Dream Darshan

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(Please forgive me if this duplicates a previous e-mail. I'm having a hard

time knowing which addresses are current)

 

 

Last night Amma visited me in my dream and gave me a beautiful darshan. In

the dream I was attending a business conference, and when it was over I went

out into the lobby of the hotel where the conference was held, and There Was

Amma! It was a totally unplanned visit. She just had a few devotees with

Her, but of course, people were starting to gather around Her even though

they didn't know who She was. When Mother saw me come in, She reached out

for me and said how much She had wanted to see me. It was as if She had come

to that particular place for the sole purpose of seeing me. Then She took me

in Her arms for a long, long time. She cradled me and rocked me and talked

to me in the most loving terms. And I completely surrendered in Her arms and

returned to Her all of the love and affection She was showering upon me (much

more so than I've ever done in real life). But when She finished holding me,

She fell backward and was struggling in pain and agony. I felt so horrible

that I had taken so much out of Her in the darshan that it resulted in this

terrible pain and suffering for Her.

 

Then, just as suddenly, She sat back up and was perfectly fine. Then She got

up and left. And again I felt so bad that I was the only one to receive Her

darshan. None of the others who were gathered there got to have darshan.

 

After waking up and reflecting on the dream, it occurred to me that, in this

instance, Mother had taken onto Herself a huge amount of my painful karma. I

was overwhelmed with gratitude, realizing how selfless and how deep Her love

is for me (as it is for all Her darling children).

 

Just now, I'm looking at a photograph of Amma sitting at a table with plates

of food in front of Her. She has a beaming smile on Her face as She hands a

plate of food to a devotee. This picture reminds me of that time a couple of

years ago when Mother's body was so terribly ill. Her wrists were all

wrapped up in bandages, She wore a neck brace, and the devotees were

constantly applying and replacing hot wet cloths to Her back. And there She

sat, hour upon hour, day after day embracing Her children. At one point, the

pain was so bad that She got up right in the middle of darshan and walked out

of the temple. I don't remember how long She was gone, maybe for about half

an hour or less. This was so unprecedented! We were all terribly concerned

for Her. But She couldn't stay away from Her children for long, no matter

what the condition of Her body or how much pain She was in. She returned and

continued giving darshan for many more hours until everyone had been hugged.

 

The staff were asking everyone to limit the number of times they went for

darshan. So, we were all exercising restraint, no matter how deeply felt the

need for Mother's embrace. However, when Mother realized this was happening,

She said that we should not give up our darshan. That we should come and

receive darshan as usual.

 

Oh, how She loves us! How can we not be deeply and profoundly moved by the

example of Her selflessness! ---- Jai Jai Amma! Jai Jai Amma! A million

times: Jai Jai Amma!

 

Vaishnavi