Guest guest Posted March 2, 2001 Report Share Posted March 2, 2001 Dear Dilip, Thank you for sending this beautiful note. I am suffering energetic persecution at work, having dreams of demons and working on learning the Arati so I can sing it in my sleep and invoke protection from Mother. Under unfounded accusation and spiritual oppression it is hard to smile but Amma's picture is smiling on my desk and that makes it easier. The karma would undoubtedly be worse if not for Her..... I was interested in the Tribal Chief saying they shouldn't drink any more. I found that caffeine made me more vulnerable and recently gave it up totally, not even green tea now, and no chai, either (sob). Anybody else have Vasana coming up intensely these days? In exile and dreaming of Infinite Bliss made visible in a little temple I will build for Mother with my own hands in the spring, at the edge of my eight trees which I call Mother's National Forest, Nancy Coos Bay Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 2, 2001 Report Share Posted March 2, 2001 Ammachi, RemoteVwr@a... wrote: > Dear Dilip, > > Thank you for sending this beautiful note. I am suffering energetic > persecution at work, having dreams of demons and working on learning the > Arati so I can sing it in my sleep and invoke protection from Mother. Under > unfounded accusation and spiritual oppression it is hard to smile but Amma's > picture is smiling on my desk and that makes it easier. The karma would > undoubtedly be worse if not for Her..... > > Anybody else have Vasana > coming up intensely these days? > > In exile and dreaming of Infinite Bliss Om Amrtesvaryai Namah!! Namaste dear sister Nancy!! are vasanas coming up??????????what a question....a better one might when don't they come up...it would be a lot easier to answer...NEVER. Mother is just pushing all those buttons as the Guru...She is testing, and trying, and testing, and working on Her little ones, just like the Blacksmith heats up the iron and then pounds on it to make something beautiful or useful....if you ask the iron how it feels, get ready for a complaint session...but since it doesn't really know what's going on in the big picture, we'd probly do better to ask the smith....we're the iron...and it's pretty hot in this here furnace....and when we're taken out of the furnace....OUCH that hurts...that Hammer...Didyou have to hit me so HARD!>? Ouch...and so on...until finally the smith, satisfied with his brand new work....dips it into the water "SSSSSSS!!"...We're not quite ready for the "SSSSSS!" yet, so we must be prepared for some more heat and hammering.... the perfect hammer comes from work...and the perfect anvil is your desk....get ready...that hammer is coming.....how do i know this... Mother is doing the same with me at my job....making it VERY uncomfortable, rearranging things, making little readjustments, cutting here, cutting there....leaving this little child of hers with more DAYS at work, but less HOURS/week for the extra days...and thus some $300 less in a month....Yep...it pinches...Yep it's hot...and then there's the everpresent threat of "discipline"....as management dictatorial puts into place their own version of reality, without consulting either clients or staff....oh yes i've been feeling very much persecuted at my work too....but i'm trying to see it as Amma's training...."So you don't want to go to the ashram for training eh, son?....well i guess i'll just have to bring the ashram to you" ......and thus the training goes on...very intense...tough on the ego...but that is the way Mother is..... "She is like a refiner's fire" a little paraphrase from the Messiah by Handel..... Mother's job is not to make us MORE comfortable with our delusions and vasanas, but rather to pointedly bring them up in unforgettable ways, such that we have the opportunity to work with Her in eliminating or at least reducing some of them.....and my understanding is that Mother is stepping up the heat....for me at least, and for many others...yourself included.... Amma may look cute and extraordinarily ordinary on the outside, but let us NOT forget WHO She REALLY is.....none other than that Great Goddess, Bhavatarini Kali Ma....the Divine COP (as Brahmachari Dayamrita called Her!!) She Who has taken birth just now to bring Her children home with Her, carrying them all across the vast ocean of delusions...Her methods may seem abrupt, or a little tough to handle, but what can we expect with dear Mother Kali as Guru???She Who is the FORCE of the Sakti....She Who does it NOW...doesn't put anything off til tomorrow.......so we shouldn't get too comfortable in that hotel room we call life, because the maid is about to come in and clean us out for the next guest...... i don't think we could say that the karma would be worse if not for Her...She is the one bringing you the fruits of those karmas...so that you may clear out your karmic bank account....drop that huge load you've been carrying for lives together....and merge with Her....i think that since we are Amma's children, and She is here with us, She regards it as the perfect opportunity to step up the intensity and speed of the teachings....and that is done thru our everyday experiences, each of which is really Guru Prasad...including the persecution....it is our REACTION which really matters....whatever will get that reaction, will continually come up as an opportunity to release that particular vasana, but everytime we indulge it, we are actually digging the groove of the vasana DEEPER....so if we continually avoid the lessons, they will get MORE expensive and MORE difficult as time goes on, cause we're so dull that we're just not getting the point....time for the sledge hammer!! Remember the story of St.Therese who lay dying slowly of tuberculosis drowning slowly, suffocating over a long time....She reportedly had this conversation with Christ over the matter..... StTh: Lord couldn't you just make it a little easier...couldn't you let me die sooner, or help the pain, or even heal me....i've been your friend for so long....couldn't you help me? JC: i treat all my friends like this! StTh: No wonder then, that you don't have so many friends!!! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ In Our Mother's Love, and in Her Service this littlest child bows again and again to his darling sisters and brothers, Who are All Verily Embodiments of Divine Love!! as ever, visvanathan Om Amrtesvaryai Namah!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 2, 2001 Report Share Posted March 2, 2001 I, too, am experiencing the result of "top down" management, micro management, and am feeling very uncomfortable at work. It seems to be a theme with my brothers and sisters right now. I vacillate between hoping for the Love inside myself to stay centered and peaceful and the desire for management to be replaced with people of understanding and acceptance. I was very excited about a new position opening up that would be the first ever effort to work together with the faith based community, but I am hearing that there are too many "old buffalos" in the agency and that they will be promoting younger people into these new management positions. So an apple dangles out there ahead of me, and I can't do anything but wait and prepare for interviews. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 3, 2001 Report Share Posted March 3, 2001 Greetings, brothers and sisters in Amma! It's been so validating to read all your work stories. Work has been very difficult for me, also. It seems to be the area in my life where all my "stuff" gets played out the most. Work seems so hard at this time.... sooooo many hours, and soooo much to do. Right now, I am surrounded by deceit, treachery and back-biting at work. So much of my day comes down to who to trust and who not to trust, when to speak and when to remain silent, what to do and what not to do. I feel like I need SO much protection around me, and I pray to Amma and to Divine Mother Durga daily to be with me and watch me closely. It seems at my job that quite a few people seek to make themselves look better by making others look bad. I pray daily to keep my feet on my path and to keep the path clear of "demons", that I may do the work that is mine to do unobstructed and recieve the rewards that are mine to receive. I even chant japa in the car the whole way there! I also wear my wrist mala with Amma pendant attached as a reminder to myself that I am not alone, that She is with me. As I walk or move, the gentle tapping of the pendant against my inner wrist soothes me, and says to me, "I am with you, I am with you". Thank You, Amma! I will pray for you all as well. May Mother protect, help and bless us all. Om Amriteswaryai Namah! Om Dum Durgayei Namah! Michael PS: Though I haven't written since my introductory post here, I want to thank you all so much for your thoughtful and loving replies to my questions. You all helped me more than you could imagine! I began composing a reply with the story of "my first time in Amma's presence" and I became lost in joyful tears of longing and remembrance. I still have the letter saved, and I will finish it soon and send it to you all. Namaste! Get email at your own domain with Mail. http://personal.mail./ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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