Digest Number 844

[Guest guest]

AmmasLotus, I hope you get to the program. If you felt so strongly to post

here you must need Amma bad. I'm meditating for beautiful a turn for you.

 

At my job we went into the summer with our position of Camp Coordinator

unfilled so the job went to my director and I, therefore my summer vacation

request

was denied so my plans to see Amma on tour were canceled that year. I was

sooo Pisssed Offfff. I had not been able to go to a program the previous 3 years

because of financial difficulties. I started griping to myself for days "I

never went to camp when I was a kid, I can't believe I have to stay here and

baby-sit these punks, rotten bourgeois brats!!" It was a yuck frenzy! Then a mom

came in to register her kids for summer camp with me and she says "I am really

so grateful that the Temple is a safe place for my boys to be, you hear horror

stories about daycare, and at least I know they are safe here since I had to

return to working full time (voice shaking now)... my husband.. my husband.."

and then came a moment like in a Rumi poem where heaven breaks open and starts

raining Real Gold! She never finished, she put her hands on her face like a

vice, skin turning red, her head lowered to my desk and she started moaning a

deep cry. I went to put my hand on her and she jerked it away. I felt like a

thousand fiery fingers were poking me and saying "Diana's a punk, a rotten

bourgeois brat." Cobwebs in my heart, darkness in my mind, full of myself.

 

Sincerely,

 

The Fully Rotten Brat, hopeful to be dirt under Ma's feet

 

 

In a message dated 6/9/03 10:01:44 AM Eastern Daylight Time,

Ammachi writes:

 

<< Jai Ma!!!!

 

I feel so fortunate to have a (coffee drinking) sister such as you on this

list!

Wow! Just reading your letter was my satsang for today!

>>

[Guest guest]

Namah Shivaya,

So much has been written here about how Amma is with us all the time

and responds to us etc...

 

I dont doubt any of that, in fact, I have experienced it myself.

But, yet, I long to physically see her and in a sense get (re)

confirmation that the one who 'communicates' with me and smiles

mischeviously when Im not looking at the photo is in fact her!

[And you thought I was looking elsewhere, eh, Amma?!]

 

A lot of the folks here are not able to see Amma during the US tour.

I will be getting a number of darshans next month and rather than

keep asking her about mundane things, I would like to volunteer to

communicate to her, any message/question from my spiritual

brothers/sisters here, who cannot make it due to any reason.

 

You can reply directly to me instead of the group and I will try my

best to respond back with her response, as accurately as possible.

This would be my seva. For the rest of us, here's something I read,

that's worth a thought or two:

'When you pray for others, the entire universe prays for you'.

 

Lokaha Samastaha Sukhino Bhavantu

 

Ravi