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December 6, 2002

Dear Robin,

I have been a silent member of this net for a while

now -usually i am more talkative on the other amma

net- i pray that your problems end...

i think the 7.5 year period you mention is the Saade

Sathi/ezhara sani- there are pujas that can be done

-or the Thousand Names of the Divine Mother can be

chanted etc.. A vedic astrologer or the puja section

on Amma's web page should be able to help you with

that.

But more than anything else - i suggest WRITE AMMA

A LETTER - enclose your photo if you wish, and send it

to the ashram via someone going to India or just mail

it. AMMA reads every letter that comes there and AMMA

WILL RESPOND - NOT Physically but there will be a

subtle change the moment you even write the letter and

pour your heart out to Her .

If possible do go meet Amma and tell Her everything.

Dont worry that you dont know malayalam or that 'SHE

doesnt know English'. Amma knows your heart very well

and knows what you are going to tell HER BEFORE YOU

EVEN START SAYING THE WORDS.

Praying that Amma grant you peace,

bala

--- Robin Wilson <lilymoonjewel wrote:

>

> Namaste Everyone,

>

> Things have takin a turn for the worst for me I

> don't know if I have bad energy and need to do a

> clinsing or what...I do know however I have had bad

> luck for about four months now and its only getting

> worst...I am trying to keep my chin up about

> everything....and I thought that everthing was

> good....and going to get better....I don't know if I

> am being tested in my strength ...but I am

> weakening.....I have quit smoking for almost a week

> now.....I am now living in my home after four months

> of living with my parents.....My hasband and I are

> divorcing.....and Money is my biggest problem....and

> Just lastnight in the mail a letter tells me my

> license is suspended for thirty days.....I have to

> go to work Im the only one to provide for my

> children at this point.......I can't even buy ONE

> christmas present for my kids....which it really

> doesnt matter but at the same time its still in the

> back of my head.......I wasnt able to buy ONE

> birthday present for my older daughter who is six

> this past nov either....but she had a party and that

> was enough to make her happy......I am trying to be

> strong through all of this ...but I do need

> prayers......I remember that one of you had written

> to me about something that last for seven years and

> this is my turn to go through it but I don't

> remember what it was called........is there anything

> I can do about it?? Please help....... Robin

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December 7, 2002

Robin,

The 7.5 year Saturn period is when Saturn transits the

12th, 1st, and 2nd houses (to my understanding) according

to your sign. Considering I've gone through quite an amount

of hell without it being my Shani period, I don't think

that's what you're going through, although I am sure it's

karmic. This past year for me has been quite bad and

little has changed. Grace comes a little here and

there, not enough to save the day, I'm afraid, despite

much intense prayer and such, as much as I can muster.

I see it all as burning karma, and tests (opportunities)

for gaining Faith and Forebearance. Bad luck is my life.

IMHO, Bala's advice is not worth taking in this case

(no offense). It's just that I've heard too many people

give me that same advice and heard it given to others in

crisis (told by Swami's) to simply "go and see Amma in

person and tell her your problems". Going for darshan

when she's in town in one thing, but to seek the physical

form when in crisis enforces the belief that Amma is

just a woman. Everyone simply can't jump on a plane

everytime you need to see God (Sai Baba) like Issac

Tigret did/does. Chanting the 1000 names of Devi

also won't do much good in a crisis state if you're

just learning them, better to attend a group chanting

of them. I would also disagree that Amma reads every

letter (physically), from what ashramites have told me.

Find some sort of satsang (supportive/beneficial)

group or even a social group to attend regularly, not

for airing your problems but to take your mind off it

to relieve the stress. Many times karmic suffering is

mental suffering. As St. Therese told a fellow nun

that had a habit of pulling out her package-of-woes

too often, she told her to resist the temptation to talk

about her problems, because "Everyone has problems, so

if everyone starts talking about their problems, it

makes community-life depressing." Amma even says to

avoid telling your problems to others and confide them

soley to God. In true crises we all spill over the

brim once in a while, which is ok.

I also wouldn't spend money on pujas before talking

with an experienced astrologer to see if it'll really

affect anything. Over the past year, I've spent quite

alot on pujas with limited results. Find out what

planets are the worst afflicted currently and focus

your efforts on those through fasting on that day of

the week and chanting a mantra for the planet. Sometimes

pujas don't lessen your fate, but only change the route

you get there by.

May Amma bless you with what you need to get through these times,

tom

Ammachi, Robin Wilson <lilymoonjewel>

wrote:

>

> Namaste Everyone,

>

> Things have takin a turn for the worst for me I don't know if I

have bad energy and need to do a clinsing or what...I do know however

I have had bad luck for about four months now and its only getting

worst...I am trying to keep my chin up about everything....and I

thought that everthing was good....and going to get better....I don't

know if I am being tested in my strength ...but I am weakening.....I

have quit smoking for almost a week now.....I am now living in my home

after four months of living with my parents.....My hasband and I are

divorcing.....and Money is my biggest problem....and Just lastnight in

the mail a letter tells me my license is suspended for thirty

days.....I have to go to work Im the only one to provide for my

children at this point.......I can't even buy ONE christmas present

for my kids....which it really doesnt matter but at the same time its

still in the back of my head.......I wasnt able to buy ONE birthday

present for my older daughter who is six this past nov either....but

she had a party and that was enough to make her happy......I am trying

to be strong through all of this ...but I do need prayers......I

remember that one of you had written to me about something that last

for seven years and this is my turn to go through it but I don't

remember what it was called........is there anything I can do about

it?? Please help....... Robined]

December 7, 2002

Hi Robin,

I am the proud black sheep of this family. I am no expert in

in Hinduism, but I have had my share of suffering, and that

had made me close to the Most High, the Param Atama, as Amma

says.

I can not tell you how to avoid suffering, but i can tell

you what I learned from the Most High about suffering.

This lesson came to me in the form of an inner vission.

One day, in the spring of 1999 i was sitting by the beach

in california crying in pain and calling Gurudeva. I had not

seen Amma yet. This is what i saw that day.

I saw a world full of bind people. All this bind people were

trying to get somewere in a rush, however, they were just

going in "circles" and bumping everyone out their way. It was

a scene of caos.

There were women and children (blind also) that were being push by

this men out of their way, this men were hurtfull. But the blind women

and children were also doing the same, but with less impact than the

men.

Then i see a few (blind also) that were not rushing to go anyware.

They were just siting in the floor. They were meditaing in the middle

of all this caos. I noticed them because they seemed to shine.

As i focused on them i see that their light emanated from their

heart.

Then it came as a lighting to me. The Most High does not punish

anyone. We ourselves asked of these experiences on earth. These

experiences of suffering are realy the proof of the love

of the Most High.

Why is this?

Because it is trough suffering that we open our hearts. It is

trough suffering that we gain the higest lesson of Love and

Compassion.

This is our greates tresure, our love and compassion towards

others.

This can only be learned if we experience the pain that you

are experiencing now.

Blessed are the times of pain, because the bring us closer

to the Most High.

Maybe this is the time to talk to all these homeless people, hippies

and rastas you tought were to low or dirty to be close to. They might

have a lesson waiting for you. You see, this ecomonic systems wants

to enslave you on a low paying job. And will take most of

your income (in the form of taxes) for corrupted war and political

purposes.

This might be your opprtunity to free up from the system

of legal enslavement of this country.

Redesign your self. Create a new you. One that does not need

to have a slave job. However, you would need to separate youself

from this Babylon system.

You can't serve the Most High and our political system at the same

time. Even do some here say is possible.

How can you go to work 9-5 designing machinery and computer programs

that will help destroy the world for the benefit of white supremacist,

or work for banks that exploit and discriminate against the poor just

to get a paycheck for your family?

Does it make sence to you that is ok to have a job for our armed

forces and police (which real task is to protect the rich interests)

or one of the many companies that helps destroy the enviroment?

Free up sister and dont worry too much. You will make it out

of this cycle as a new you!

Only you can break the chains of mental slavery!!

With all Raspects,

rastanaga

PS. All spelling errors are intencional, i can care less about a

language of explotation.

December 7, 2002

Ammachi, "rasozai <rasozai>"

> One day, in the spring of 1999

This should be 1991. I have known Amma for 11 years now.

December 7, 2002

Dear Robin,

I have writen to Amma when I have been in deep trouble,and She has

helped me in ways that I could not have imagined. I have sent the

letters to where She was on tour. Now, She is in India.

In the October Amrita eNews this was included:

" MAM write to Amma "

I have already written an email to Amma at this email address:

MAM

and it went through alright.

Here is just one example of how Amma's help has come to me when I

have written to Her.

In this past year Amma blessed me with big help... help in such a

way that I never imagined I would get. My physical condition is not

good as I am handicapped and disabled ( my physical problems are

many: I am unable to sit o.k. in a chair, I am

on crutches with trouble in my back, legs and feet, I have very

severe allergies, brain damage, and other problems).

Last Feb., my father was diagnosed with

cancer and given a short time to live. He wanted me to come and help

take care of him as he wanted to die in his home ( he lived alone).

I was very scared and started writing to Amma. To travel more than

3,000 miles in wintertime, and stay in in houses that previously I

could not breathe in, because of the type of heating system that is

used, was scary to me. I have had many close calls of nearly

suffocating to death because of my health problems, and when I cannot

breathe, and start to lose control of my body, and get seizure

activity in my brain, life gets scary.

I was very terrified of making this trip, but I went , and got many,

many blessings during the experience; and was

physically well enough so that I could breathe alright in my father's

home (maybe the amount of oxygen being put out by his oxygen machine

helped too). I had no experience of being alone taking care of a

person dying at home. I was scared of not doing everything right.

Miracles happened. To give one example: one morning when my father

was very congested ,and he started coughing up blood, the local

hospice worker just walked in the door.

She reached down into his throat and pulled out a clot of blood, and

then Dad could breathe a lot easier.

It was one of the things that I needed to learn how to do.

Dad died in his home with me with him, as he wanted.

In the last 2-3 minutes of his life a wonderful, joyful peace came

over his face; his anguish, anger, and bitterness disappeared.

Never, had I ever seen him look peaceful or joyful in his entire

life, but he did before he died, and I thank my Amma for that.

My father was a very rough old lumberjack.

In 1995 I got my father into Amma's arms

for darshan and he cried like a small child;( afterwards he went

outside the hall and had a cigarette, and never, ever spoke about

the expeience). I am forever grateful for Amma's Grace and Blessings

for my father .

Please if you feel like it, write an email to Amma, and then when She

is on tour next in the U.S., make and work at plans to see Her with

your children. It is all well worth it.

We all need help and love and prayers.

In Amma's Love,

Sara

>

> Namaste Everyone,

>

> Things have takin a turn for the worst for me I don't know if I

have bad energy and need to do a clinsing or what...I do know however

I have had bad luck for about four months now and its only getting

worst...I am trying to keep my chin up about everything....and I

thought that everthing was good....and going to get better....I don't

know if I am being tested in my strength ...but I am weakening.....I

have quit smoking for almost a week now.....I am now living in my

home after four months of living with my parents.....My hasband and I

are divorcing.....and Money is my biggest problem....and Just

lastnight in the mail a letter tells me my license is suspended for

thirty days.....I have to go to work Im the only one to provide for

my children at this point.......I can't even buy ONE christmas

present for my kids....which it really doesnt matter but at the same

time its still in the back of my head.......I wasnt able to buy ONE

birthday present for my older daughter who is six this past nov

either....but she had a party and that was enough to make her

happy......I am trying to be strong through all of this ...but I do

need prayers......I remember that one of you had written to me about

something that last for seven years and this is my turn to go through

it but I don't remember what it was called........is there anything I

can do about it?? Please help....... Robin

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December 7, 2002

Dear Robin,

hi again. I see that the email address to write to Amma did not post

correctly. It is : MAM

Best Wishes,