2] Monday, January 15, 2001 12:34 PM Ammachi Re: Re: Digest Number 132 Since I often keep my experiences to myself, I will respond to Amalia's call for a story relating how personal Amma's love is. In 1996 I was a new devotee on the tour and we were having our first program in Boston after the Devi Bhava in New York had lasted until 2 or 3 a.m. They made an announcement that only those devotees who were not in New York should get darshan. This was perfectly reasonable, but as I said, I was new, and somehow I felt very sad that I would not be getting darshan. (Mother had mostly ignored me for the tour, and perhaps that had something to do with my feelings.) I was sitting in the back of the hall and inwardly reflecting that Mother was just like the sea. If you go into the sea you get wet, and if you go to Amma you get a blessing, but just like the sea, Amma does not care whether you "get wet" or not. I thought to myself that it would be all the same to Amma if I left the hall, walked down the street and never came back. She would not miss me any more than the sea would miss another bather. But I realized that the truth was that I ached to be near Her, and even though I felt very shy and timid in this group, I had no choice but to walk up to the front of the hall and try to sit as close to Her as possible. So I began the painful (for me) walk up to the front, inwardly embarrassed to the point where I was mentally telling Amma, "Don't look at me, don't look at me, DON'T LOOK AT ME!" (Can you imagine?) To my utter consternation, She (of course!) began pointing to me and speaking rapidly in Malayalam. One of Her helpers said, "Mother doesn't want you to be sad about not getting a darshan. You were in New York, weren't you?" Amazed at this attention (which now felt pretty nice!) I said yes, and to tell Amma "Thank you." Then I proceeded to watch the end of darshan. I was still surprised when suddenly I saw Dayamrita Swami motioning in my direction, and I had to point to myself and say "me?", before going up for that oh-so-special darshan. Humble pranams to our darling Mother Amma, who cares for all in a very special and personal way! At Her feet, Jyotsna --- adarl52357 wrote: > Amma has said that She reads a devotee's letter > the first time while s/he > is writing it and the second time when it is given > to Her. The one time I did > write Her a letter the answer came before I could > send it. This is true for > me also with asking questions verbally of Her. > Whenever I've had one it's > been answered without me actually asking. > Nonetheless the process I went > through focused my thoughts and my prayers. > Others actually send letters or e-mails and talk > to Amma. A friend has > recently been through a powerful healing process > that involved asking Mother > questions (one in June and one in November), and > having Her answer with Swami > Amritaswarupananda translating. > One need never be ashamed to reach out to Her. > Yes, She has millions of > devotees and She loves each one of us individually > as Her children. Does > anyone have a story of realizing how personal Amma's > love is? Bala, how about > the time She sent someone to get you in the back of > the hall:>) > In Amma's > Divine Love, Amalia > Get email at your own domain with Mail. http://personal.mail./ eGroups Sponsor Click Here! <http://rd./M=169066.1281467.2883016.2/D=egroupmail/S=1700075991:N/ A=560436/*http://cgi.timeinc.net/cgi-bin/magsubs/cc/subs/ecompanynowcc1?EFFO RTKEY=ECABC84> Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! Ammachi- Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 16, 2001 Report Share Posted January 16, 2001 om namah shivay, I always look at Amma as ocean ready to embrace all the currents, good and bad, but she is always same loving to everyone. I never felt Amma ever forgot me or anybody and as a matter of fact she misses everyone. Just last weekend, Dayamrita Swami was saying that one day she visited a center (i forgot the name) late in the day and she wanted to see each and every corner of the hall, etc. Later Mother explained even those things, etc. also want to meet Amma. While we are with Amma for some time or long time during darshan, we begin to start seeing the hidden corners of life but with Love and strength! Amma is always there, in us and around us. Always with Amma, Om Amriteshwariye Namah On Mon, 15 Jan 2001 15:42:02 -0800, Ammachi wrote: > Oh, that’s a great story, Jyotsi. Part of what makes your stories so fun is > that you are so candid about your state of mind at the time of your > interactions with Amma. > > > Ellen Lamb [jyotsna2] > Monday, January 15, 2001 12:34 PM > Ammachi > Re: Re: Digest Number 132 > > Since I often keep my experiences to myself, I will > respond to Amalia's call for a story relating how > personal Amma's love is. > > In 1996 I was a new devotee on the tour and we were > having our first program in Boston after the Devi > Bhava > in New York had lasted until 2 or 3 a.m. They made > an announcement that only those devotees who were not > in New York should get darshan. This was perfectly > reasonable, but as I said, I was new, and somehow > I felt very sad that I would not be getting darshan. > (Mother had mostly ignored me for the tour, and > perhaps that had something to do with my feelings.) > > I was sitting in the back of the hall and inwardly > reflecting that Mother was just like the sea. If you > go into the sea you get wet, and if you go to Amma > you get a blessing, but just like the sea, Amma does > not care whether you "get wet" or not. I thought to > myself that it would be all the same to Amma if I left > the hall, walked down the street and never came back. > She would not miss me any more than the sea would > miss another bather. > > But I realized that the truth was that I ached to be > near Her, and even though I felt very shy and timid > in this group, I had no choice but to walk up to > the front of the hall and try to sit as close to Her > as possible. So I began the painful (for me) walk up > to the front, inwardly embarrassed to the point where > I was mentally telling Amma, "Don't look at me, don't > look at me, DON'T LOOK AT ME!" (Can you imagine?) > > To my utter consternation, She (of course!) began > pointing to me and speaking rapidly in Malayalam. > One of Her helpers said, "Mother doesn't want you to > be sad about not getting a darshan. You were in New > York, weren't you?" Amazed at this attention (which > now felt pretty nice!) I said yes, and to tell Amma > "Thank you." Then I proceeded to watch the end of > darshan. I was still surprised when suddenly I saw > Dayamrita Swami motioning in my direction, and I had > to point to myself and say "me?", before going up for > that oh-so-special darshan. > > Humble pranams to our darling Mother Amma, who cares > for all in a very special and personal way! > > At Her feet, > Jyotsna > > --- adarl52357 wrote: > > Amma has said that She reads a devotee's letter > > the first time while s/he > > is writing it and the second time when it is given > > to Her. The one time I did > > write Her a letter the answer came before I could > > send it. This is true for > > me also with asking questions verbally of Her. > > Whenever I've had one it's > > been answered without me actually asking. > > Nonetheless the process I went > > through focused my thoughts and my prayers. > > Others actually send letters or e-mails and talk > > to Amma. A friend has > > recently been through a powerful healing process > > that involved asking Mother > > questions (one in June and one in November), and > > having Her answer with Swami > > Amritaswarupananda translating. > > One need never be ashamed to reach out to Her. > > Yes, She has millions of > > devotees and She loves each one of us individually > > as Her children. Does > > anyone have a story of realizing how personal Amma's > > love is? Bala, how about > > the time She sent someone to get you in the back of > > the hall:>) > > In Amma's > > Divine Love, Amalia > > > > > > > Get email at your own domain with Mail. > http://personal.mail./ > > > > eGroups Sponsor > Click Here! > <http://rd./M=169066.1281467.2883016.2/D=egroupmail/S=1700075991:N/ > A=560436/*http://cgi.timeinc.net/cgi-bin/magsubs/cc/subs/ecompanynowcc1?EFFO > RTKEY=ECABC84> > > Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! > > Ammachi- > > > > > > > > Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! > > Ammachi- > > > _____ Send a cool gift with your E-Card http://www.bluemountain.com/giftcenter/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 17, 2001 Report Share Posted January 17, 2001 OM NAMAH SHIVAYA, I totally felt the same as Dilip on many occasions. It seems that sometimes Amma acts as if She ignores me all the time and I would anxiously wait for my turn of darshan and only then I would feel the closeness between Amma and I. I guess I am too "human" to understand "Divine Actions". In another way I see myself as a selfish person too, always expecting Amma to pay attention to me all the time. I have to stop being selfish and console myself that Amma has millions of kids to love and care for. I should spare a thought for that| "Think, Speak, and Act like Amma" OM AMRITESWARIYAI NAMAH" Ruba (S'pore) >Dilip Raheja <dilip10 >Ammachi >Ammachi >Re: RE: story >Tue, 16 Jan 2001 13:44:16 -0800 (PST) > >om namah shivay, >I always look at Amma as ocean ready to embrace all the currents, good and >bad, but she is always same loving to everyone. I never felt Amma ever >forgot me or anybody and as a matter of fact she misses everyone. Just last >weekend, Dayamrita Swami was saying that one day she visited a center (i >forgot the name) late in the day and she wanted to see each and every >corner >of the hall, etc. Later Mother explained even those things, etc. also want >to meet Amma. > >While we are with Amma for some time or long time during darshan, we begin >to start seeing the hidden corners of life but with Love and strength! Amma >is always there, in us and around us. > >Always with Amma, >Om Amriteshwariye Namah > > >On Mon, 15 Jan 2001 15:42:02 -0800, Ammachi wrote: > > > Oh, that’s a great story, Jyotsi. Part of what makes your stories so >fun >is > > that you are so candid about your state of mind at the time of your > > interactions with Amma. > > > > > > Ellen Lamb [jyotsna2] > > Monday, January 15, 2001 12:34 PM > > Ammachi > > Re: Re: Digest Number 132 > > > > Since I often keep my experiences to myself, I will > > respond to Amalia's call for a story relating how > > personal Amma's love is. > > > > In 1996 I was a new devotee on the tour and we were > > having our first program in Boston after the Devi > > Bhava > > in New York had lasted until 2 or 3 a.m. They made > > an announcement that only those devotees who were not > > in New York should get darshan. This was perfectly > > reasonable, but as I said, I was new, and somehow > > I felt very sad that I would not be getting darshan. > > (Mother had mostly ignored me for the tour, and > > perhaps that had something to do with my feelings.) > > > > I was sitting in the back of the hall and inwardly > > reflecting that Mother was just like the sea. If you > > go into the sea you get wet, and if you go to Amma > > you get a blessing, but just like the sea, Amma does > > not care whether you "get wet" or not. I thought to > > myself that it would be all the same to Amma if I left > > the hall, walked down the street and never came back. > > She would not miss me any more than the sea would > > miss another bather. > > > > But I realized that the truth was that I ached to be > > near Her, and even though I felt very shy and timid > > in this group, I had no choice but to walk up to > > the front of the hall and try to sit as close to Her > > as possible. So I began the painful (for me) walk up > > to the front, inwardly embarrassed to the point where > > I was mentally telling Amma, "Don't look at me, don't > > look at me, DON'T LOOK AT ME!" (Can you imagine?) > > > > To my utter consternation, She (of course!) began > > pointing to me and speaking rapidly in Malayalam. > > One of Her helpers said, "Mother doesn't want you to > > be sad about not getting a darshan. You were in New > > York, weren't you?" Amazed at this attention (which > > now felt pretty nice!) I said yes, and to tell Amma > > "Thank you." Then I proceeded to watch the end of > > darshan. I was still surprised when suddenly I saw > > Dayamrita Swami motioning in my direction, and I had > > to point to myself and say "me?", before going up for > > that oh-so-special darshan. > > > > Humble pranams to our darling Mother Amma, who cares > > for all in a very special and personal way! > > > > At Her feet, > > Jyotsna > > > > --- adarl52357 wrote: > > > Amma has said that She reads a devotee's letter > > > the first time while s/he > > > is writing it and the second time when it is given > > > to Her. The one time I did > > > write Her a letter the answer came before I could > > > send it. This is true for > > > me also with asking questions verbally of Her. > > > Whenever I've had one it's > > > been answered without me actually asking. > > > Nonetheless the process I went > > > through focused my thoughts and my prayers. > > > Others actually send letters or e-mails and talk > > > to Amma. A friend has > > > recently been through a powerful healing process > > > that involved asking Mother > > > questions (one in June and one in November), and > > > having Her answer with Swami > > > Amritaswarupananda translating. > > > One need never be ashamed to reach out to Her. > > > Yes, She has millions of > > > devotees and She loves each one of us individually > > > as Her children. Does > > > anyone have a story of realizing how personal Amma's > > > love is? Bala, how about > > > the time She sent someone to get you in the back of > > > the hall:>) > > > In Amma's > > > Divine Love, Amalia > > > > > > > > > > > > > Get email at your own domain with Mail. > > http://personal.mail./ > > > > > > > > eGroups Sponsor > > Click Here! > > ><http://rd./M=169066.1281467.2883016.2/D=egroupmail/S=1700075991:N/ > > >A=560436/*http://cgi.timeinc.net/cgi-bin/magsubs/cc/subs/ecompanynowcc1?EFFO > > RTKEY=ECABC84> > > > > Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! > > > > Ammachi- > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! > > > > Ammachi- > > > > > > > > > > > >_____ >Send a cool gift with your E-Card >http://www.bluemountain.com/giftcenter/ > > _______________________ Get Your Private, Free E-mail from MSN Hotmail at http://www.hotmail.com. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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