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On the first day, I got to the RI retreat site early and started doing dining

room/kitchen seva 3 hours before registration. I kept on going (I'm a hyper

karma yogi) until about dinner time. Then after dinner, I cleaned in the

dining room/kitched (missing the start of the first program, which is OK,

because I see the program every year). When I went to the program hall, I

looked on my registration form, and found that I was scheduled to do seva at

1:00am that evening, therefore I had an "early bird pass" for Darshan that

night. I really didn't mind the 1:00am seva - for me - I was just getting

into my triathlon groove! I was vacillating however, between whether or not

to use my "early bird pass" or wait to the end for Darshan (I prefer the end

really, I tell myself, if Ma can endure, you can endure; I'm 32, healthy, no

kids). I decided to use my lucky gift, and afterwards go seva myself into

euphoric oblivion with Amma's touch on my body. When I went up to the "early

bird" line (which was also the special needs line), some of these super lucky

jivas who were fronting the ordinary line, stared at me making angry faces

and shaking their heads, I heard a lady say "It's not fair." Could I have

been mistaken for an "In"?!?!?! I've been a line monitor as well other years

and can vouch that it was not an easy seva!

 

More on Amma's vasana pressure cooker: Last year in DC I was chosen for lap

seva. On top of being nervous, as they were "training" me, "Take the prasad

from your right, pass it to your left, to the left hand of your team mate who

puts it in Amma's hand" I became terrified - I'm dyslexic - I have trouble

reading, writing (this post is taking me hours to type) I don't even drive

because of this! I realize it's a huge blessing, yet I was SICK with nerves

so I thought "Oh Ma, no, please not this, I'm so nervous, I will bring the

flow to a halt!" Just then, Kali woman came up next to me and started angrily

complaining to my trainer "Why are these people going up? They are not in our

group (the DC Satsang) and we worked so hard for this!" I said please let her

go instead of me, and apologetically, the trainer excused me. Amma has us

right where She wants us and right where we need to be. Lap seva or no, Amma

is with you wherever you go.

 

In a message dated 8/3/02 3:23:17 PM EST, Ammachi writes:

 

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