Om Namah Shivaye

[Guest guest]

Om Amriteshwariye Namah,

 

I have something very important to share with you all,

 

I used to be casual audience of Sathya Sai Baba groups but then in

recent years I came to realize how much I was taken by ride by local

Sai Centers of Bay area. So I stopped going there, because I didn't

want to be cheated of my spiritual and non-spiritual happiness by

those 'fake' devotees. But I had some of his pictures in the corners

(not visible) of my belongings and occasionally I used to run into

some of the followers of SSB, it caused me serious grief in my and my

family's lives. I didn't understand but then several encounter

revealed and confirmed my doubts of practises of these local groups.

For some time, in the presence of those devotees I would lose the

serenity or others around me would change their abruptly only to hurt

me in some way or other. In their presence, my health would

deteriorate very rapidly to the extent of lossing the breath. Early

this year 2001, I offered my prayers to Amma, Chinmaya Guruji,

Budhist temple, etc. in desperation. This went on long time and it

was a shock of my life.

 

I noticed that I would remember old and good memories as well as

friends but now there will be vibration of these SSB / followers only

to those good sweet moments into sour. On thursday while Sai satsang

is going on, I'm close to falling unconcious or events like people

dashing into my office (who had no knowledge of SSB, etc hindu) only

to create conflict, arguments, lose of job or there will be some

destruction in and around my life. Then I lost few contracts under

similar circumstances as well as job interviews, friends, etc..

During their satsang time or on thursday something or other would go

wrong around me. Everytime I would participate in any pooja /

spiritual practise, in the beginning I would enjoy the bliss but soon

I feel the bad vibrations (of same) to cause total destruction of

those blissful activities. It would be like just doing something

totally useless. I tried several times to visit few SSB centers in LA

or tried to look gracefully at SSB's picture but that would be just

invitation to the bad influences of those local thugs. That influece

would destroy my loving connection with Amma and Her several pictures

in my house (along with some other pictures I had for sometime).

Interestingly enough, some of the amma devotees who visit those

centers come quiet often to MA Center. At all the times I noticed

(even at MA Center) as soon as those people (from same Sai centers)

would see me I would lose my bliss and concentration I developed over

time. Those blissful moments are replaced by very negative

impressions on me, it took me several times to solve this puzzle.

Somehow vibration of SSB / followers cause serious destruction of my

spiritual actions and state of mind. They create serious block

between me and my other spitual / other associations.

 

Initially for few weeks I had no idea, I couldn't believe that SSB

or His Sanyasin (regular visitor of bay area) would be doing those

destructive things to me and my spiritual (and non-spiritual) life of

past and present. So I got rid of all of pictures of SSB and this

gave me shivers. Later on I realized that these are the actions of

His fake and selfish devotees of SSB who think they possess Him as

well as other religions. Apparantly they have been playing around

several other spiritual / religious places, misusing the kindness and

love shown by those places - they can advertise SSB group Hare Krsna

style at the airports, etc public places rather than manipulating the

innocents and their faiths. I know there are about 10 people from Bay

area who are seriously involved in those practises, they run centers

in Fremont, San Jose, San Mateo vicinity, etc.. These people have

harassed or manipulated other devotees including of Amma and they do

try desperately to not to allow me to mention Amma's name to anyone

at home or outside. They even tried to blame of their misdoings on

Amma's devotees.

 

I feel threat in my spiritual practises and I don't know to

handle this situation. I called the sanyasin of SSB (Who had done

pooja in my house 2-3 years ago) in Chinnai but initially she claimed

that she is follower of Shirdi Sai Baba only. I called her few times

and I knew that was lie (for good cause to protect me) but it has not

really helped me a lot - I would agree some of the local practises

have decreased.

 

Some of the people of these Sai centers visit, Chinmaya Mission

(San Jose) also or I should say they run the Chinmaya center. So now

there is threat to me that I should not goto Ammachi nor Chinmaya

mission. As I mentioned before, my several attemts to socialize or

attend Sai group (for sake of peace) have been disrupted in past so I

don't have any more desire to attend or be part of SSB group - though

I respect Him but His groups are not Satsang enough for me.

 

I don't see them at all but I know they are constantly active

around me but they live right around my house. We visit the same

indian shops, etc.. it's kind of difficult to avoid them or their

cult vibrations. Whoever enters my home or calls me for long enough

has been their target so I tried to sell this house last summer. They

have threatened me for my home, friends, job, spiritual practises,

etc..

 

If anyone needs their names I can send them individually but they

are bad influences - simply greedy possesive cowards. Their influeces

have many times kept me away from Amma satsangs, etc..

 

Does anyone have any suggestion, etc?

 

Thanks and at Amma's lotus feets,

 

Amma's child,

Ekanath

 

 

PS:

I know there are several followers of SSB on this site also [as I

said I have respect for Him and no problem with Him directly but the

pratices followed by some of His devotees] and they are aware of me,

they have discouraged me from visiting this site, why? Let me ask

you, why are you and your friends hurting me if I'm not follower of

SSB and why do I need to put His picture or pray Him if I don't want

to? Sure He is God to you and I respect Him just many many other

saints but I'm not as close to Him as I'm with other saints.