BUGS BUGS BUGS

[Guest guest]

Regarding BUGS, which I HAD a serious dislike of, and

spiders in particularly a definite PHOBIA, I have a

story.

 

Some time before the last program in Ann Arbor, we

were redoing the altar configuration in the ashram,

taking everything down and cleaning, etc. So when the

re-assembly was going on, I carefully hung a golden

cloth from the ceiling to the floor and was preparing

to drape it just so, and a HUGE, I mean really fat

juicy spider was sitting right in the middle of the

cloth. I was mystified because I myself had taken the

cloth from a bag that I brought in, I didn't think

there were any spiders in that stupid bag!

 

My breath stopped and I began to cry and back away

from the cloth and the spider.

 

My friend who was helping me, who is not afraid of

spiders, told me to back away. She would take care of

the REALLY BIG spider. It had orange stripes and a

body the size of my thumbnail, and of course if any of

you dear devotees still have phobias, you know how the

mind can magnify the object of your fear to monstrous

proportions and that is what happened.

 

My heart was beating out of my chest and the spider

was getting bigger (in my mind).

 

When this spider saw me that day, however, he or she

was very lucky because I only stopped breathing and

cried and backed away. The spider was put outside

carefully, it took some time for my heart to return to

it's normal cadence, and I thanked Amma for the lesson

and that someone was there to help me.

 

So the point of this story is that prior to meeting

Amma and being taught about fear and about the spirit

in all things I would have so smashed that HUGE orange

stripedy spider so flat, it wouldn't have lasted a

moment!

 

I now tolerate bugs in my universe, I can't say I love

them yet, someday I plan to, with Amma's grace .

 

 

 

 

 

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Om Namashivaya - In Amma's service,

 

Supriti Omenka Nnadi

 

 

 

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[Guest guest]

Oh Suprika!

 

Mother does work on us, huh? About five years ago I was staying in a

friend's in-law apt. above a garage in Berkeley for the November San Ramon

programs. It started to rain, and dozens and dozens of spideys started

showing up inside. I tried to see them as 8-armed Devis, to only little

effect on my nerves, especially when one crawled across my face in bed.

 

But I've also had experiences sitting in the meditation hall in San Ramon

where a buzzing fly lands on my nose, and immediately suffused my being

with a sense of lying under Kali's Feet themselves! It became predictably

cosmic - a fly would buzz, land around my nose, and my body would react to

the "darshan," falling into some deep state, as if Mother Herself had just

taken the form.

 

Love, Prashanti