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Dear Brothers and Sisters,

 

This is just a thank you for the personal stories you all share here. I

don't write much, but I read and savor your personal experiences.

Chandrika's account of lap seva was wonderful to read. And I laugh knowingly

with some of our ego lessons. Vallath's talk about Amma's attention really

hit my own chord. There are times when I've felt totally ignored and times I

have been showered with attention. A couple of years ago at San Ramon when

Amma seemed ill, I panicked that she might leave us and felt like a suckling

child being torn from the breast of her mother. Your sharing about what is

happening at the ashrams is really valuable to me. It helps me feel a part

of the family of Amma when otherwise I have no information.

 

I take a week of vacation and drive daily to San Ramon for morning darshan in

June and November and I attend the San Ramon retreats. When I am there, I

try to spend the time with Amma or doing seva. I want to meet and talk to

others, and I long to know my brothers and sisters, but in the end I have not

made good connections. Because I work from 8:30 a.m. to 9:30 p.m. during the

week at two jobs, weekday time to write is limited. On weekends, my 91 year

old mother needs my help and company. My only sibling died two years ago,

and we had moved my mother to Modesto to be near us and care for her, though

she lives in a retirement center. My three grown children and three

grandchildren who live in LA and Monterey all want me to visit them, and

complain they see too little of me. I am very fortunate to have work I love

and family who values me. But none of my family is interested in knowing

Amma. One of my children has met her. I've been going to Amma since 1991.

My second room is a meditation room I use daily. I was going to Saturday

night satsang at San Ramon a couple of times a month, but I got sleepy

driving home and stopped. Several people suggested I say the night, but I

have never done it. I have not been to India, because I cannot take enough

time from my work to go and stay. I will retire in three and a half years,

and my first goal is to spend three months in India. You all help me feel

closer to my spiritual family. Thank you.

 

Triveni